On PTSD & Larry Kramer

Like the air we breathe, intense stress has become part of everyone’s life on this planet. This explains all the explosive violence ’round the world…and why I conclude it will lead to a sort of nervous breakdown for the entire species of man. You may not call it PTSD unless it manifests in the public eye as rage…but it leads to drug/alcohol abuse, bad tempers, ill health and broken friendships. For example, if a person is homeless more than a month or so, I’d say he or she has PTSD by default. Though not diagnosed as such, since medical care is beyond that person’s reach. The suffering and violence across Africa, for another example…well, no way PTSD is going to stand in the wings. I see homeless people, and those too poor to live in anything but derelict housing in bad neighborhoods, suffering from this or that malady, whether physical or mental. They are not classified as PTSD sufferers, solely because they do not belong to at least a reasonably affluent level of society, and thus are not classified by those well paid doctors and psychiatrists as suffering from PTSD. In fact, they are not counted at all. Not everyone may have severe PTSD, but they certainly have either mild or moderate PTSD.

Plug in my sensitivity chip? Ah, yes, I’m such a mean, cold spirited person, I don’t know why you even bother to communicate with me. Sensitivity chip, my ass. Where do you come up with such phrases…you sound like a new age armchair psychologist who watches Dr. Phil reruns all day long. Considering all the sacrifices I’ve made all my life on behalf of my gay brothers and sisters who are homeless or destitute in other ways, taking many risks that threaten my survival (including from affluent gays as well as hetero dipshits), and living hand to mouth for many decades in order to perform my good works than get absorbed by the capitalist Borg, working in a cramped office making another person rich…I really don’t see where you get off saying this. I get numerous threats on my life throughout each year, both online and offline for being such a bold, outspoken whistle blower for our lowest class sexual minorities. So I make a point of patting myself on the back now and then, since it’s so very rare anyone else does.

My latest whistle-blowing achievement is a piece I posted just yesterday, called “No PrEP for the Poor.” It’s about how our low income LGBT’s cannot afford PrEP, which is a drug that prevents, as well as halts and eradicates, AIDS. So while the rich in our community can live a good life w/o the debilitation that comes with untreated AIDS, the low income among us must continue to exist in a virtual 1980’s “gay plague” kind of world. See:

https://zekeblog.wordpress.com/2016/06/30/no-prep-for-the-poor/

Just before that piece, I released a related one, called “Expanded Medicaid = Sick Joke,” ’cause that’s what it really is for the low income. Yet our gov’t wants everyone to think that Obamacare is a godsend for the poorest among us…at least, in the blue states. And I gave /proof/ of my claims by providing links to appropriate resources. You mocked me by posting an “Obama is Satan” pic, which colors me as one of those right-wing nut jobs. Instead of taking a serious look at what I’ve claimed in these posts, you are like so many naive liberals who really don’t see the dirt piling around them, as a result of not just GOP treachery, but the duplicity by the Democratic Party, which is but a gutted out version of its once proud history. Here’s my Medicaid piece:

https://zekeblog.wordpress.com/2016/06/29/expanded-medicaid-sick-joke/

I know your Obama/Satan pic was in response to my original Medicaid rant, which I titled “Obamacare Defecates on the Poor.”

https://zekeblog.wordpress.com/2015/06/09/obamacare-defecates-on-the-poor/

Maybe that language was too much for you…yet that is a very good way of putting it. For it handed a death sentence to 10’s of millions of poor citizens, including myself…while the Democratic Elitists pat themselves on the back for what a “miraculous” success Is Medicaid.

I’m wondering if you’ve read any of my recent pieces about the attack on the poor and LGBT’s by both the RW and the progressive wing. Maybe so many folks like you, who have /some/ level of affluence that keeps the wolves at bay, are so shocked by looming specters of /genuine/ terror enveloping our society in greater proportion each day, that you cannot face the truth, and have become hypnotized into convincing yourselves that things aren’t really as bad as they are. Did you see my piece about Republican lawmakers proposing death to gays? Do you think I’m making this up? Here it is:

https://zekeblog.wordpress.com/2016/05/27/killing-gays-the-republican-agenda/

You and other naive liberals sure make my work an uphill climb that is far steeper than it should be. Bad enough I get ridiculed by the right wing for being an alarmist, and a deluded old fuk…but to have those on /my/ side (progressive and Democratic) do the same thing, is disgusting (to say the least). Let me tell you a secret about PTSD:

One can learn to harness this chaotic force to work in your favor, as a creative tool for righteous outrage. And that is what I have done. So enough of your flippant remarks (and here I’m not just addressing you, but the many others of your ilk whom I call “clueless liberals”): get off the pot pretending the poor and disenfranchised, especially LGBT’s, of our country, don’t really have it all that bad. For we are one step away from full blown holocaust. One may easily make a case that it’s already here, though in the form of a slow genocide. Slow enough, in fact, to make it easy for everyone to look the other way (and mock anyone who speaks out, such as yours truly)…as did the people in Germany as they saw Jews being shipped away by rail, to what they thought were neighboring nations and not (as it really turned out to be) concentration camps.

While I may keep a light heart and sense of humor most of the time, really, Marla, I deal with very serious issues. And some of your responses are grossly insensitive. Like so many on Facebook who prefer this space to be their frivolous getaway from life’s problems, and don’t really appreciate activists like me, who make their presence known. For the truly poor in these disUnited States can /not/ afford to participate in social media. In that way (among other ways), I am an anomaly.

