Sweet Sue

[ Free Me From This Bond: Chapter 3 ]

Date: Mar 23 2012 09:11:57 AM
From: Zeke
To: Sweet Sue
Subject: Hello from Zeke

Hello, Sweet Sue! Comcast’s mailbox service has decided to block my posts to you and to anyone else using that service…under the false accusation that I am posting spam. I suspect a homophobe or two in their ranks, trying to screw with me. This is why you haven’t heard from me in a while…and why I’m posting to you now, via another mail service…hopefully, this will get through.

I’ve just completed my latest blog entry, which I really want you to see, as it is a Christian perspective on gay liberation, of the most positive sort. Seeing as I attempt to include various religious and other world views from a gay perspective, in order to elevate our dignity in the eyes of the hetero world:

This true tale may be regarded as my inclusion of a Christian perspective in order to win the hearts of many who remain anti-gay, and use God’s name to justify their homophobia. I would be incredibly HONORED if you took the time very soon, to enjoy my latest achievement, which I consider the FINEST piece of writing I’ve done to date:

https://zekeblog.wordpress.com/2012/03/23/free-me-from-this-bond/

Blessings on you always. I like to think that your impeccable son “Snackboy” guided my hand in the process.

<3 Zeke

*Click here* to view my own tribute to Terry. I finally was able to contact his mom, Susan Crummitt, only after posting the SnackBoy videos on Youtube (which occurred about a year after I published the tribute). Ever since then, it’s been a beautiful and profound association via e-mail; we shall always keep in touch. One day, I will finally fly out to the Metro D.C. region, and personally give Sweet Sue the best bear hug ever…and take her out to a FABulous dinner!

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Date: Wed, Mar 28, 2012 at 12:04 PM
From: Zeke
To: Sweet Sue
Subject: Doping Wealthy Dopes

Sweet Sue, I just composed this piece (“Doping Wealthy Dopes”) as a possible solution to the homeless problem in the Castro, particularly as regards the doping of older men by desperate youth. I believe that Larkin was once homeless, and if the economy doesn’t soon pick up speed, he may become that once more. Not that he’s spoken to me about this at all, but I have a hunch. I just emailed it to the Bay Area Reporter (which has banned all my letters for years now, thanks to one police commissioner now retired), and the SF Bay Times. I will expand my outreach later tonight, perhaps even gay papers beyond The City. Cheerz!

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Date: Sun, Apr 1, 2012 at 11:47 AM
From: Sweet Sue
To: Zeke
Subject: Doping Wealthy Dopes

Hi Zeke. I’ve rec’d your recent emails. My Aunt died recently and I haven’t caught up on energy, etc. As you know, I sincerely appreciate all that you did to put Terry’s snacks online, that was great. I started to read your recent writings, but when I got to the men urinating on the ice cubes and reading about the size of each others private parts, I stopped. Maybe others appreciate this kind of writing, but I do not. I know as a Christian, I’m to think and meditate on whatever is pure, kind, holy, and this was not. I just do not find it appropriate. In the future, I’d be glad to look over your writings, as long as they are wholesome, uplifting, etc.

I did read the doping weathy dopes piece. It is a shame that people are reduced to being thugs and robbing others, or even think it is o.k. It is a sad state of affairs out there, and I hear your concern. Unfortunately, if any of the Robin Hood gang was successful in gaining any riches from others, they would most likely use it on themselves. Human nature being what it is. Really was not clear or detailed on how you would accomplish this. I know you have been wanting to make things better for others for a long time now.

Love,
Susan

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Date: Wednesday, March 28, 2012 2:04 PM
From: Zeke
To: Sweet Sue
Subject: Doping Wealthy Dopes

On Sun, Apr 1, 2012 at 11:47 AM, Sweet Sue wrote:
{{ Hi Zeke. I’ve rec’d your recent emails. My Aunt died recently and I haven’t caught up on energy, etc.}}

Very sorry about your Aunt’s passing.

{{ As you know, I sincerely appreciate all that you did to put Terrys’ snacks online, that was great. I started to read your recent writings, but when I got to the men urinating on the ice cubes and reading about the size of each others private parts, I stopped.}}

Okay. But then, you’ll miss out on the revelation of Christ as a conclusion to the tale. Perhaps you could just skip to the final part, which is all handwritten: a letter to my Randolph back in 1987.

