The Final Chapter (part 1)

April 5, 2021

[BRINDLEKIN TALES – Book 3: Chapter 17a]

Subject: Scary or what?
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 2, 2021 9:04 PM

I just completed and published chapter 16, the next-to-last chapter of the entire trilogy! 25-32 minutes reading estimate, which is average for most of the chapters. So now what?

The final chapter NEEDS to be a happy ending. I COULD remove one or two chapters, that are a collection of videos (which will free me up for one or two more chapters yet to pen), but that ruins the multimedia aspect so essential to these books. So, no I WON’T do that. For now, I’ll just have to wait and see. This email, of course, will be the opening salvo.

I feel like a mad scientist, driven at any cost to complete the resurrection of his monster from dead organs, limbs and brain! These tales are totally insane, as well as astoundingly beautiful, profound and liberating. Talk about patting myself on the back! Which would be MUCH easier to do, were I Quasimodo. THAT’S IT, THAT’S YOUR NEW PSEUDONYM: “QUASIMODO!” Ha-ha, just kidding…we’ll stick with good ol’ Doctor Wattson.

Wait-a-minute, that’s the wrong character; Dr. Frankenstein’s assistant was named “Igor.” Who was ALSO a hunchback, so the pun works just the same. What a drab name, though…I could never see you as an Igor.

Thus I now leap into my final chapter of all chapters: the cerulean waters of Avalon, trusting whatever god, nymph or spirit rules this lake, that no leviathan shall rear its scaly head and snatch me up in its jaws. It WOULD be just my rotten luck if this were Loch Ness!

Hopefully, I can dog paddle my way to safe harbor, if such be the case. Arf!

– Zeke K-Holmes


Subject: Lisa Harwood’s Brilliant Recommendation of my Tales
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 3, 2021 8:19 AM

I just posted back to her: “BRILLIANT, THANK YOU!” See below. Deek just showed up with the pooches, BTW…7 AM, woke me up, arrived at the gate so I wouldn’t have to step outside. They went NUTS, dying to dash up the stairs and into my patch of heaven, while I held onto the leashes as their owner spoke:

“I gotta do something very important. I’ll be back this afternoon, maybe later.”

Me: “Okay, they’ll be fine with me.”

Him [with the inevitable question like a broken record]: “Did the money show up yet?”

Me: “Nope.”

Him: “When do you THINK it’ll show up?”

Me: [shrugs shoulders]

Him: “Oh you probably got it already, you’re just lying!”

Me: “Nope.” [Doggies continue to tug on their leashes, tails a-waggin’, while I hold the gate ajar.]

Him: “Every bum on the street has it, and YOU still  don’t?”

Me: “Good for them.”

Him [stern frown on his dusty mug]: “Don’t do anything funny with my dogs, just take care of them like a normal person.”

Me: “Always.”

Having heard enough, I left Deek still spouting absurdities and departed up the stairs with the exuberant brindlekin yanking me all the way hovel, and inside. Now, here’s Lisa’s excellent praise:

–begin:

Subject: Re: [MCN-Announce]- The Next , Next, Next, Next, Next, Next, Next, Next Chapter [BRINDLEKIN TALES – Book 3: Chapter 16]
Date: 2021-04-03 08:06
From: Lisa Harwood
To: Announce MCN

Folks: Have any of you dipped into Zeke’s Brindlekin Tales? (those links in blue he tags onto his listserv posts). You should. It’s a consistently literate journal, tracking the drama of a heroically compressed life (you’ll see as you read chapter-by-chapter) premised by the love for two homeless pups and the perfidy of a younger, destitute friend the “state” has declared their rightful owner.

It includes multiple dialogs, which play off several email correspondents. Especially well-done are his letters to a ‘My Dear Wattson’ with whom he shares a robust camaraderie. As well (and these occur when he is saddened), the journal regularly contains original devotionals: passages that borrow for affirmation from two belief disciplines in equally pertinent ways.

What has made the Tales such an addictive experience for me is the way Zeke laces his writings with spurts of video from a camera he wears on his face. It’s a unique and really good choice for this video vérité—leaving Zeke’s hands free when he is interacting with the pups, revealing consistent off-kilter perspectives of his SF neighborhood and his “hovel” (as he terms it).

The angle renders unbelievably appealing footage of canine contentment. There is daily drama in Zeke’s life. Moments of threats recorded: and while it is going on, he spontaneously narrates an astute sense of the impact of small but ultimately significant alterations to the life of an urban street. . . .this man does a lot of thoughtful sharing of what he has. The extent of how much he shares will probably shock you. This is not the Zeke you can’t stand. This is that Zeke.

–end


Re: [MCN-Announce]- The Next , Next, Next, Next, Next, Next, Next, Next Chapter [BRINDLEKIN TALES – Book 3: Chapter 16]
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Lisa Harwood
Date: April 3, 2021 9:11 AM

And the pups are back, BTW. 7 AM Deek woke me up, said he’s got something important to do, he’ll be back this afternoon, maybe later. Made some wisecracks, otherwise no problem. This is tough for him, I’m sure, but what a great return. (I decided not to contact him, let him call or see me once he’s ready.)

Flaco & Lucky are overjoyed to visit once more, and are sound asleep, crashed out on the cot right now (see attachment). Once settled in, I checked my laptop to discover YOUR kind praise! So I’m off to a good day, wouldn’t you agree? Thanks again, Lisa!

Who “My Dear Wattson” is, is no big secret, for you can discover that buried in my tales and a couple of videos which show her latest book atop one of my bins. She is Eleanor Cooney of Mendocino town. EXCELLENT person in all ways. She is also in a large number of my chapters from my previous novel, “Free Me From This Bond,” once more as my email confidante.

– Zeke

P.S.: I may just give him my entire stimulus, once it arrives. Though he’ll probably spend it foolishly, my act will prove beneficial in other, intangible ways. I can survive quite well on my regular monthly stipend.

Click here for a larger view.

Re: [MCN-Announce]- The Next , Next, Next, Next, Next, Next, Next, Next Chapter [BRINDLEKIN TALES – Book 3: Chapter 16]
From: Zeke Krahlin <ezekielk@sonic.net>
To: Announce MCN, Discussion MCN
Date: April 3, 2021 9:48 AM

On 2021-04-03 15:52, Ladye Birdsong wrote:

> No
>
>> Folks: Have any of you dipped into Zeke’s Brindlekin Tales?

Of course YOU, Ms. Boredom, love to rub your “no” into my face, by also posting your heart-dead reply TO me via private email. I look forward to the time later this year and beyond, when YOU rent a motel room to discover the Bible has been replaced by Brindlekin Tales in the nightstand drawer of EVERY hotel and motel room across the planet. You just won’t be able to get away from it, as my trilogy will ALSO be discussed across ALL media platforms worldwide, as well as appear brilliantly illuminated in the window display of EVERY bookstore and library that exists. Woo-hoo!


Subject: Lisa Harwood’s Brilliant Recommendation of my Tales
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 3, 2021 1:22 PM

> So glad you have the dogs today. God, how I wish he’d let you put your phone number on their collars. I know he won’t allow it, but how I wish.

I am not stressed over that any more…the pups will be fine, no matter what. This is a lesson of FAITH, destined to become the MIRACLE for all the world to witness. Even were they stolen for a time, they’d be brought back to me shortly, unharmed and in good spirits. They are PROTECTED, for they are DIVINE. I wouldn’t be surprised at this point, if Flaco produced a single offspring from a VIRGIN BIRTH, but instead of in a manger, it’ll occur in a hovel. I’ll name the puppy “Susej.” (Ha-ha, Jesus spelled backwards sounds like “sausage.”) This miraculous event will put a totally NEW spin on the phrase: “dog spelled backwards is god!”

I think at that point, Lucky will sport a halo and sprout angel wings! 

– Zeke K-Holmes


Re: [MCN-Announce]- The Next , Next, Next, Next, Next, Next, Next, Next Chapter [BRINDLEKIN TALES – Book 3: Chapter 16]
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 3, 2021 1:39 PM

> You could just about use this as a cover letter if you were to submit it to a publisher.

Yes I sure could, but it’s not in the plans to submit my trilogy to any publisher. For one thing, I’d be forced to remove my online version, as it’s public domain. HIGHLY unlikely I’d ever find a publisher anywhere, who would be willing to produce my work under the public domain category. My tales WILL take off w/o any of the muss, fuss, frustration or incantation so necessary in going through the traditional channels. Furthermore:

Ms. Harwood herself is not a celebrity or renowned author, so her magnanimous words are of not high value to the status quo.

– Zeke K-Holmes


Re: Scary or what?
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 3, 2021 2:00 PM

> Igor would be a fitting name for me these days…

This too shall pass…and very soon. The mutts enjoyed a full meal, and are now back at their stations on the cot, sound asleep. Lucky has burrowed himself beneath two layers of fluffy sleeping bags, and you wouldn’t even know he’s there. Flaco curled up in the box for a few minutes, but decided she prefers the bed. I’m hoping Deek will allow them to stay overnight, instead of stepping back out again today. As for my getting vaccinated:

IMPOSSIBLE. I may be eligible, but nothing’s available! This is because thousands of younger people lied about their health or zip code or occupation, in order to get their shots before the elderly could…thus more illness and deaths than need be. Hopefully, I won’t be one such unlucky boomer. Here in the City of Death, where I shine a bright light. Check this out:

https://www.theatlantic.com/politics/archive/2021/03/can-i-lie-to-get-the-vaccine-sooner/618448/

– Zeke K-Holmes


Re: [MCN-Announce]- The Next , Next, Next, Next, Next, Next, Next, Next Chapter [BRINDLEKIN TALES – Book 3: Chapter 16]
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 3, 2021 2:29 PM

> Oh, I know all that. It was mostly an expression of how well she “grokked” it. And how surprisingly well she wrote what she did.

Yes, I was quite amazed over her superb review. I could NOT be more overjoyed. Hers is the spark that will set off the bonfire.

> That’s absolutely true. I’ve known her for many, many years.

Seriously? That’s amazing in and of itself. April will NOT disappoint. This is it, Wattson!

– Zeke K-Holmes


Re: Some Sweet Lovin’
From: Zeke’s Mailing List
To: Charles Kapinski
Date: April 3, 2021 4:19 PM

> My 70 yr old buddy Bill just passed. He had an artificial heart valve act up on him. Went into the hospital, no corona. Days later he caught it there. In treating the valve they lost him, and conveniently for their stats sake listed him as a corona death.

Sorry to hear a good friend was lost to America’s death cult.

> They have ten cats, one named Gannon who loved him and likes me very much who is 17 and slowly dying. His young wife has found a new flame and is trying to palm Gannon onto me, but he is better off dying in familiar surroundings with his feline fellows. She’s a ditz.

She used him, now she wants to use you. Her “new flame” is in for a rude awakening.

> He had a red macaw parrot. A week after Bill died on 12/15, the parrot floopped and dropped dead. I never trusted him.