In conclusion: I don’t think you’re that much in touch with the dark side of America, growing darker each day BTW, and seem to behave like things are far better than they really are. News flash: I think your own sensitivity chip needs some fine turning or (better yet) a total replacement. Maybe it’s just the battery, what do I know.

P.S.: I had a similar argument with another “clueless liberal” two months back…a gay, retired person living in Alaska, as it turned out. When I described the inequity of Medicaid, how it’s a death sentence for many poor folks, he told me to “get off the pity pot!” So I just ripped into him like nobody’s business…and called that piece “Baked Alaskan.” Obviously, his sensitivity chip is broken, too.

https://zekeblog.wordpress.com/2016/05/31/baked-alaskan/


The foundations set up by Larry Kramer and his ilk…which are upper middle class gays…do not benefit low income, and homeless within the queer community. Well, maybe just a little. The LGBT family is just as elitist as any other. ACT UP et al merely serve to save the lives of the affluent within their community, not the poor. Larry founded GMHC (Gay Men’s Health Crisis) that now has outposts in all major cities across America. But for the most part, they do little for those who are homeless or low income, even though they claim to include them in their mission.

You can visit their web site, gmhc.org, and see for yourself, that there is nothing they provide for the homeless (or poor), except links to other organizations. And even those organizations offer threadbare assistance, at best. And mostly for “youth,” which they consider to be no older than 25. Once you hit the ripe old age of 26, it’s “fuk you” and you’re back out on the streets again (unless you’re already there). There is nothing provided by the queer community, for homeless LGBT’s who are no longer considered young.

Mr. Kramer /did/ speak out for our poor and disenfranchised LGBT’s, but they/we were dropped from the community as an increasing number of wealthy queers infiltrated these political groups and took over. Here is a 9 minute video of Larry being interviewed by a fluffy drag queen called “Lady Bunny”:

A Conversation With… Larry Kramer _ Lady Bunny

What Kramer had to say is right on, and I appreciate that. But c’mon, someone by name of Lady Bunny adorned with a humongous, puffed up wig turns the entire interview into a mockery of the horror of homophobia and what we are up against. Bad enough that heteros treat us like a joke, but for a queer celebrity to do the same thing, is beyond pathetic. She certainly doesn’t convey the gravity of this ongoing anti-LGBT persecution, to her hetero viewers who are concerned enough to educate themselves.

In the video, she asks where all the vibrant activists and leadership have gone. I’ll tell you where they’ve gone: into their own shells, because those already in power have repressed and marginalized us for decades now. Some, like me, continue to fight the good fight, in spite of rejection from our own community. Thank goddess for the Internet, for it gave me a voice to the world that would otherwise have remained obfuscated by our local, petty politics. I think most, if not all, of our present leaders are in it for the self glory and monetary profit, more than out of any true desire to elevate our position in this world.

I participated for a short while in both ACT UP and Queer Nation. But I soon grew discouraged, due to the numerous self-serving members who spurned most participants that were not white like them, or older than 35, or did not espouse their watered down, pampered middle class version of progressive activism. Very cliquish. It was no longer their strategy to embrace our homeless and low income brothers/sisters, as part of the struggle. What they achieved, therefore, was AIDS prevention and treatment, and other benefits for their own middle and upper class needs. Just like medicinal marijuana.

A perfect example of this is described in my own recent blog entry, how our lowest income queers are denied both AIDS prevention and AIDS recovery, while the reasonably affluent and up have full access, Have you read it yet? I just uploaded it two days ago. It’s short, though important, and I hope you do check it out.

https://zekeblog.wordpress.com/2016/06/30/no-prep-for-the-poor/

I have little to no support or recognition for my dedicated activism, by our SF community. Which is shocking, considering my talent as a reporter and author…that could be quite a groundbreaker for furthering our struggle. The social circle of both Harvey Milk and Larry Kramer pushed me out of their world, and for this reason I wonder how many other good souls they’ve repressed, that could’ve contributed much to our cause. I think what’s going on, is that they want to keep their own positions of power and adulation, more so than actually conquering AIDS and homophobia. For if that ever happened, they fear they’ll fall to the wayside and be replaced by others.

Many times over the last few decades I’ve offered my services to various LGBT newspapers and organizations, as a columnist or investigative reporter, as well as an activist with many novel tactics that could shatter the walls of our enemies. Yet not a single nibble. Though ounce in a while, one of my ideas gets stolen by an already-known activist, who then takes credit for it. Such as my dispute with Queer Nation in 1991:

http://www.gay-bible.org/truetales/6_dispute.htm

So thank you for comparing me with Mr. Kramer, it’s quite flattering. Just thought I’d fill you in with the reality of my situation, and that of disenfranchised queers at large. Though I do hold onto an ultimately optimistic viewpoint, based on the Buddha’s tenet: “We have no enemies, only teachers.”

For perhaps, just perhaps, the LGBT community is so hard on me, is because they have great expectations for my activism, and want me to be very strong. What better way to be strengthened through oppression by the very own people you struggle to save? And in never giving up and forging onward in spite of this undeserved backlash, I grow keener and more powerful, as well as wise. Until the time this community has enabled me (through testing by one obstacle after another) to reach a certain level of perfection…whereby they will finally cease their animosity, and let me through that gate like a charging bull.

I therefore think there is some secret society of LGBT’s that is grooming me and others (who they are, I have no idea) for leadership. Without letting me know, though expecting me to figure it all out in the long run. And that conclusion I reveal in Chapter 9 of my novel, “Free Me From This Bond”:

https://zekeblog.wordpress.com/2012/04/19/dragon-fire-in-the-hole/

How’s /that/ for a response to your chat comment? :D

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