Please realize that my calling requires me to reach out to the gay community’s underbelly…and being all wholesome and sweet certainly does not cut the mustard. I was hoping you’d read through it all, as I know you’d appreciate how I use my writing to help elevate the spirit of the downtrodden.

Also, remember with whom Jesus associated in His social circle: prostitutes, thieves, and all other sorts of underdogs…some of whom I’m sure were gay prostitutes.

{{ I’d be glad to look over your writings, as long as they are wholesome, uplifting, etc. }}

I do have to say that all my writing is quite wholesome and uplifting. Unfortunately, you don’t quite grasp my mission.

{{ Unfortunately, if any of the Robin Hood gang was successful in gaining any riches from others, they would most likely use it on themselves. }}

That is an assumption not necessarily correct, though usually it is. Just remember why Jesus was crucified in the first place:

Precisely to some day achieve such goals as I attempt to achieve…against all odds.

{{ I know you have been wanting to make things better for others for a long time now. }}

Indeed, that is the only purpose worth having in life…whether you actually achieve such goals is irrelevant, for that is in God’s hands, right?

Blessings always, in spite of disagreements. I can’t expect everyone to grasp my point.

Sincerely,

Ezekiel, God’s modern day prophet on behalf of our gay homeless.

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Date: Sun, Apr 1, 2012 at 1:04 PM
From: Zeke
To: Sweet Sue
Subject: Doping Wealthy Dopes

A little honesty here:

If I recall correctly, you shared with me a rather risque joke or two some time back…now, I wish I had saved it to show you. And with all due respect, none of my humorous remarks satirizing gay sexuality, are any more harmful than the risque joke(s) you posted to me. Capiche?

The urinal scenes are most hilarious to many people BTW, and if you continue reading, you’ll see how I weave a remarkable tale of brotherly love, in order to elevate our downtrodden, as well as promote more respect by the outside world, that is, heterosexuals.

As a fellow soldier of God, I kind of need to tell you, you’re missing the mark here.

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Date: Sun, Apr 1, 2012 at 1:10 PM
From: Zeke
To: Sweet Sue
Subject: Doping Wealthy Dopes

Please please please please please please please please please read the entire piece before you pass judgment. You know I don’t use expletives or risque material unless it can serve a higher purpose (unlike Amazing Atheist).

I am very sure you will be most impressed and inspired by the true tale, once you’re done.

I know you’re a tough cookie, and I am a bit startled that you collapsed under such a light weight (that is merely risque humor–brilliantly executed if I say so myself–and nothing more).

If perchance you should still think my tale is “unwholesome”; that is: unworthy of your pure spirit…then by all means, excoriate me from here to Hell and back again.

Besides: I am so eager for you to read this masterpiece, that if you don’t follow through soon, I just may suffer a severe aneurism.

Blessings and humor always.

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Date: Sun, Apr 1, 2012 at 1:04 PM
From: Sweet Sue
To: Zeke
Subject: Doping Wealthy Dopes

Hey Zeke. Just got home from dinner with my Sister. ok, ok, since it means so very much to you, I will read the whole thing.

Will be back in touch soon.

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Date: Sun, Apr 1, 2012 at 4:47 PM
From: Zeke
To: Sweet Sue
Subject: Doping Wealthy Dopes

Thank you thank you thank you, Sweet Sue! I am only pushing the margins on you a bit, ONLY because I believe that I have achieved Christ’s message in a most elegant way, that will benefit gay people worldwide.

Will await your opinion, which I highly respect, with baited breath.

PS: I’ve put away my anti-aneurism pills now, ’cause I don’t think I’ll need ’em.

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Date: Sun, Apr 1, 2012 at 6:33 PM
From: Sweet Sue
To: Zeke
Subject: Doping Wealthy Dopes

Hi Zeke. I’ve carefully, and many times read the letters that you wrote. Hands down you are an intelligent and amazing writer.

As far as your target audience here, I saw it as a letter to Randy, and a potential message of hope to gays in their relationships with others. In this regard, I see that you have written to share your love and compassion for another, which is encouraging to others, suffering the same turmoils that you were experiencing. You wrote these to Randy with raw, open feelings and emotion, and elegantly, which I found compelling. That was sad reading that you felt like dying when you wrote these. You repeating these feelings to him.