Not trusting a parrot? Tell me more. Hope you’re doing better now, Chuck…it kinda sounds like it. There are NO vaccines available for me, because thousands of young people lied to get them first: about their health condition, zip code, or occupation. This horrific situation in San Franshitsco is being swept under the rug. Residents with cars can go to neighboring counties or further, for their shots. Something I can’t do. Public transit is out of the question, since that’s a GREAT way to catch it.

– Zeke

Oh c’mon, you can trust me!

Subject: Last chapter’s already 2/3 done…
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 3, 2021 9:19 PM

…and I’m freaking out. Of course, THIS email only ADDS to it. Not much time left for the miracle! I’m biting my nails. Which I’ve never done before. I’m tearing my hair out, even though I have none…that’s how bad it is. Maybe I’ll keep deleting passages, like tearing out pages from an unfinished chapter till it comes out right. But those passages are priceless, too! THIS COULD GO ON FOREVER!

After 9 PM now: pooches still here, loving all the cushy-blue comfort of four kid’s sleeping bags piled one atop another, as they snooze after their second meal and a good poop. Did you know that Flaco snores? Little delicate snores that delight the ear when close up. They gaze at me with such love in their crescent-moon, golden-brown eyes, I could weep! Their sweetness is radiant; I need no other light. They ARE the miracle!

– Zeke K-Holmes


Re: Last chapter’s already 2/3 done…
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 3, 2021 10:34 PM

> Keep everything you delete in a separate file (which I’m sure you’re doing anyway). It’ll be a treasure trove.

I will certainly do that.

> I hope Deek never comes back. There, I’ve said it.

At least not the nasty version of Deek! That may have been the end of the chapter, and thus the trilogy, last sentence being: “They ARE the miracle!”

I think it’s a fine ending for the book, yet other events or thoughts may pop up that are just too POTENT to exclude. How do YOU feel about me ending it right then and there? It’s clever: last email entitled “Subject: Last chapter’s already 2/3 done…” And the upswing just barely taking off by the time the last chapter is complete, giving the readers many sweet hours of meditation on the triple-opus aftermath. And my sudden realization that I just MAY have come to the finale: it snuck up on me! I’m just wary, though, about sealing the trilogy with any type of closure but one that is indisputably jubilant. Let’s see how things progress in my world, testing whether or not the ending has been achieved. Meanwhile, I’ll ponder this vision I had while slumped in my chair half asleep:

Aw damn, I just nodded off for a few minutes, and now I can’t remember. It was incredible, though…something about a secret cabal of scientists breeding genetically mutated cockroaches, which release will turn our planet into a utopia. Well after midnight the pups are still here, time to hit the cot.

– Zeke K-Holmes


Subject: Do you know about the cartoon series, “Oggy & the Cockroaches?”
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 4, 2021 1:29 PM

It appears to be a children’s series on the caliber of “Adventure Time,” which is WONDERFUL, I’ve watched every episode from start to finish, across the span of late 2019 to mid-2020. I discovered “Oggy” just moments ago, when searching for some clever image of partying cockroaches, to insert in my final chapter. According to Wikipedia, it’s “a French comedy animated television series!” Oggy is a CAT, by the way. Each episode is 10 minutes, and the series started airing in 1998, still going strong today.

Hopefully, the first 7 series I’m downloading from Pirate Bay are in English. However, that may not be crucial, since the show “employs silent comedy: characters either do not speak, or use unintelligible vocalizations and gestures.” There is a slew of these episodes on Youtube; I’ve watched a couple minutes of one, and enjoyed it thoroughly. The animation style is almost identical to that of “Ren & Stimpy.” Meanwhile:

It is now 1:25 PM…Deek has yet to return, thus I continue to enjoy the darlin’ mutts’ gracious company. Great sleepover as usual…they are very happy to snuggle up to me, and I, to them. Will April disappoint? I think not. I shot this video this morning (4.5 minutes):


Subject: He finally showed up to retrieve the pooches.
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 4, 2021 4:01 PM

That was around 3 PM. He wished me a Happy Easter, and I, the same. Told me if anything happens to him, like his death, he has things arranged for Flaco & Lucky to be handed over to me, via another friend who has a roof over his head, who will bring them TO me. True or false? I have no idea. So I told him that’s not gonna happen thank god, but it’s good to plan ahead for such horrid possibilities, if you can. We then departed as I called to him from halfway across the street: “Thank you for trusting me with your dogs!”

He DID gripe a bit, Wattson, about my not getting the stimulus check yet…that all his friends and everyone else in the city is celebrating their gov’t windfall. I told him that’s not true…Trump fucked it up for the elderly on Social Security, but it’s getting straightened out. I already told him this before, but he’s a short-attention-span kind of guy for whom you must repeat just about EVERYthing.

At any rate, it was a friendly meetup…and that’s what REALLY counts. I also gave him his $60 allowance for the week. He mentioned he got ripped off last night, and other difficulties, and that’s why he’s so late. Who knows if that’s true? He probably just wanted to “party” his ass off. Fine with me, as the pups had a warm and friendly place to spend a day and a night. I reminded him no matter WHAT happens that causes him a delay in picking up the mutts, they will ALWAYS be safe with me, so he need NEVER worry about that. One more thing:

As I brought Flaco & Lucky down the stairs, there was Dieter chatting with Kevin the building manager, who seemed friendly enough (thank god). The pups barked, but in a low-key manner, and we had to pass through a narrow gathering of three people in the lobby (manager and two others). The pooches were absolutely NO problem. Kevin said something about their good manners, and I replied: “They’re getting used to the building.”

Just as I predicted: April shall be the month where peace grows, and conflict subsides. At least in MY life, though I’m hopeful for everyone else in the world.

– Zeke K-Holmes

PS: I think one of my most PROFOUND passages (and there are many) is where I said in the previous chapter:

“I am NOT inventing these tales, I’m LIVING them. This is what is so extraordinary, and is also wherein lies my liberation: a relic, a sliver of Saint Roch’s thigh bone where the hunting dog had licked and healed his bubonic wound. Discovered in the fountain spillage of my creative force. With Flaco & Lucky by my side, who led me there…my 2-headed Cerberus!”

At first, after writing that (which just flowed from my keyboard, as in a trance) I didn’t realize what all that implied. I read it over numerous times before it hit me: it is the doggies’ boundless love that brought me to the bubbling spring of my inspiration! And THAT, dear Wattson, is truly a beautiful thing to contemplate!


REDDIT DISCUSSION ABOUT LINE-JUMPING TO GET THE VACCINE

Here is a conversation in the AskSF Reddit sub, in which I participated on April 3rd and 4th. My handle is "i-luv-ducks." Topic of the thread is "Is it still possible to do standby at the Moscone Center if you’re under 50?"

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Sixtrings:

Multiple friends under 50 have had luck at East Bay sites

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VAGIMALILTEACUP:

Are people being deceptive on a form, and check a box that says they qualify to get vaccinated? or is there a greater supply in Alameda county than demand? I'm not attempting to pass judgement, just confused how people outside of the state's tier plan are getting appointments.

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Dittany_Kitteny:

Yes. Most people I know who got it who are under 50 fibbed on the from. We basically like “well I have asthma so that should count” or “I do consulting work for a construction firm which is eligible so I should be too”, that sort of thing. I’m happy waiting another 3-4 weeks if that means 50+ can more easily get them

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i-luv-ducks:

> Most people I know who got it who are under 50 fibbed on the from.

And that's why I, 70 years old, STILL can't get a vaccine appointment. My death will be on a lot of younger heads! Damn millenials.

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themiro:

Don't know why you're downvoted, lying on the form is a dick move.

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i-luv-ducks:

Those are the same dicks that downvoted me...obviously. Thanks for your thoughtful reply, BTW.

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_prototype:

If you need help getting a vaccine let me know. The following worked for lots:

- Use myturn.ca.gov

- Enter 94103 as zip code

- Schedule with Moscone.

Moscone does 10-15k shots a day so your odds are better there. Just need to keep checking every hour unfortunately.

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i-luv-ducks:

I'm not FROM the 94103 zip code area. Don't they check ID? Even if not, I'm not interested in placing myself in possibly a dangerous legal situation. Checking every hour is BS...I'm not a rat tapping on a lever to get the pellet!

UPDATE: I've been banned from this sub for two days, so I can't post or reply yet, but it looks like I can edit, which is what I'm doing now. I get NO availability results using myturn. When I opt for the Safeway locations within five miles of my home, it says there are NO openings. Anything else I try, NO openings.

And I apologize for comparing this Kafkaesque nightmare to a rat tapping for a pellet...because it's REALLY more like a death lottery.

Does anyone realize that the elderly weren't even eligible until less than two weeks ago? It was all based on occupation and high-risk medical conditions till then. As if being old were not a medical high risk in and of itself! Such jumping the line is not limited to SF, but is nationally widespread. See:

https://www.theatlantic.com/politics/archive/2021/03/can-i-lie-to-get-the-vaccine-sooner/618448/

https://www.washingtonpost.com/lifestyle/2021/03/25/vaccine-line-jump-lie-coronavirus/

Not just younger people pushing the elderly aside, but wealthy folks cutting ahead of the poor (which I am, as well as elderly...not owning a car doesn't help):

https://www.npr.org/sections/health-shots/2021/02/06/964139633/is-it-ever-ok-to-jump-ahead-in-the-vaccine-line

--quote:

People engaged in active line-cutting — strategically positioning themselves to receive vaccines that were not intended for them — may be acting with "vaccine entitlement," says Fletcher: "There are certain people who feel justified in accessing and skipping the line and going to a county over or state over because they're so accustomed to having access, and believe they are deserving of resources that others may not have."

For instance, in cases where people from wealthier neighborhoods are going to poorer neighborhoods that have been prioritized to receive COVID-19 vaccines, the outsiders are flexing their privilege, Fletcher says. "They have access to transportation. They have access to information, to the internet." It's a move that undermines efforts to reduce health inequities.

--end

To the person who said: "As long as you're a resident of SF, you're eligible at any location in SF."

The trick word is "eligible." Of COURSE I'm eligible, but that is NOT the same thing as any vaccine center being "accessible." Which I'm learning the hard way. That person also said:

"In fact SF county allows out of county residents too."

Well, you're not a resident if you're out of county, right? Furthermore, that just gave the green light for streams of MORE young people making the dick move of pushing aside the elderly and the poor, by making accessibility even harder for them, SUCH AS MYSELF. Thus resulting in additional COVID sickness and deaths. This horrid outcome will likely get all swept under the rug: the dark underbelly of SF will once more go unnoticed.

As for the person who asked what "rat tapping" means: it's a reference to using lab rats for experiments on stimulating the pleasure center of the brain. Every time they'd tap a lever their pleasure node would be zapped (because an electric wire was connected from the lever to a specific part of their brain). Turns out they get SO much pleasure, they'll starve to death, even when access to food is right next to them.

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_prototype:

As long as you're a resident of SF, you're eligible at any location in SF. In fact SF county allows out of county residents too.

Sorry that you think this is akin to rat tapping. I really wish you best of luck. If you need I can check for you and let you know.

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11twofour:

What's rat tapping? Google was unhelpful.

Subject: TROUBLE AT THE GATE!!!
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 4, 2021 8:53 PM

This is hard to believe, but, I GOT ADISA ON VIDEO, screaming at me by the front gate WITHOUT A MASK. Along with two of his lackey “friends,” ALSO WITHOUT A MASK. Here’s the video description, then the link below (video is 3.25 mins.):

Putting part 2 up first, due to it being the most urgent aspect of the three sections.  Parts 1 and 2 are about my latest meetup with Deek, and will be uploaded later tonight. SO GLAD I WEAR THESE SPYGLASSES!

Young man screams at me by the front gate of my apartment building. He lives here, too! My guess is that someone (or ones) besides myself has reported him and his friends (who DON'T live here) for loitering in the hallway, being a disturbance, and NOT WEARING A MASK...which they've done repeatedly over the past five or six months. Not every day or even every week, but sporadically. I reported him and his mother quite a while back, but this time around it's not me! Though clearly, I'm the scapegoat here. Are they being evicted? And why didn't the cops order them to step aside so I can enter without maskless punks in such close proximity? That angry fellow and his mom falsely accused me that one of my pups bit him and shed blood. THAT never happened, they do NOT bite...and their allegation came right on the heels of their receiving a copy of my grievance to the landlord, Ablahblah Realty. Which makes the whole accusation highly suspicious. Besides, the dogs are always with me, and they were never even NEAR either one of them, ever.

Re: TROUBLE AT THE GATE!!!
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 4, 2021 9:14 PM

> Horrible. Just fucking horrible.

I thought it was HILARIOUS! They’re actors…didn’t you see them poorly concealing their grins? This is just another setup to make me the hero! Well, they’re gone: two down, one to go (the manager)! Nice that Kismet tossed me an extra bone in Todd’s demise! Had another most EXCELLENT visit with Deek tonight…all recorded on video, so it’ll be uploaded later on, perhaps tomorrow morning. You will LOVE it. Meanwhile, here are parts 1 and 2 of “Trouble at the Gate” (5 and 4 minutes, respectively). I think you’ll be impressed by Deek’s demeanor:


Subject: Mr. Psychobitch thinks he’s clever!
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Announce MCN, Discussion MCN
Date: April 4, 2021 9:33 PM

He emailed me today, under a female pseudonym, saying she’d love to drop off a large bag of dog food at my place, next time she visits her friend in SF. I already figured it was him (I mean, gimme a break, she mentions “Mike Sears” right off the bat) so I gave him my OLD address and phone number. FYI: I NEVER give my real phone and address to strangers on the Internet. He HAS, however, been reported to the proper authorities. Read it all here, and have a good laugh:

On 2021-04-05 00:52, annemarie weibel wrote:

I have been following you and your dogs that you post on the list. I think it is so nice of you to take of those puppies for your homeless friend. I have four dogs that I love dearly myself so I buy dog food in bulk from our country feed store where I get a very good price. I have a friend in north beach I see about once a month. If you give me your address and phone number I can call you and drop off a 25 pound of dog food for you.  I'm sorry to read what some people on the list say about you. Mike Sears is not liked by the good people here in our supportive community so don't be upset about what he says about you. Not everyone on the coast here is like him or his friends.

Peace and Love
Annemarie

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On Mon, Apr 5, 2021 at 2:11 AM Zeke Krahlin wrote:

Wow! So kind of you. And it will also be a GREAT pleasure meeting a real live person, finally, who is on that "controversial list" who is familiar with, and enjoys, my puppy contributions! May you have the loveliest night of your life, tonight...and always.

My phone is a land line, BTW:

415-[xxx-xxxx]

My residence is here in the Castro, on Market Street between Castro and Noe/16th Streets (they all intersect).

[xxx] Market Street, #205
SF, CA 94102

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Re: annemarie from the mendo list serve
From: annemarie weibel
To: Zeke Krahlin

I"ll be sure to drop it off personally.

All 6'3", 245 pound of Big Mike

Oldest cop trick in the book.............SUCKER !!!

Re: annemarie from the mendo list serve
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 5, 2021 10:11 AM

> Amazing how he keeps getting taller, isn’t it? From 6’2″ to 6’3″, just like that!

Oh, he’s just one more bodhisattva, as I concluded some time ago, and so expertly analyzed in chapter 13 of book 1: “Checkmate, Mr. Kuzlowski.” Setting me up to become the hero. IOW:

HE’S ON MY SIDE!


Re: [MCN-Discussion]- Mr. Psychobitch thinks he’s clever!
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 5, 2021 10:45 AM

> But….that IS your real address, isn’t it??

Of course.


Re: (R) of the Albany County Legislature states a remark so homophobic is must be heard to be believed.
From: Zeke’s Mailing List
To: Carlyle Lambourne
Date: April 5, 2021 11:24 AM

We are DESTINED for a global LGBT revolution, and very soon. WE SHALL BE VICTORIOUS! Your excellent remarks on this topic are now embedded in the final chapter of book 3 of my Brindlekin trilogy. Which shall be published soon, definitely before the end of this month. It’s the LONGEST chapter of all the tales, by a long shot.

– Ezekiel

RE: (R) of the Albany County Legislature states a remark so homophobic is must be heard to be believed.
From: Carlyle Langbourne
To: Zeke’s Mailing List
Date: April 4, 2021 8:17 PM

Ezekiel,

It is nice that he kind-of apologized, but I doubt that he gets how simple-minded his viewpoint really is, and just how callous are his remarks and what kind of provocations they are. He is probably just posturing and almost surely will continue having an ugly and bigoted outlook.

Christian bigots like him don’t get that being gay in terms of procreation is really no different in moral terms than a man and wife who find themselves unable to conceive, as happens to some 10% of straight couples. In neither case did we request or choose the situation. For a gay man to marry a woman to whom he is capable of feeling no genuine attraction would be the real ethical failing.

Furthermore, if our planet were in any danger of dying out due to lack of people, gay men and lesbians could rise to the call. Even further, the real existential danger to human continuation is a glut of human beings, polluting and exhausting the planet.

Bigots like him cannot get that a homosexual really IS a homosexual, not a misbehaving heterosexual. Something different on a basic level that is probably biological in nature. But the GOP doesn’t really care about any of that, they care only about power and pandering to religious bigots and crackpots. In their secret, dark hearts., which they cannot hide and are not real secret to us, they would be as cynically casual about wiping out “imperfect” people who were at no fault for their imperfections. Like the Nazis who said about slaughtered gays, “It isn’t a punishment. We are simply terminating abnormal life”.

This is why I have long felt- we don’t owe them anything, at all. Not civility, not respect, not the peace, not hope for a shiny future that will redeem it all if only we are patient and nice enough that we don’t spoil it by getting nasty. I have felt that probably this country could never be set straight until blood has been shed, without guilt or apology, only with determined defiance, in the Republican party, in the archaic and poisonous Churches, in the red states, in the right-wing media. As true today as it was true in 1862. Too far gone for mere words. Trump was more than enough proof of that.

If that spirit produced a right-wing dictatorship, it would really only be the blame of the victims for not fighting hard enough, not for daring to ever think of reading the riot act to the bastards.

Regards, Carlyle


Subject: Mr. Sewer’s phone number and voicemail message:
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 5, 2021 12:15 PM

I have NOT listened to the voicemail message yet. Tell me what you think about it, good doctor. I don’t want my deductive reasoning skills to be unduly disrupted at this crucial moment of the investigation. As for Myrtle & son:

Appears they’ve moved out for good. Deek said he watched them lug bundles of stuff to the curb, squabbling until a van picked them up. Wish I could’ve seen and recorded THAT; it would’ve been a Sundance Film Festival honorary mention! Funny thing, though:

As I returned from Rosenberg’s with my morning java, I saw Myrtle enter the building from a half block away (she did not see me). Not unusual in and of itself, but she likewise held a fresh cup of coffee in her hand…indicative of an inappropriately casual demeanor amid a personal crisis. But it DOES make sense in light of my premise that they’re simply putting on a show for my own glory. The end game of my “initiation,” so to speak.

LOOKS LIKE MY FINAL CHAPTER IS GONNA BE ONE HECK OF A LONG RIDE! Which is great, ’cause my readers really don’t WANT the tales to end.

– Zeke K-Holmes


Subject: Mr. Sewer’s phone number and voicemail message:
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Alvin Hock
Date: April 5, 2021 12:19 PM

Mike Sewers: 707-[xxx-xxxx] (service: U.S. Cellular).

That cell number is a surefire way to identify the REAL clown behind the makeup.

I have NOT listened to the voicemail message yet. Tell me what you think about it. I am in the middle of an investigation right now here in my neck of the woods, and do NOT want my deductive skills to be unduly distracted. One criminal at a time! Thanks.

– Zeke

P.S.: It is good that we play head-butting antagonists for a while longer, as it shakes the tree where evil monkeys hide. They have begun dropping like rotten coconuts! :D

P.P.S.: You will be honored for your good works in due time, Mr. Hock.


Re: Mr. Sewer’s phone number and voicemail message:
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 5, 2021 12:43 PM

> There’s nothing on there–just some static. Maybe that’s his “message.”

No, he obviously wanted me to pick up the phone…else he’d leave evidence of his harassment that I could use against him. The call was at 4:08 fukkin AM! Woke me up, thought it was Deek (maybe a butt-dial)…but then figured “Nah!” and went back to sleep.

Well, this happens EVERY time I decide to allow my phone to ring, rather than let it go directly to voicemail…or in an earlier time, to the answering machine. It’s been going on for DECADES: I ALWAYS wind up being forced to turn the ringer back off! This time around I had turned it on just so Deek could reach me via his new, paid-for smartphone ASAP. But, thanks to Mr. Psychobitch, that is once more out of the question.

I’m wondering now how things will come down on the building manager, since he was COMPLICIT in the false allegation by Myrtle & son. Perhaps I was an AID to his finally getting them evicted, thanks to my letter of complaint to Ablahblah Realty? Or perhaps he had to SWITCH SIDES to save his own skin? He is certainly friendly again, towards my doggie sitting. But one thing I CAN declare with assurance, Wattson:

This is FAR FROM THE FIRST TIME I’ve helped make this building a safer environment!

– Zeke K-Holmes

P.S.: Glad I got you his smartphone number. That was my plan in the first place. As far as his “duping” me to reveal my actual phone number and address: EASY for anyone online to find all that out. Even many of my blog entries note my street address, one way or another, including, most recently, Brindlekin Tales. In fact, the WHOLE WORLD will soon know exactly where I live…thus making 9666 Market Street, SF, a landmark building of the highest order! Many, I say MANY, good people will rise to my protection, soon. Of course, I may likely have to move elsewhere, but by then SCADS of trustworthy allies will provide me with safe harbor, ACROSS THE ENTIRE NATION…and the whole friggin planet, if it comes to that. This will include Deek and the mutts’ OWN protection, too! And since I can NOT be without the pups’ presence, we four will find refuge together! Woo-hoo!