Did Randy ever respond to you after receiving these? It is so true that we have the dark human side to our nature, yet the wonderful and truly hopeful thing is that we are also composed in Gods’ image, which gives us hope.

Curious what you meant by the dark ways of the white man? And, what does, “burn away into the eternal light” signify”?

Surely, Christ’s message is us to love one another and treat each other with love and compassion, and I agree that part of the reason we may remain in our sinful state is this lack of love towards others, yet the Bible in the Book of Romans, especially in the beginning states that man loves his evil deeds, doing them in darkness, showing that he knows they are wrong. So, it is also that we love to sin. That’s the rest of the story here, and we just cannot blame others, we must look to ourselves first, and acknowledge our sinfulness and turn to the Lord for His forgiveness and complete restoration through accepting the love of God, through His sacrificial death of His Son, for the atonement of our sins. Then, and only then, can we be right with God, and live the full and abundant life that He came to give us. Apart from accepting His gift of life through Christ we are all destined to Hell.

Previously, you had written that the only sect of Christianity that you feel valid is the gnostic, meaning that it is equal with all the other “religions” of the World. Do you still believe that? I know we have spoken of this before. I do not believe that man can do anything apart from the Lord to earn his favor. As the Bible teaches us, even our most righteous acts are filthiness in His eyes. On our own, we can never be good enough, and we will always mess up.

You’ve written here about the joy you know from your faith in Christ? I just wondered what joy your faith has given you Zeke? And, what is faith to you Zeke?

You wrote them long ago. A couple decades. What responses have you received from these letters over the years Zeke?

I will await your response with baited breath. :)

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Date: Sun, Apr 1, 2012 at 8:00 PM
From: Zeke
To: Sweet Sue
Subject: Doping Wealthy Dopes

On Mon, Apr 2, 2012 at 11:23 AM, Sweet Sue wrote:
{{ Hi Zeke. I’ve carefully, and many times read the letters that you wrote. Hands down you are an intelligent and amazing writer. }}

Thank you. It is a gift from the angels. I am very PROUD of those letters, the angels have blessed me mightily!

{{ As far as your target audience here, I saw it as a letter to Randy, and a potential message of hope to gays in their relationships with others. }}

Definitely, but it is also: Larkin come to me as my New Love, freeing me from the shackles of bearing a cross for many years for a Vietnam Veteran of great courage and suffering. Ergo: “Free Me From This Bond”. In the end, I let go of Randolph, and confess my love to Larkin. I would say that, in a way, Randolph is my guardian angel who found Larkin for me.

Larkin has always admired my devotion towards Randolph, and is one of many reasons why he loves me so much. In a most amazing way, Randolph reaches out to me through Larkin.

Yes, this is very much a tale of hope for my gay brothers…especially those who have become lost in drugs and pornography and otherwise dehumanizing perspectives. When a minority is so vilified, a certain portion of them can’t help but become so bitter, as to fulfill the very evil with which they are accussed. This is true for any persecuted minority, African Americans being a prime example.

By dedicating my life as an activist for homeless and downtrodden gays, often laying down my life in faith that I will elevate my brothers (rather than being destroyed myself), I have earned these gifts of the spoken and written word. I have earned Randolph’s salvation…and through him, the salvation of all veterans of the Vietnam conflict.

Randolph was raised in the very conservative and old fashioned culture of West Virginia. Though a proud and out gay, he maintained his devotion to Christ all his life. Here I am, a pagan with strong Celtic and shamanic influences, trying to find a way to love Randolph, and liberate him from such terrible ordeals. I had to find Christ in order to find the answer. And I did.

For this reason, I regard Randolph as my guardian angel, for it is in his suffering that was borne upon my shoulders, that I became a much better man, and devoted to Our Father and His Loving Son. They came to me in powerful visions after Randolph shot himself. Angels came to me too…gave me instructions on how to do the right thing by this man. And so I did, but it cost me many years of tribulation. None of which I’d trade for anything, for I am now a hero, and beloved by God, His Son, and their magnificent angels.