Subject: Last Night’s Meetup with Deek: EXCELLENT! [my latest video – 12 mins.]
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Zekes-Mailing-List
Date: April 5, 2021 3:09 PM

Same day as that nasty encounter at the front gate of my apartment building, I had excellent rapport with Deek, both before and after…one “before” and two “after.” This is the second “after.”



The Next Next Next Next Next Next Next Next Chapter

April 2, 2021

[BRINDLEKIN TALES – Book 3: Chapter 16]

Subject: Your Key Phrase
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Anna-Lee Horsington
Date: April 1, 2021 8:57 AM

This particular phrase of yours is key:

“I do not experience the system as all bad.”

Because it just now hit me, that you worked with Medicaid clients in NEW MEXICO, which is one of the handful of states that has NEVER crippled the poor with an astronomical Share of Cost. (Though, as with the two other states I know of that likewise did not, there was STILL an egregious price to pay: NO real dental care.)

Thus, you were virtually SHELTERED from experiencing the draconic fees for Medicaid services that were typical for well over forty of our states, possibly as many as forty-seven. Seeing as I did not do research on this for every state. I only found, thus far, three states that did NOT charge a criminally-exorbitant SOC: New Mexico, Minnesota, and Massachusetts.

My point being, therefore:

You were not so hobbled in your mission to assist the poor, as you would’ve been in most every other state. Therefore, you cannot REALLY give me that inside view of Medicaid workers who had the misfortune of being employed in a high-SOC region. Which also means you cannot speak for the quality (or lack thereof) of Medicaid services across the board, that is: in a national context. It’s almost like you were working in a different country, where the poor were treated better.

– Zeke


Re: Some Sweet Lovin’
From: Zeke’s Mailing List
To: Chuck Kapinski
Date: April 1, 2021 1:13 PM

> Their adorable precious sincerity is unmatchable and priceless.

No truer words have been said! Thanks. But since that video, more sadness and tragedy has ensued. You can read about it in my last two Brindlekin chapters. That would be chapters 14 and 15 of book 3.

> I think I may have this goddamned bug.

VERY sorry to hear that, Charles.

> Two Sundays ago I began becoming insomniac with nightsweats, catching only maybe 3 or 4 hours alternating nights. I’ve been eating light, drinking plenty of fluids and juice, and just laying low.

Horrific, but I’m sure you’ll pull through. I hope those night sweats have abated by the time you get this email.

> I don’t DARE push the pussy panic button because a 67 year old on an SSA check ends up in the roach motel – where you check in, but you don’t check out. Lots of lying down.

America is a death cult, and the poor its greatest victims. So yeah, stay away.

> I still have to drive a couple miles every other day for groceries, dizzy as a zombie.

Drive slow, drive safe please.

> The thing lasts anywhere from two to six weeks depending upon your resistance. Maybe I’m half way through it. Hope so.

Most people survive it quite well…unless they have some serious medical complication already. You do not.

> I only make it out to Staples free wifi a couple times a week.

That’s a drag.

> How do you feel about shots? My jury’s out.

I would definitely get the shots ASAP. Unfortunately, here in San Franshitsco they have a shortage, and I can NOT get an appointment anywhere. The lucky ones with vehicles can simply drive to another county. I wasn’t even ELIGIBLE for the vaccination until a week ago! Despite my age, which is now 70. But what good is being eligible, if you can’t make an appointment? Looks like I won’t even GET my first shot for months from now.

Keep taking as good a care of yourself as is humanly possible…my prayers are with you.

– Zeke


Re: Louisiana took ALL his stimulus money!
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Lisa Harwood
Date: April 1, 2021 6:05 PM

> Zeke: This video is so powerful; it sent chills up my back. . .I really believe your body of video work is going to be incredibly important some day.

Yes, it will be, but it must NOT be at the cost of two doggies’ lives, or that of a homeless person.

> And may even help in drawing attention to this tragic ‘Catch-22’ situation faced by impoverished fathers like Deek.

Definitely…I know EXACTLY what I am doing with my tales, and how they will impact the world.

> This is an intrusion of the State of Louisiana on an intended stimulus to the economy of San Francisco when it comes down to it.

Of course.

> So: start with calling your Supervisor. There may be a large number of homeless indigent fathers who have been similarly impacted.

I find that unlikely, just as I’ve found all my OTHER efforts through political and gov’t channels useless, including locally. Deek’s cooperation would be vital, and he would NEVER go along with it. But that’s not why I say “unlikely,” as it’s the system itself. Unless there were already an active support group to get the ball rolling, there is no point in wasting my time like this. I have even TRIED to get some major issues going by phone and email contacts, online forums, and so on. NOTHING went anywhere, in spite of my dedicated efforts.

> Call the local office of your Congressperson. Make the complaint. Ask them for assistance. They are in the best position to do that. Your own story of one poor person fortunate enough to have shelter trying to assist another who does not is compelling. And the shared pups also makes it a human interest tale.

Those are all nice ideas, but they will NOT mount to a hill of legumes. Believe me, I have tried that route MANY times. And that is PRECISELY why I am writing my Brindlekin Tales…a DIFFERENT route that I know in my heart will get the ball rolling in a MAJOR way. It WILL take off, and this year…I just don’t know the date of Day One.

> There must be a City Department or Non-profit who have the legal hutzpah you need. This is really a Class Action situation.

You can NOT pull off a class action lawsuit without a large number of people already on the bandwagon. I am not in a position, nor do I have the contacts needed, to achieve that goal.

> Deek had a day of feeling it was possible for him to live a “normal” life for awhile, one free if only temporarily of destitution.. . . . When he shows up again, as you know he will. Just let him blather for awhile—importantly: do not address his specific insults—and then use phrases like “Deek, I need your respect in order to help you”. . . “Deek, I can’t continue without your respect.”

Ha-ha, not gonna work…been there, done that. Soon as I suggested my contacting local gov’t officials, but I’d need his cooperation to speak for him, it all blew up in my face. You have NO idea how self-sabotaging he is!

> You have a remarkable mind, Zeke: you act on your intentions, and at least he realizes that about you. 

Thank you…and I am USING my remarkable mind to achieve the desired results through my BOOK, rather than those political channels that ALWAYS lead me to a dead end. I know this through MUCH experience over many decades.

> Offering him something to eat might help stem the stream of insults as you explain what you willing to try on his behalf next. Which you will not pursue in the absence of his respect. 

That’s NOT gonna work (offering him food), but thanks for your well-intentioned proposals. My book IS the answer, and nothing else. I think you need to realize that the creation of these tales is exactly BECAUSE the ideas you’ve suggested are ones I’ve already tried many times over, but got nowhere.

– Zeke

P.S.: The solution is therefore, to promote my tales and videos, because that IS the route I’m taking, after many years of not getting anywhere through gov’t channels. Yet I have NOT heard you say one word about sharing my works with others! Especially those you might know in gov’t, media or other venues of influence.

THE BOOK, THE BOOK, THE BOOK!

And the videos.

Since you are so MOVED by my tales, that’s an EXCELLENT sign that others will be, too. Right? So why try to get me to put my time and elbow grease into a strategy that is doomed for failure, instead of promoting my very MOVING stories and videos? You could easily tell friends/connections by email:

“Wow, this guy’s work is astounding…videos AND tales about very pressing matters, and are compellingly, breathlessly composed!”

Or do you not really believe I’m that good? To promote or not to promote: THAT is the question!


Subject: Little Miss Innocence Walks By
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 1, 2021 8:32 PM

Just a 29 second video. I step out of my hovel to encounter Dieter, and “Little Miss Innocence” Myrtle Haversak walks by. So tempting to strangle her; she has a petite skinny neck. But I’ll leave the Fates to sort things out, as I’m sure they have something especially ghastly in store for her and her punk son. And the building manager as well.


Re: Little Miss Innocence Walks By
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 1, 2021 9:28 PM

> Myrtle’s the skinny blonde wisp who darts by?

Of course. She’s the only person in the video besides Dieter. I can’t imagine what’s going on with those two, since things have been VERY quiet in their apartment lately. And I DON’T say hello to the building manager any more like I used to…I just walk right by him. Not that he’s ever said hello to me first, ever. Sick people.

I never phoned Deek back last night, nor today, nor has he shown up or called me at all. I’m totally disgusted with him. The dogs should not be with him…he’s a dangerous and scary fellow. This is The City of Ghouls. I need to get outta here, but not without the pups. I have no idea how to accomplish this.

Happy April Fool’s Day. There certainly are a lot of fools in San Franshitsco. And now Chuck, my friend from Philly, has come down with Covid-19…like we never saw this coming, eh?

– Zeke K-Holmes


Re: Little Miss Innocence Walks By
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 1, 2021 10:50 PM

> Christ. I agree. You gotta get out. And not without the pups.

Something will come through for me…I just don’t know what, or how. Or maybe Brindlekin Tales will be my legacy, containing clues as to who murdered me. Right up there on WordPress.

> Yeah, I saw that exchange. Scary as hell. Going to the hospital is like going to the morgue.

He’s an idiot. All his macho bragging how he refuses to wear a mask. I kept warning him to not be foolish, this is a serious pandemic. Now THIS happens, SO PREDICTABLE. How many others have come down with it, thanks to him, before he fell ill? His friendship is nothing more than a lingering memory. He’ll probably get dizzy and faint in his car while driving, and I’ll never know what happened.

I think today’s thoughts and scenarios were designed to send a shiver down my readers’ spines, wondering if I’m gonna go on a berserk murder spree. A trail of blood from Myrtle to Adisa to the building manager to Deek, and then to an Uber driver where I whisk the pooches away with me to some unknown destination. Maybe somewhere in Mendocino County, as the latest criminal refugee dodging the law by living out in the deep, dark woods. Maybe I’ll camp for awhile in a tent in your backyard. Erwyn’ll love the brindlekin!

Very pulpy plot. More likely a PARODY on pulpy plots. Let’s see what ensues. I am NOT inventing these tales, I’m LIVING them. This is what is so extraordinary, and is also wherein lies my liberation: a relic, a sliver of Saint Roch’s thigh bone where the hunting dog had licked and healed his bubonic wound. Discovered in the fountain spillage of my creative force. With Flaco & Lucky by my side, who led me there…my 2-headed Cerberus!

Jeez, my readers GOTTA go through all the chapters now, to understand ANYthing that’s going on at this point! I can’t believe I’ve written so many wonderful tales…though I haven’t really, except as one who pens events as they unfold. With my OWN flights of fancy scattershot across the pages. Like this email. Is it time to change your pseudonym again, or do you prefer to remain as Wattson? I rather like that!

– Zeke K-Holmes


Re: Little Miss Innocence Walks By
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 2, 2021 12:51 AM

> I like Wattson! Unless something better comes along!

You can never go wrong with a classic. You’re up late.


Subject: Here’s a video clip of your old neighbor, Dieter
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Charles Kapinski
Date: April 2, 2021 9:23 AM

I always have my “spyglasses” turned on once I exit my room, due to the horrid accusations against me by neighbors in 208 (mother and son) and the building manager. I call the bitch “Myrtle” in my tales. She and her punk son made a false allegation to the manager that one of the pups bit him and drew blood. That NEVER happened, as I am always with the dogs…and their dubious claim came IMMEDIATELY AFTER they received a copy of my complaint to Ablahblah Realty, that her son’s teenage friends were loitering in the hallway RIGHT OUTSIDE MY DOOR, being a disturbance with their loud pranks and “niggah” tough talk ALONG WITH refusing to wear a mask. It’s even in writing (their phony charge), in a printed letter the building manager mailed me, WITH HIS SIGNATURE. Nothing has come of it, of course, because they have NO proof, and the timing of their accusation is highly suspicious. This will be an EASY case in my favor for any attorney, once I can finally find one that actually responds to my email (a form on their page that you fill out then click “send”). But so far, no lawyer recommended to me by the SF Tenants Union has bothered to get in touch with me, and it’s been several months since I’ve started trying to get the ball rolling.

Furthermore, the ONLY reason they were loitering, is because Adisa’s mother, Myrtle, didn’t want them all to be in a small studio unit because of this highly contagious virus..so her answer was to risk exposure for EVERYONE ELSE in the building, by having them linger in the hallway WITHOUT WEARING MASKS! And, of course, I was more vulnerable to exposure, than ANYONE ELSE in the building!

These loiterers kept this up over several months, on and off, but averaged once a week. And was in ARRANGEMENT with the building manager. Whom I confronted several times about stopping this, but he just shrugged his shoulders: “They’re teenagers, what do you expect?” Right, as if it were perfectly fine to have strangers loitering in your hallway an hour or more, on a regular basis, and your own privacy is compromised, plus they expose everyone in the building to potentially catching the coronavirus…and I’M the most vulnerable, because they are almost RIGHT ON TOP OF ME!

Anyway, this was all covered in great detail in my Brindlekin Tales, particularly in THIS piece (chapter 4, book 2).

You can READ my letter to Ablahblah Realty at the top of that page. Perhaps you’ve already seen that chapter, but I have a hunch you haven’t…thus my explanation above. Who’s to say that the neighbor who recently died (in Maxie’s old room, isn’t that a hoot) did not contract the virus because of these loiterers? As well as one or more OTHER residents having come down with it, too.

Because of this horrific violation and harassment towards me, a longterm resident, I decided to purchase from Amazon, a pair of eyeglasses with a built-in camera. Which, happily, also gave me many excellent videos of the pups and outdoor scenes, particularly of their homeless “owner” who has no idea I’ve been video recording him, and uploading to Youtube.

So as it turned out recently, I stepped out and there was Dieter, slowly ascending the stairs with turtle-like speed. So I thought to share with you this 29-second recording, even though the more important point of this video is to have captured an image of “Myrtle” for future reference, if needed. I already have a recording of her stupid son hanging outside the building with two of his friends…all of them NOT wearing a mask! So here’s Dieter.

I will try to get a more interesting video featuring him, to send you.


Subject: I refuse anything BUT a happy ending!
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 2, 2021 10:12 AM

I have only two chapters to go (working on the next-to-last one now, which includes this email). This is based on my low-level OCD that wants Book 3 to contain 17 chapters, since Book 1 contains 19, and Book 2, 18. Yet it doesn’t look at all like a happy ending is forthcoming any time soon, good physician. If such be the case by the time I’ve completed the 16th chapter, that last chapter will simply contain one sentence:

“Waiting for that happy ending.”

Or perhaps I’ll add a SECOND sentence:

“Why not check out my Gay Bible website while YOU’RE waiting, too?”

IOW, it will be an open-ended conclusion, just as was my previous book, “Free Me From This Bond.” Though, once the fortuitous outcome DOES occur, I will replace that sentence with a full reckoning.

I could, of course, break my self-imposed chapter-limit rule, and continue on, possibly giving birth to yet a FOURTH book. Or continue my Brindlekin Tales outSIDE of the trilogy. We’ll just have to wait and see, as these stories depend entirely on what actually occurs in real life. And who knows?

Maybe a sudden turnaround will occur at the last moment, and chapter 17 will indeed be a happy ending withOUT delay!

No word from Deek, and I’m not gonna bother to phone him. Until, that is, when Sunday comes around, to remind him to pick up his weekly $60 allowance. I’m sure he’ll spit and fume and deny me camaraderie with the pooches. I heard him holler somewhere on Noe Street (in the direction of 7/11), “Flaco! Flaco!” late last night. Voices carry easily in the wee hours, and in the cold. I poked my head out the window a few times, to see if he were heading towards my hovel, but no, that did NOT happen.

Those wonderful, sweet little doggies, may God protect them!


Subject: More on St. Roch
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 2, 2021 10:56 AM

From Wikipedia:

“Saint Roch or Rocco (lived c. 1348 – 15/16 August 1376/79 (traditionally c. 1295 – 16 August 1327) is a Catholic saint, a confessor whose death is commemorated on 16 August and 9 September in Italy; he is especially invoked against the plague…He is a patron saint of dogs, invalids, of falsely accused people, bachelors, and several other things… he would have perished had not a dog belonging to a nobleman named Gothard Palastrelli supplied him with bread and licked his wounds, healing them.”

So, besides the dog issue, I HAVE been falsely accused, and I AM a bachelor. Also the patron St. of plagues (think COVID-19), he certainly is the one for me to pray to for intercession!

– Zeke K-Holmes


Re: More on St. Roch
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 2, 2021 12:13 PM

> Now, there’s a saint even I might pray to!

I know, right! It was never my intent to impose so much Catholic flow to my tales…yet that is where my muses took me. Some day we will understand better why this is so. For now, it is my conjecture that it is not so much an affirmation of Christianity, but an expression of Jungian archetypes most appropriate for a Christianized society. I certainly HOPE that any reader of these books will not hold any expectation of the maudlin trope that I will “discover Jesus” by the end of my tales.

I was awaiting your next missive, that I may add a further revelation to my previous email. So now, here it is:

Of course, after all I’ve been through since late October, and the incredible lessons and insights I’ve gained as a result: it makes PERFECT sense that a joyous outcome will occur right at the last moment, under the wire, a sudden twist in the final plot. But until then:

The box that Flaco loves to shelter in from time to time remains on the floor, and the two little harnesses still hang from the edge of my loft. They shall ALWAYS be a part of my hovel’s decor, so long as the pups remain asunder from my world. ‘Tis a horrible thought to imagine myself growing older with these dear items forever in place, till the day comes when I finally perish. But so it must be, if such a sad fate comes to pass. For I will never stop loving them.

– Zeke K-Holmes

P.S.: Did you see my latest Deek video yet? Less than 7 minutes. Very important to have documented…but a terrible heartbreak, so much so I can’t bring myself to watch it. I just uploaded it to Youtube and was done with it.


Re: More on St. Roch
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 2, 2021 2:37 PM

> Fuck, no.

Discover Jebus? Not on your life! Discover Artemis? I bet my whole Social Security payments and all my creative gifts on that!

> I know how you feel, and I’m not just mouthing platitudes. I really do know.

Much appreciated, Wattson. ‘Cause no one around here gives a flying fuck whether or not I exist…while a handful certainly WISH I were dead. They don’t know WHO they’re messing with, though. I shall still be here, long after THEY’RE dead and gone. It’s happened before, and it will happen again. If I can’t find any way to move the hell outta this evil burg, my own SPIRIT will repel the goons, and THEY’LL be catapulted away! And it has NOTHING to do with some silly plot to cease using underarm deodorant.

The dogs are fine, so is Deek…who is just playing his bodhisattva role to make me into a hero. But I HAVE to go through certain trials ANYway, in order to bring this about. For if I knew TOO WELL or TOO SOON, that little secret, then my mettle would have never been able to be tested! IOW:

I’m good.

> I did watch it. So, so sad to see the doggies looking back over their shoulders at you as he makes them run behind his garbage can.

Their sweet way of letting me know their love is always there for me, no matter what. INCREDIBLY caring creatures! But they also realize they have a duty to be there for Deek, in spite of a less-than-ideal situation. So: BRAVE, too!

– Zeke


Re: Did you see my latest Deek video yet?
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 2, 2021 7:49 PM

> I hated hearing him insult you.

He does that a lot, like every third visit. Unless he makes a big change in his attitude, it’s gonna be even worse, now that he thinks I fucked him over by getting him to apply for the stimulus after promising the gov’t won’t garnish it this time around. It was Lisa Harwood who swore to me up and down, that wouldn’t happen any more, so I took her word for it. Though I believe I DID check it out myself, and found a site that said, no, they won’t garnish it this time around.

Now, she’s advising me to contact politicians and the media, get the word out, blah blah blah. It’s all in my last two chapters, and the one I’m working on now. Anything BUT say: “Great, important writing, I’ll share it with others!” Which is what I REALLY need done…and I explained to her going though gov’t channels has NEVER worked for me, only backfired. And is the very REASON I’m creating these Brindlekin Tales…as they WILL have the desired impact, with MUCH quicker results. What is it with some people who say they love my writing, but never bother to let others know? It’s not like I’m composing some silly, romantic fluff novel, or a Reader’s-Digest-style doggy tale. This is POTENT stuff I’m broadcasting! I’ve bcc’d to you, two or three of my replies to Lisa, but I know you’re too busy to get around to EVERYthing I send you.

But whatever. I am totally CONFIDENT of my forthcoming success, so it’s more like I’m offering people like Ms. Harwood a wonderful opportunity to be a PART of nurturing this success. Anyway, back to Deek:

Besides him calling me a pervert for letting Flaco lick me on the face, he also said they stink, and weren’t like that when he dropped them off. Not true, I told him they DID smell a bit when you brought them here, and it’s your body odor from sleeping with them. Of course he denied that, accused me of lying. You saw how he feigned innocence, as if all he said was he didn’t want them licking me…unlike a few nights back when he cussed me out over that.

His hostility boils down to just one thing: jealousy over how much the pups love me. He even gets angry at me now and then, for not having him step inside any more…says everyone else has friends over, he sees them come and go from my building all the time. He doesn’t give a flying fuck if I catch the virus, doesn’t even realize the RISK I already take, by caring for the doggies! When the pandemic restrictions first took off, I told Deek no more visits, no more pups coming over, sorry. I was even afraid to touch them! But love won out: I just didn’t have the HEART to “ex” Flaco & Lucky out of my life for god knows HOW long this plague would last. It would be CRUEL to Deek, as well…who didn’t even believe the novel coronavirus was actually a thing. He now wears a mask slung below his chin, which is so he can enter stores. But he STILL refuses to place it over his nose and mouth otherwise, not even in my presence. As he departed that night, he said OLD people like me come down with it, not younger people. As if it’s perfectly alright for him to spread the virus wherever he pleases. Talk about pressing my buttons!

I can NOT reason with him in any way…he’ll shout me down unless I REALLY holler back to silence him. Which, sadly, then upsets the pooches: they lower their heads in a forlorn  manner. I’m sure he’ll claim I OWE him a full $1,400 for putting him through that.