{{ In this regard, I see that you have written to share your love and compassion for another, which is encouraging to others, suffering the same turmoils that you were experiencing. You wrote these to Randy with raw, open feelings and emotion, and elegantly, which I found compelling. }}

Thank you SO much for bearing through the raunchy passages, in order to get to the heart of my tale! I knew you’d be impressed. My angels told me to be pushy about it, that you would be grateful I was.

It is in the shamanic wisdom (such as from Native Americans and ancient Celtic belief) that I learned the wisdom of baring one’s heart in order to heal one’s tribe. I am more like the Christian author C.S. Lewis (“The Chronicles of Narnia,” “The Screwtape Letters,” etc.) who wove Christian morality into a pagan tapestry. Or like the Book of Kells, an exquisite fusion of Celtic belief with Christian…I do the same, only for gays. Thus, you have a weaving of fairytale metaphor with Christian love. Randolph is my guardian angel, while Larkin is my guardian dragon. Two loves, two hearts, two cultures, two religions. All united with Jehovah’s blessings.

{{ That was sad reading that you felt like dying when you wrote these. You repeating these feelings to him. }}

Yes, it is most sad…yet now with enough hindsight, I can share this sadness with the world, to touch their hearts about the gay plight in a homophobic society that uses Jesus Christ’s very own name to persecute them! That’s really sad, eh? But my own emotion is PRIDE above and beyond any other…and God Himself has handed me the Golden Apple of Authorship, that will touch the soul of so many. And bring about a profound change of heart towards sexual minorities. It is a great gift most profound, for which I am enormously thankful.

{{ Did Randy ever respond to you after receiving these? It is so true that we have the dark human side to our nature, yet the wonderful and truly hopeful thing is that we are also composed in Gods’ image, which gives us hope. }}

You are such an elegant author yourself, Sweet Sue, you take my breath away! Sometimes, he responded, but it was sporadic. Nonetheless, I took heart and steeled myself to endure whatever slings and arrows came my way, in order to find a solution to bring him true peace and happiness. And I did, I know in my heart I did, though he has disappeared from my life since 1992. I am over the grief, I have only great pride and joy for my dedication…which reward has now come to me in the form of Larkin, and this incredible talent. Which is glorious affirmation that Randolph is just fine, wherever he is, and most grateful for my enduring affections.

{{ Curious what you meant by the dark ways of the white man? }}

I am a shaman in spirit, who channels other spirits, such as angels, gods, animals, and so on. In that letter, I was channeling a Native American spirit…for whom the white man is a very dark force. As you well know.

{{ And, what does, “burn away into the eternal light” signify? }}

It is time for this earth to become the Happy Hunting Ground; mankind has suffered enough. Those who still refuse to practice brotherly and sisterly love, shall be removed from this sphere, and reincarnate to another world where they may continue to grow in their foolish manner, while those who remain can finally enjoy a life of harmony, joy, and fellowship.

{{ Surely, Christ’s message is us to love one another and treat each other with love and compassion, and I agree that part of the reason we may remain in our sinful state is this lack of love towards others, yet the Bible in the Book of Romans, especially in the beginning states that man loves his evil deeds, doing them in darkness, showing that he knows they are wrong. So, it is also that we love to sin. That’s the rest of the story here, and we just cannot blame others, we must look to ourselves first, and acknowledge our sinfulness and turn to the Lord for His forgiveness and complete restoration through accepting the love of God, through His sacrificial death of His Son, for the atonement of our sins.

Then, and only then, can we be right with God, and live the full and abundant life that He came to give us. Apart from accepting His gift of life through Christ we are all destined to Hell. }}

So beautifully written, Sweet Sue, I dare not pare down any of that paragraph! As for “Hell” here is what I’ve come to understand:

There is no eternal hell, only that punishment meted out for whatever sins we have committed. Once the purging is complete, these souls shall also come to rest in God’s heart. There is no person created, that God will ever destine to eternal damnation. That is a belief added on by powermongering preachers who teach with fear. The Buddha said that heaven and hell are a state of mind…and that makes perfect sense. For what good deeds or bad deeds you commit, they will pile up into an ultimate outcome: either liberation of the soul, or more suffering.