Did you SEE that huge speaker he’s lugging around on a dolly? Ridiculous. He could’ve spent HALF as much for a decent speaker, so he could put some of that wasted money into the pups.

Okay, I’m done venting. Now for a refresher on my Bohisattva Premise:

That was March 31st, the last day of the month when I got whammied with Deek’s anger over child support’s taking his stimulus payment. The WORST thing that could’ve happened, DID happen. And he’ll milk it for all it’s worth, possibly, haranguing me with his every breath…trying to guilt-trip me as much as possible, to coughing up even MORE moolah. Which will NOT work. It never HAS worked.

Though as I said, signs point to a sudden alteration in my favor, some time in April…hopefully starting on day 1. Based on my prescient epiphany that it will occur before Flaco’s next estrus cycle. And that (remember) Deek is simply an actor, playing an antagonist’s role, that I answer his many horrific challenges to become the hero in these tales. Which are all SCRIPTED.

And since the last day of March, I haven’t been in contact with Deek…nor do I think I need bother. He is free to ring me up, whenever. I will therefore go by the assumption that the BS is over, and April will be that magic month, where Deek and all OTHER bodhisattva players will drop their masks of evil to show me their true aspects as angels. (This includes, then, my building manager and Myrtle and son, among others of less recent vintage.) TRUSTING that the pooches will be perfectly fine no matter what. WORRY is, after all, one of the demons I should NEVER allow to ruin my day. They’re expert at projecting all sorts of monstrous scenarios into one’s mind! Assuming I’m correct in my premise:

April will go down in history as “The Month of Miracles.”

– Zeke

P.S.: Also based on my premise, I believe I may very well be the MOST IMPORTANT PERSON ON THIS PLANET at this time. Everything, everyone else, is trivial by comparison. Do I have a fat ego, or what?


The Next Next Next Next Next Next Next Chapter

March 31, 2021

[BRINDLEKIN TALES – Book 3: Chapter 15]

Re: Deek was a Monster Tonight
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: March 30, 2021 4:06 PM

> Oh, I would, for sure, but the thoughts in the privacy of my head would be far less generous.

Oh, the THOUGHTS…that’s a hearse of a different paint job! Believe me, Wattson, I’ve had MANY wicked visions as to how I can eliminate him, and abscond with the pups. Like getting him OD’d on a bad batch of meth. But this is all too possible ANYway, without my intervention. There is NO way out of this nightmare, but through it. Furthermore: what separates the civilized from the uncivilized is whether or not we choose to carry out our wicked thoughts. The civilized do NOT, as is my own stance, and yours of course.

– Zeke K-Holmes


Re: You are now in my book, as Anna-Lee Horsington
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Anna-Lee Horsington
Date: March 30, 2021 5:18 PM

> If people sign up for government services, they can receive therapy without charge. Many therapists share the insights, wisdom, and path of Jung with their clients, whether poor or affluent.

I don’t find that to be the case at all. Poor patients on Medicaid are forced to take psychotropic drugs right off the bat and receive NO talk therapy, let alone Jungian. And they’re lucky if they get to see a doctor more than once a month. Also: many therapists do NOT share such insights…in fact, they are at the lower end of the psychiatry spectrum. Usually newly graduated and using Medicaid as a stepping stone for finally getting into private practice. There is LITTLE compassion in their work.

I believe the services you’re talking about may be available to a sliver of the population…those who are not dirt poor, but low income. You can’t just go into a Medicaid office or call them and say, “I’m looking for a Jungian therapist.” Not to mention that NOTHING is available in the way of therapy for the homeless, yet those are the MOST in need of compassionate care. But without a roof over their heads first, what’s the point?

> Wonderful that you use Jung’s wisdom to help the homeless, Zeke. Thank you!

I can easily see how archetypal notions shape their struggles, their reality. That gives me a handle in pointing them in a better direction. Everything’s a demon or a threat to them, so I do my best to show them that is NOT what’s going on, but an eruption of unbalanced and chaotic inner forces…which CAN be gotten under some level of effective control. Well, “control” is not a good word for this…more like learning to redirect the flow. Of course I don’t discuss the Jungian aspect of all this, but speak in their own terms, which is usually with Christian symbology. It’s not like I’m sitting them down for a therapy session…I am directly dealing with the archetypes that come through, as an ally, rather than a warrior to vanquish them.

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Re: You are now in my book, as Anna-Lee Horsington
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Anna-Lee Horsington
Date: March 30, 2021 8:52 PM

> There are many mysteries in this here universe. I am a Medicaid provider for 23 years and know other Medicaid providers similar to me. Jung is one of my mentors, so his wisdom enters into my therapeutic relationships.

I’d say both your situation and yourself are exceptional.

> Sometimes it works better to seek a Medicaid health care provider in private practice and not in clinics.

I’ve had several private therapists over the years…they were all okay, but that’s all she wrote. The first one turned me on to Carl Jung, and I took it from there. Overall, the medical provisions for the poor are shoddy at best. The therapists I saw were not much good for anything, but to keep me on SSI, so I wouldn’t wind up homeless. IOW, their “therapy” was pretty much zilch. This was back in the day when we had a much more encompassing safety net, before they even took away dental care for almost 15 years, so now most of my teeth have rotted and fallen out.

I do not believe that therapy will do much for humanity at large. It will NOT trigger a sea change of perception for “Homo sapiens sapiens.” However, many of the ideas taught by Jung CAN create such a remarkable impact, if applied in a most clever, artistic way. He said humanity needs a NEW mythology to breathe life into our aspirations and imagination, in this very different, modern world. When I first heard of that, through Joseph Campbell, it struck me that I am one who IS creating new mythologies, through my tales, especially those dedicated to LGBT equality. I have since progressed from there, and expanded my body of myths to where we now have my trilogy, Brindlekin Tales, almost complete and ready to release to the world.

> It is wonderful how you work with the homeless, Zeke. In NM, we did provide counseling to the homeless in shelters. Continuity of care is helpful; roofs do indeed help in that regard.

The BEST and most important aspect of my “Jungian” approach was to give them back their dignity in one way or another, by respecting where they’re at immediately, showing an interest in their life and person, and giving them newfound hope. It’s not like I have helped dozens and dozens in my years of activism. Very few were receptive to anything, but the rare one that came along, I did MUCH to get them on a better path. Deek is, of course, the person I am focusing all my attention on nowadays, and have for over nine years. Otherwise, my major application of Carl Jung’s profound insights is through my writing.

> Christian symbology is full of powerful metaphors and archetypes.

We are all like Christ, as being conscious IS the crucifixion. A POWERFUL archetype indeed…one of the hero sacrificing his life for the betterment of humanity. So, there ARE ways of using Christian ideas and symbols without being narrow minded or fanatic about it. In the way Carl Jung has used them…who is my OWN personal hero I look up to, ever since I learned of him. It is very important to focus on this religion, because our society is mostly cut from that cloth. It would be far more difficult to get my ideas across if, say, I used Hinduism or Celtic lore (for examples). Though I do that, as well…since I make sure to cover OTHER cultural archetypes in my growing body of work. Especially Greek and Celtic mythology, and a liberal dose of Native American worldviews.

– Zeke


Subject: One thing that bothers me about Jung’s perplexity over a certain patient
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Anna-Lee Horsington
Date: March 31, 2021 7:53 AM

Please note that I can NOT track down the particular web page that described this, though I’ve tried many times over the years.

Carl Jung remarked about a patient to whom so many awful things happened, through no fault of his own. And he felt helpless to do anything about it, as his therapist. What bothers me is that Dr. Jung was well versed with things shamanic. He should therefore have realized that some people are “chosen” to go through especially difficult trials for many years, maybe even for their entire lives. Why is this?

They have a special destiny as shamans, who DO experience many awful things that most people do not. In fact, Jung even delved deeply into a historical/Biblical figure who ALSO suffered terribly, and for a prolonged period of time: Job (as in the Book of Job)…and successfully came up with a sound conclusion, albeit shocking to some: that God Himself was imperfect because also learning and growing. Seeing as Job was a BETTER man than God Himself!

Anyway, obviously I have that shamanic nature, too…and realizing, finally, that all my trials are for an important reason, definitely helped me deal with them. Carl Jung’s description of the hero’s journey was my main inspiration, in fact! For it showed me that these trials, and struggling to overcome each crisis or challenge, eventually culminates in many rewards for my long suffering. Such rewards are not trivial either, they are spiritual gifts, pearls of great price. I have always valued such things over the material and temporary. And so damn glad I did!

At any rate, my point is that, with the wisdom of many cultures under his belt, including the shaman’s nature, Job and the Hero’s Journey, it seems to me that Jung had more than enough skill to effectively guide that client through those dark woods.

– Zeke


Subject: Medi-Cal / Medicaid
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Anna-Lee Horsington
Date: March 31, 2021 10:14 AM

> I have heard the horror stories about Medi-Cal, Zeke. The last 23 yrs I practiced in NM where horror stories existed and many went to bat for people in need.

I don’t know what you mean by “many,” for, in the grander scheme of things, that “many” is reduced to a scant handful. Kudos, though, to the true health advocates among them, including yourself!

> Change definitely takes time.

But the change for the worst, through many egregious cutbacks via both the GOP and the Democrats, came rather swiftly! So I am not inclined to excuse this with a trope.

> The Health Security for All Act in NM has been the object of activism in NM for 25 years. I myself proposed and worked with a NM legislator to get through bills that protected both patient and health care professional. Though there were some years of gross inequities in providing services to those in need, no-cost Medicaid for the poor and all children is possible in NM.

Medicaid was “no cost” all along, until Bill Clinton forced SEVERE cutbacks on health care for the poor…as part of his racist platform that also included expansion of the War on Drugs, and promulgating the “Welfare queen” stereotype. And THAT was when Share of Cost became a thing: 1989. Only a handful of states did NOT impose such an astronomical fee for the “privilege” of receiving Medicaid services. However, with that sane decision, came the exclusion of dental care. Which is HORRIFIC…and we gotta thank the dentists lobbying for that remarkable “achievement.” Which goes all the way back to Lyndon B. Johnson and the founding of Medicare, where lobbyists fought “tooth and nail” (pun intended) to exclude dental services in that program.

Oh, look at this: The Health Security for All Act was originally PROPOSED by Clinton, himself…the very president who UNDERMINED health care for the poor!

https://www.encyclopedia.com/social-sciences/applied-and-social-sciences-magazines/health-security-all-americans

> I am not talking about the Medicaid expansion that was born through Obamacare. I still see via telehealth NM Medicaid clients. Dental care is one area where Medicaid falls short for the poor in NM, although some dental services are covered.

Thank you for your honest take on the issue…GREATLY appreciated! I presume “NM” is the state of New Mexico? I value your input on matters Medicaid, because you have the inside perspective, and may be able to answer some questions I’ve had for YEARS now, which answers were never found via the web, including Medicaid’s own site. There seems to be a strong element of secrecy and subterfuge in all this. For example:

In researching Medi-Cal’s history and origin of SOC (share of cost), I discovered their own web site admitted that the SOC is way too high, thus making their services unreachable to most recipients. With that admission straight from the horse’s mouth, I posted my first blog entry about Medicaid’s ripping off the poor with these criminal fees. Yet, less than three months later they removed that bluntly honest appraisal of their OWN services, and replaced it with a page of confusing gobbledygook that made it impossible to figure out the REAL cost for their “supplementary” health care! So I had to scour the web to find SOME page that remained honest. And the only one I discovered was a page for dentist price quotes:

https://www.shareofcost.com/state-assistance/share-of-cost-california.html

–quote:

Share of cost is calculated on a monthly basis by deducting a set amount called a “maintenance need level” from the net income. That is, Share of cost = Net Income – Maintenance Need. A Medi-Cal beneficiary’s share of cost is the difference between her income after allowable deductions and the Maintenance Need Level (MNL), which is a set amount allocated for her living expenses.

The MNL has not changed since 1989 and is $600 for an individual. Thus, anything an individual earns over $600 a month becomes that individual’s share of cost. For example, if an individual earns $1,100 a month, that person must incur $500 in medical costs each month before receiving any coverage from the Medi-Cal program. For consumers with a high share of cost, Medi-Cal provides little more than catastrophic coverage and does not enable them to access health care services.

–end

As for my own dental “care:” even in the best of times (the 1970s and 80s, that is: “pre-SOC”) the services were inferior to those patients who could afford good insurance, or pay entirely out of pocket. Then the cutbacks came, first no more crowns on the back teeth, or root canal work, then no crowns at all, and so on. Which finally led to NO dental care for men, then for ALL adults…only children could benefit. I remember when the “no-male-adults” decision came into effect under Pres. Clinton. I thought of all those unemployed African-American men who were nonetheless expected to get out there and find a job, while their teeth were rotting and falling out! NOT a great selling point for any potential employer, I might note.

My own teeth began to crack and fall apart, over that 30-year period! But I was NOT in a situation where I had to be employed, thank god. When Obama’s “Affordable” Health Care Act was established, Medi-Cal announced their resumption of dental services. Yippee, I thought, I can finally get all my teeth fixed! Only to learn that, along with this “boon,” came an astronomical SOC, which NObody on Medi-Cal could afford! And this occurred in almost every OTHER state, as well. But now that Medi-Cal is, once more, free, I am eligible to receive dental services at no cost to yours truly. However, there is not only the issue of struggling to actually FIND a dentist who accepts Medi-Cal–and the likely LONG list of clients clamoring for their services that will cause ridiculous delays in such care–there is the serious question of:

Do I REALLY want to go through all the prolonged surgery and tooth restoration that will not only take a VERY long time, but probably cause me much suffering in the process? After all, this COULD have been entirely avoided, had California NOT eliminated dental care in the first place…and would’ve cost them FAR less. As well as cost ME far less potential agony in the restoration process! So I have decided to FOREGO seeing any dentist for the rest of my life. At any rate, Medi-Cal will still NOT cover partial plates, only a full plate. Which means that the best they’ll do is remove what irreparable teeth of mine remain, leaving perhaps two or three that are still viable. Which would eliminate MOST of what remains of my ability to chew and crush what food I can still manage with a compromised mouth. So I wonder:

How many aging people really need FULL dentures, when MOST of them will retain at least one or two or three teeth till the day they perish?

In case you don’t know, it is a strict RULE of Medi-Cal dentistry to NEVER remove any tooth that can be “saved.” Thus it is against the law to pull the few teeth that remain, in order for the patient to get FULL plates.

> The HIV debacle is onerous. I am glad for your activism to correct that.

“Onerous” is too kind a word! More like “brutal,” in my estimation. Like so many OTHER aspects of America’s health care for the low income, the poor, and the homeless. My point overall, is that the vulgarity of denial of decent health care for the low income and poor is far more overarching than just lack of dental care and therapy. So long as profit rules the roost, things will not improve very much…rather, it will be a painfully drawn out slog to the finish line, which is so far out there, it’s not even on the horizon!

> I do not experience the system as all bad.

Nor do I, for at least SOME people are helped by it, just not most. Even band-aid measures are better than NO health care at all…but isn’t that a kind of “third-world” way of thinking? For that reason, our health care system is nonetheless VERY bad (a.k.a. “brutal”), and therefore important to document as much as possible, before this dark side of gov’t gets swept under the rug so thoroughly, it can never be recovered for posterity’s sake. And, the egregious lack of medical care STILL rages on! It looks to me like you are one of the rare, fortunate people who has worked within a small group of Medicaid employees that live up to many benevolent ideals, and even get to practice them. That, however, is far from typical.

> Like most of life, whether systems, nature, individuals, inclusion and justice must continuously be sought at the same time as balancing our courage with joy and laughter.

True enough, but let’s not use that as an excuse to turn our faces away from injustice of the most prolonged and horrific kind. For which millions of people have suffered (and still do) prolonged, needless misery, and often an early grave, due to medical neglect and denial. I would say that America is more “medieval” than “modern” because of this.

I HOPE that was not your way of saying you’d rather not discuss this aspect, because I have been struggling a VERY long time to get some questions answered. And, since you shall remain anonymous, there is NO danger of our Medicaid conversation mucking up your world.

> I won’t be on email much today and wish you a peaceful day.

That is fine, no rush. Please don’t EVER feel pressured to reply ASAP, take all the time in the world you want. But I DO have some questions.

– Zeke


Re: [MCN-Announce]- IS YOUR PHONE SCREWY?
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Announce MCN, Discussion MCN
Date: March 31, 2021 11:02 AM

On Mon, 29 Mar 2021 14:36:49 -0700 “Nellie Bean” posted:

> For about a week now, my Land Line phone is totally weird! When it rings, I may be sitting right next to it, & as soon as the first ring happens, I begin hearing a man’s voice reciting numbers.

Our Reptilian Overlords from Sirius Star Cluster Sector 17, are about to announce their conquest of this world…our entire solar system, in fact! This is a good thing, BTW. For they are both entirely benevolent and 100% homosexual (thus no worries about overbreeding causing our OWN species to go extinct…we’re doing a fine job of that ourselves). Their announcement may come as soon as tomorrow, April 1st. But if not then, it will definitely be SOME day next month.

Their project is to right all wrongs on this planet posthaste, including ecological disasters and bad puns. Indeed, they are our creators, who put our genetically altered seed in the wombs of female apes over a million years ago…and have been guiding and watching over us ever since. Though surreptitiously of course, and often in the guise of visions and mythologies that include gods, goddesses, monsters and super-heroes, characters and creatures out of fairy tales, ghosts, ghouls, goblins, witches and magical dogs (for examples).

What this telephone anomaly is all about, is simple: they are testing communication channels across the globe by randomly selecting this or that media tool, in order to make sure all channels are clear and working. Once their Supreme Lizard gets the green light on this, she will make her presence known across all analog and digital modes…including the old-school, land line telephone, of course. They have decided that tomorrow would be the perfect day for this, as we humans call it “April Fool’s Day,” and these Mesosaurian Magistrates DO have a sense of humor! After all, they created US, didn’t they…the biggest fools on the planet!

But Easter is their second-best choice, ’cause it’s all about EGGS.


Subject: Some quick notes…
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Anna-Lee Horsington
Date: March 31, 2021 12:03 PM

…for later email reflection, if you so wish.

Regarding my remark about Carl Jung’s unresolved concern for a particular client: perhaps that was his way of reaching to me from the past to the future, to set up a puzzle that only I, myself, would discover and wonder about. IOW: his way of saying “Hi!” to me through that tunnel of time.

I recognize the shamanic nature of the homeless…at least SOME of them, though I do not balk at the possibility that it may be ALL of them. Which again, was born of Jung’s influence upon my decades of street activism.

Interesting thing about the decaying condition of my teeth: I rarely feel any pain, nor do I suffer infection. So, no decay, just a wearing down and breaking off now and then. This, I guess, is one of the protections granted me by the Fates: that I become further humbled thanks to a frighteningly horrid smile, yet NOT suffer any concomitant agony FROM their bad condition. Ironically, having to wear a mask due to this pandemic, my mouth is now COVERED UP from anyone’s sight, so I have a more level ground upon which to interact! IOW: one less stigma to deal with. My bandanna ALSO conceals my old-man wattle: another plus ’cause it makes me look 20 years younger. :D

Looking at myself objectively: no doubt I am an avatar with an astounding destiny. Though I would NEVER oppose anyone’s accusation that I am NOT that, but merely a deluded individual. How can I expect anyone to conclude otherwise, as they’d have to delve fairly deep into my literature to even take seriously, my claim? So I don’t obsess over this, but just let my spirit continue to blossom, nourished as it is upon the fertile soil of prescience. For me, this is all quite natural at this point…I am already there, I AM the new “me.” Or as Jung would put it: thoroughly “individuated.” And, best of all, April begins tomorrow! How syncrhonistically brilliant that this year April Fool’s Day and the celebration of the Last Supper (Holy Thursday) are in conjunction!

Not that I believe I am not only the next avatar, but Jesus Christ Himself…that would be absurd! As a student of world religions and cultural anthropology, I am aware of the deeper ties with worldviews far older than Christianity. A religion which, like many other religions, lifted the symbols, archetypes and traditions from earlier peoples. Thus, the parallels with Christ that may appear in my own life, did not actually originate with Christianity, but link to much older sources such as those from ancient Greek myths, Hinduism, Native American beliefs, Celtic lore, and so forth. Again, Carl Jung assisted me in figuring this all out.

As for Stanislav Grof: there are videos of him or by him on Youtube, which I WILL get around to watching, very soon. Such as this one:

– Zeke

P.S: I just finished watching the video, and found it to be catering to the upper middle class, with nothing offered to address the misery of the impoverished and suffering masses. Just like what Jungian therapy has been relegated to, but for the sole efforts of yours truly. Furthermore, he’s said nothing different from previous well-heeled soothsayers for the rich. Interesting, entertaining material, but not particularly liberating, IMO.


Re: [MCN-Announce]- Waiting for Scary Vagrant to Move On [my latest youtube video – 10.5 mins.]
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Lisa Harwood
Date: March 31, 2021 6:43 PM

> Really nice episode: loved the touch of neuvo-Jane Addams (your erudite commentary on the intricacies of urban planning on the micro-level outside your own front gate). Neat. . . would have been a touch more perfect with the addition of a bit of commentary about WHY Deek was having a good day before you closed.

It’s in the matching chapter. But I can add it to the description box…though that might just bring confusion to a rather simple video. I don’t want to get too complicated with video bells and whistles.

> I really enjoyed the dynamic in the dialogue you engaged in with My Dear Watson/Anna-Lee Horsington in ‘Next, Next, Next, Next, Next, Next’. Very “My Dinner With Andre.”

Thanks! An important email is coming up very shortly. Stay tuned.

– Zeke


Subject: Louisiana took ALL his stimulus money!
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Lisa Harwood
Date: March 31, 2021 6:54 PM

Here is the main letter (3 parts):

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This is the cover letter:

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And this is a letter informing him that he has yet to activate his Economic Impact Payment Card (EIP):

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He says he never received that card, which was supposed to be sent to the Holy Redeemer Church on Diamond Street. So this is REALLY out of hand now. And, Deek is not the kind of person who EVER wants to deal with paperwork of any kind.