Christ’s sacrifice on the cross was to ensure that no one should ever stray so far, as to never be able to eventually be brought up into God’s Light. In fact, I find it to be an abomination to even believe that a loving God would ever condemn any wretched soul to eternal fire. Temporary fire, yes…and for each, a different length of time depending on the sin.

Some Christian churches do believe in eternal hell, while others do not. I stand firmly with the latter. Many folks shall soon be removed from this planet, due to their darkly sinful ways, that this planet may finally know liberation. One could say these losers will be cast into hell. But that does not mean their hell will be eternal…just they need to continue on their path in another dimension, where they can no longer thwart good folk’s destiny here on earth.

{{ Previously, you had written that the only sect of Christianity that you feel valid is the gnostic, meaning that it is equal with all the other “religions” of the World. Do you still believe that? }}

Gnostic Christianity is quite complex, not simplistic like fundamentalist churches. They possess a vast, intellectual sphere that gives birth to great Christian thinkers such as Teilhard de Chardin, who do not spit on other belief systems (such as pagan, shamanic, and so forth), but give reverence to them, as aspects of perceiving the same God in different cultural lenses. I can only feel at home in such Christian venues that allow us to keep an open mind, and befriend those who are non-Christian, including atheists. This is the essence of brotherly/sisterly love…not limited among only those who believe the same as yourself. It may not be easy, but the cross never was.

{{ I know we have spoken of this before. I do not believe that man can do anything apart from the Lord to earn his favor. As the Bible teaches us, even our most righteous acts are fifthiness in His eyes. On our own, we can never be good enough, and we will always mess up. }}

Of course not. But when a man or woman is righteous for so many years, sometimes the angels do shower them with blessings, for all the world to witness. Such as Job, who suffered egregious trials for many many years, yet stuck to his belief that God was ultimately loving. He may have been more tested by Jehovah than any other person in history. In a similar fashion, I have been tested (included suffering horrid cysts that started behind the left ear, and rapidly spread all over my face…from the ages of 16 to 22),

yet remained steadfast in believing in The Good, whether it be through Celtic, shamanic, Christian, or other beliefs. I am, after all, a student of world religions…I love the diverse and colorful ways different cultures perceive Our Creator.

{{ You’ve written here about the joy you know from your faith in Christ? I just wondered what joy your faith has given you Zeke? And, what is faith to you Zeke? }}

The angels came to me regarding Randolph, and gave me the strength to stand by his side, both literally and metaphorically, these many years. Christ Himself came to me, and asserted that my struggle for gay liberation in this world was not just righteous, but most holy. For He showed that in homosexuals suffering the horrid ridicule, vilification, terror and murder by a vast majority, they walk Christ’s path more closely than any other minority. Now, my skills in telling tales that have become so finely honed, certainly reflect the end result of my endurance and keeping the flame alive in my heart, for all my gay brothers and sisters around the world.

Faith to me, is never giving up on your dreams. That the angels are cheering you on, even if you don’t see or hear them. But I am also a most lucky man: for I have seen and heard them throughout my unusual life, even since I was a child.

{{ You wrote them long ago. A couple decades. What responses have you received from these letters over the years Zeke? }}

Oh, I do have some love letters from Randolph. But I’ve written the greatest body of them…in fact, probably over 200 wonderful letters to Randolph, of which I only have copied less than ten percent. They are somewhere, and one day they will be discovered, and put into my Life’s Labor of Love: “The Gay Bible” (or “Final Testament“). In fact, I don’t think Randolph died, I think he just is in hiding for a while, and will soon come back to me. For this is what my visions, my angels tell me. But no, his torment from the bloody conflict tore apart his spirit, I could not expect his love returned; I could only expect my fidelity to grow under duress. I call myself “God’s Little Grunt”.

They tell me that Larkin will bring me to Randolph…and when that occurs, so will the liberation of my gay family. I know this may sound crazy, this is an incredible claim…but as far as I can tell, I speak only truth. And my time has come, my star is rising…with the blessings of Jesus and His Incredible Dad Themselves!

{{ I will await your response with baited breath. :) }}

Ha! Love it. Chapter Two, “Moby’s Dick” contains barely an iota of raunchy queer humor (except of course for the title), and it is a continuation of what occurred in Chapter One. I sincerely hope you will read that too, soon…for I know you will enjoy it immensely. Here’s the URL again:

https://zekeblog.wordpress.com/2012/03/28/mobys-dick/

Finally: I do realize we may have disagreements on what Christ, Hell, and Faith mean…however, I do respect you immensely, regardless…and again am SO grateful you’ve listened to my plea to read Chapter One in its entirety. I am VERY blessed to have you in my life, Sweet Sue. And I apologize if anything I have said regarding my spiritual beliefs may have offended you in any way, shape or manner. In memory of Snackboy, I wish you only joy and happiness.

Sincerely,

Zeke <3

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Date: Mon, Apr 2, 2012 at 8:08 PM
From: Zeke
To: Sweet Sue
Subject: Doping Wealthy Dopes

More on My Handsome Randolph:

Another vision has shown that Randolph is my guardian angel, who concocted this war veteran scenario just to create a wonderful romantic adventure for me. So he wasn’t really shot, or suffered that much…it was more like a Hollywood setup, so I could play the hero and become a great author and activist, myself.

If this is true, then I’ve been duped. But what a WONDERFUL dupe it is!

I think what is lost on most Christians is God’s sense of humor, and that of the angels. You must therefore study pagan and shamanic beliefs, to grasp that dimension we call divine levity.

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Date: Wed, Apr 4, 2012 at 2:13 PM
From: Sweet Sue
To: Zeke
Subject: Doping Wealthy Dopes

Hi Zeke. I was curious about your relationship with Larkin now Zeke? I hope he is and continues to be a loving friend to you.

I cannot imagine the persecution and suffering that gays experience. I look forward to speaking with Terry about this.

Regarding those who persecute: yes, maybe some fulfill and return the evil, but what good does that bring? Man wants to think they are better than others. I remember Terry telling an older guy he worked with that was always trying to put him down, out of jealousy, most likely. Does cutting my tree down make yours feel a little taller? Revenge is mine says the Lord.

I do believe we are and can be blessed by God, but don’t think we earn anything by our own good deeds. However, we do reap what we sow. No one can earn another’s salvation. We are each responsible for all of the good and bad that we do in our bodies and will be judged according, not by man, but by the Lord. When Jesus comes again, He will separate the sheep from the goats. I suppose this is an area we will have to agree to disagree. This is so important for people to know and grasp, because it affects their eternal salvation.

Christ loves you Zeke. He loves us all.

I’ve never had an Angel come to me. Well, I’m sure they have. I’ve just never recognized them as such.

You did what you felt was the right thing for Randolph, Zeke. You are beloved by God anyway, because He created you, and only wants the best for you, and all of us.

Well, I just read and concentrated on the written part as you suggested. I knew that it was important to you for me to read them, although I’m really not much of a reader Zeke. Never have been. Now Kenny and Terry are. I remember always reading to them, hoping they would fall asleep and take a nap. :)

Actually, I was the one who took a nap and they got up and ransacked the house. I’m your friend Zeke. So, I wanted to check this out, ’cause it’s special to you. That was really nice to read that you valued my opinion, although I’m pretty ignorant about many cultures and worldly views. You are leap years ahead of me regarding this stuff. It’s just not that important to me. We’re all so different.

Yes, I see how you webbed your writing around the Native Americans in your writing here. It is really sad that man tries to vilify, condemn, and persecute. They ought to take the stones out of their own eyes, before throwing them at others, yet, blinded by their own sin. We are all given spiritual gifts from the Lord.

It’s great that you have identified yours and you are a man on a mission! That’s good that you have called it your gift, as from knowing you, I know it has also been most challenging at times.

You flatter me Zeke. I just know what I know, and also when the Lord leads me I am able and most willing to share His truths with others. It is my responsibility as His child.

I do believe that there will be a time again when the Lord will rid us of Sin again. No more pain, no more sorrow. No more hopes of an illusive tomorrow. That’s a song. I didn’t make it up. God has rid the World before of the sinful and Godless, and He will do it again. When he has had enough, he will show no more mercy. We do differ on our beliefs. I do believe and know that the Lord will cast the goats into the lake of fire, and the righteous will be living with the Lord forever. And, the righteous are those who have accepted the love of God, through accepting the gift of His Son, through His atoning death and resurrection.

Actually, Zeke it really does not matter what you or I believe unless it conforms to what the Lord has said and decreed. Our opinion is for naught. His ways are not fathomable to us. He is a God of love, but He is also a God of justice. We can never be good enough, I don’t care what the Buddhists say. Without the Lord’s Spirit we are not capable of understanding any of this.The natural man receiveth not the things of God, for they are foolishness unto him, neither can he know them, for they are spiritually revealed. God says there is a Hell, which is going to be some sort of punishment for those who die in sin, and the Bible says that it is eternal.

I believe that Christ’s sacrifice was the full payment for our sin, because God cannot be around sin, only what is pure and holy. So, He became a man, lived a perfect life, and gave up His life for each and every one of us. One man died so that all might live.

You feel it an abomination to even believe that a loving God would ever condemn any wretched soul to eternal fire. Again, I really do not think it matters to God what we think. He’s gonna do, what He says He’s gonna do. God said it, I believe it, and that settles it for me. Sin is sin Zeke. There are no little sins or big sins in His eyes. Sin is sin, it is missing His mark, and burdens and grieves Him deeply, and He’s going to discipline or punish accordingly, even if it isn’t what we think is fair.

I don’t relish believing in eternal hell, yet being outside of His presence surely should be eternal hell for us. The alternative is better than we finite creatures can even imagine. Eyes have not seen, nor has it entered into the hearts of man, what God has planned for those who love him.

I would like to believe as you here, but again, it doesn’t matter what we think, it’s what He says. I know there are those that believe in reincarnation, similar to living somewhere else on another dimension. I believe that here is it, and we live our lives as He chisels us to be more in His image. I don’t think He is just going to move us around, and I surely do not understand everything, who does?

I agree that people who think and act without love and acceptance of others are missing the mark, and He will deal with them accordingly. And, yes, isn’t it terrible that some attend Church and think they are righteous, yet it is a righteousness of pride, and not a true righteousness from God. On this I’m sure we agree.

Yes, Job was a righteous man, and showered with blessings. We reap what we sow.

And, he was also severely tested by Satan, which of course, God allowed. And, all of Job’s so called friends missed the mark. I don’t think Job was always holding onto the belief that God was loving. When he was speaking with the Lord, he was saying like why me. I remember reading their conversation, and God was very direct, and was not the wishy washy God, that most people would expect Him to be under the circumstances. That taught me a lot about His nature. There is none not righteous, no not one! It’s nice to see the good in people, but really how good are we? Not so much. If man could be good enough, then why did Christ have to sacrifice Himself for our salvation?

I am not a student of world religions, knowing that pretty much all of them think they can work their way into His good graces, or just think they are too special. I believe all of us are sinful and therefore, separated from Him.

Again, I cannot imagine the horrid ridicule, suffering and even murder of homosexuals. This is wrong and He does not take kindly to these terrific, sinful acts. People are no damn good Zeke, and they will pay for this mistreatment of their fellow man.

For all have sins, and fall short of the glory of God. There is none not righteous, no not one. Therefore, we are all separated from God, until we accept Christ as our Savior and Lord, and live that way.

I’m sure that all of your love for your many gay brothers and sisters around the world will be rewarded by God. And, your love for mankind in general. You have a big heart Zeke.

I would say that you are a blessed man, to have seen and heard your angels throughout your unusual life. I cannot imagine that either. I seldom even remember my dreams, much less experience what you have from the spiritual realm. Somewhat of a prophet, which I know can also be a curse.

Yes, we do have disagreements on these things. You’re a sweetheart Zeke. Thank you for your kind words. You are very special to me too! There is surely no need to apologize for the difference in our spiritual beliefs. We really need mainly to be concerned on offending God.

Love,
Sweet Sue

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Date: Wed, Apr 4, 2012 at 3:43 PM
From: Zeke
To: Sweet Sue
Subject: Doping Wealthy Dopes

I will leave your most eloquent writing untouched, and undebated. I prefer its beauty to shine without further badinage. Blessings, I am most impressed and touched! You are a very gifted soul, who perhaps cannot realize at this time, what an outstanding author of the Truth you really are. <3