Finally, this is a 6-1/2 minute video of him coming by a short while ago, with the papers, and his acting like a dick to the point where I had to tell him to go away, just give me the papers so I can study them without having to put up with his BS:

He’s calling me a pervert for letting the pooches lick my face! He’s been screwing with my head over this on and off…he ALWAYS comes up with a fake excuse to hate me, and keep the dogs away. He seems to be SCATHINGLY jealous that they like me so much. You’d think he’d be HAPPY to have a friend with a roof over his head, where the dogs love their visits, and I take GREAT care of them. But, no, his bipolarity is self destructive and once more, I’m QUITE worried about Flaco & Lucky’s well-being.

Thanks for your attention on this matter, Lisa! But as you can see, this supposed gov’t “promise” to not garnish the stimulus check over child support is a RUSE. Which backstabbing by gov’t only serves to make my relationship with Deek even MORE difficult than it already is.

– Zeke


Re: Louisiana took ALL his stimulus money!
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: March 31, 2021 7:08 PM

> Oh, crap, what a fucking mess.

Doesn’t that figure though? Like right outta the blue, Deek moving ahead per my suggestion, going to the church to get things arranged, getting ID, then POW! he’s fucked! He even said he’s sorry he listened to me. Well, Wattson, I’m sorry the gov’t even came UP with these stimulus checks because they’ve been nothing but a CURSE in my life.

Yet MORE monstrosity dumped on my shoulders, with two sweet doggies in the middle of all this? This is a VERY cruel situation, and Deek’s sadistic streak is eating it all up.

Did you see that video…he wouldn’t even let Flaco sit beside me, yet expected me to help him with this stimulus debacle? Anyway, I kinda figured the last day in March, something fucked up would happen to me again. The Bodhisattvas gotta twist that knife in my back for one last dig before April is upon us. Maybe something ELSE shitty will happen, too. After all, five and a quarter hours to go! Wish I could hide out in a bunker, but I know full well that won’t stop them from shitting on me again no matter where I am, if they so deem my initiation is not QUITE yet over!

And I STILL gotta call Deek back to tell him it doesn’t look good. So THERE’S the next shitty thing I’ve gotta go through. I’m sure it won’t go well at all. MAYBE, just MAYBE I won’t bother to call him back.

He DID say he got his $600 some time in the past, but I have no idea what he’s talking about. “I” gave him $600, not the gov’t! You never know with Deek…he MAY have gotten that EIP card and just threw it away. He LIES about so much, there is no telling with him. He just LOVES to create absurd drama all the time, and this latest scenario provides him with the GOLDEN OPPORTUNITY to do just that. And guess who’s the brunt of his monstrous nonsense? Me, of course…but, sadly, also the pups in some rather frightening ways.

Now, I gotta see if I can report the EIP missing, and have them send a new one. I’d have to register it first, then see what happens. ALL FOR NAUGHT, probably! As I’ve said before, more than once:

Money doesn’t do anything for him, as he blows it on ridiculous stuff, then loses it (so he says, more likely he SELLS it for meth). Yet, because it’s HIS money that they’ve taken from him, the whole WORLD’S gonna end, and I’ll never see him or the pups again. Oh, then there’s this:

When he called me from the church, about child support taking his stimulus, he moaned how he’s a good guy, always tries to do his best, why is this happening to him. GIMME A BREAK, HE CAN BE A REALLY NASTY PERSON AT TIMES! I have LITTLE empathy for him…it’s all about the dogs, their well-being, AFAIC. Yet what can I do? NOTHING. Except pray.

– Zeke K-Holmes


Subject: This is crazy (re. latest stimulus check is LESS protected from garnishment than the 2nd)
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Lisa Harwood
Date: March 31, 2021 6:43 PM

I swear I found a web site that assured us that this latest stimulus amount would NOT be garnished for child support! I wanted to check out your claim that it wouldn’t. For I’d NEVER have encouraged Deek to go for it, if I did NOT find real evidence. Yet now I found THIS web page:

Your third stimulus check can be seized. Here’s what to know.

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/technology/nobody-can-take-your-stimulus-check-away-from-you-right-not-quite-here-are-the-rules/ar-BB1az0jG

–quote:

Unlike the second stimulus check, the new stimulus bill doesn’t have the same protections against your $1,400 check being seized by debt collectors.

–end

I don’t understand this “less protected” thing because they also garnished his second stimulus check as well!

Now, the damage is done and the doggies’ life is on the line more than ever. Hopefully, I am spot on about this being just another bodhisattva ruse to get me to figure out how to rise above the negative energy coming from not just ONE, but TWO sources: Deek AND the government. Well, I’ll just hunker down, lick my wounds, and trust that this BS will finally be over, once April arrives. Which is less than four hours from now. I don’t think I’ll even call Deek back to give him a report of my finding, which is: YOU’RE BONED! Seeing as he’ll just come down on me, and he HAS been very insulting lately, to the point where even the pups are sad, and he won’t let me hug or pet them because I’m a “pervert.” If I could get away with it, I’d abscond with the pups and never see him again. Alas, that is not at all possible.

– Zeke

P.S: I’m gonna add a note to that “vagrant” video description, say something like:

If you want to know why Deek’s having a good day, visit this link. Though don’t be disappointed, because around evening time when he returned, he was a MONSTER (just search for “monster” if you wanna get right to it).


Never Biden

December 7, 2019

It should be as plain as the nose at the end of anyone’s face, that Joe Biden is the Democratic Party’s equivalent of Donald Trump. He’s every bit the white elitist and corporate butt licker that Trump is…they travel in the same circles. Those two are friends, and they’re playing a game at the expense of this nation’s sovereignty, ideals (no matter how badly tattered they may be at this juncture), freedoms (including the most important: your right to privacy), and universal respect and opportunities (for all citizens no matter their background, gender, skin color, financial class, bodily or facial appearance, hair color or eye color). By “universal respect” I mean all good things that come out of it, such as (but not limited to) quality education, housing, health care and job offers.

Bernie is the only one who even comes close to these ideals…with Biden a very distant second. But he’s all lip service and no tongue. We need at least a fighting chance, and having Biden as president will most certainly not give us that chance. He will be a weak opponent against Donald Trump, and intentionally so…he will cave in to him, intentionally so…because that’s the plan! And it’s been the plan all along, just as it was for Hillary to lose. And clearly explains why the DNC could not afford to have Mr. Sanders run against Trump…and so they sabotaged him. Think about it; that’s all I ask.

The only reason any democrat would vote for “The Pride of Scranton” is but one: they are white and affluent themselves, and identify with him, and not the common man. Their smugness knows no bounds, even when it comes to selling out their party…even when it comes to the destruction of all life on this planet. (Or, at least, the destruction of all higher life forms, that is: anything above one cell. Certainly, those rooting for Joe Biden have no more than one cell for a brain!)

These used to be called “limousine liberals,” but nowadays they’re called by either one of two interchangeable terms: “neoliberals” or “centrists.” And they are precisely the ones who’ve turned the rural and working class against the Democratic Party…starting with Bill Clinton, who manufactured the concept of “centrist,” though it only be a wolf in another clothing. A stridently pro-corporate wolf, just like the Republicans had already become a decade or so earlier, under Ronald Raygun. However:

Arguing for Bernie Sanders and against Joe Biden is just like arguing with Trumpsters over what a tragic mistake they’ve made: either way, you can’t change a single mind. As cartoon character Pogo once said: “We have met the enemy, and he is us!”


Homophobia in Real Time

January 26, 2018

Sometimes Bill Maher pisses me off, when it comes to his supposedly “stalwart” support of LGBT rights. Like some years back, when he said it was too soon for gay marriage, we should settle for domestic partnership, and stop whining about marriage, it’s just a word. And about two years ago, when a male guest on Real Time caressed his shoulder in a comradely touch, Mr. Maher jerked back in scorn to admonish: “No homo, bro.” Unfortunately, I haven’t saved a clip of either video, or took note of the episodes, to verify my claims. There’s also the time he declared in 2014 that “There Is a Gay Mafia … If You Cross Them, You Do Get Whacked.

However, on January 19th of this year, once more he spoke ignorantly on the queer issue and, fortunately, I did save the clip. Just view the short video yourself (it’s only 21 seconds), and come to your own conclusion before reading my disgruntled take on the matter, just below the link:

Video: Homophobia in Real Time

In case the video won’t load, or you are hearing disabled, here is the transcript of Mr. Maher’s own words:

“Now building blocks, basic building blocks of thought, like ‘there are facts’ and ‘things have degrees’ are being tossed aside. Mike Pence and ISIS are both homophobic, but Mike doesn’t throw gay men off the roof. So he’s better! This isn’t that hard, people!”

My Own Disgruntled Take on the Matter

Bill Maher should know better–that Mr. Pence is wickedly homophobic–and that our current Vice President would, indeed, persecute homosexuals according to Christian fundamentalist dictate. Just because they probably wouldn’t choose to toss LGBTs off a roof, they certainly would be overjoyed to terrorize, incarcerate and even murder them in equally gruesome ways. Such as stoning them to death. Or look the other way whenever a gay person has been bashed to a bloody, stinking pulp by one of their own Jebus followers (and make “godly” excuses for not bringing the criminal to justice). Or rounding them up in concentration camps to be tortured, experimented upon, abused and gassed to death. Do you doubt me? Then here’s a list of seven of his offenses that I grabbed from an online article…one of many that denounce Mr. Pence’s vitriolic stance against LGBTs:

1. Supporting a constitutional amendment to ban marriage equality

2. Signed a bill to jail same-sex couples for applying for a marriage license

3. Wanted to divert funding from HIV prevention to conversion therapy

4. Opposed repeal of Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell

5. Complained about the passage of the Matthew Shepard Hate Crimes bill

6. Served on the board of an antigay group

7. Argued that passing ENDA would ban Bibles from the workplace

No two ways about it: Mike Pence’s anti-queer agenda is right in step with these zealous Christians who will use such laws (if any are passed) to make further inroads towards vilifying gays…leading to the same “final solution” that Adolf Hitler concocted for Jews and numerous other, marginalized groups. After all, look where we are now: the Trump administration just created a new office called “The Conscience and Religious Freedom Division” in the agency’s Office for Civil Rights. Which makes it legal for any medical service, including doctors, hospitals and even emergency medical technicians to refuse to treat a transsexual (or anyone else perceived as L,G, B or T), on the grounds of religious discrimination! In other words: Bible thumping EMTs would let you die in the streets for the love of their god!

See: SF reacts to feds promoting bias in health care

Quote:

Equality California Executive Director Rick Zbur called the move “a direct assault” on LGBTQs.

“This new rule would allow medical providers a ‘license to discriminate’ against patients if they disagree with their sexual orientation or gender identity,” stated Zbur. “The ability to access transition-related care, HIV medication, reproductive services and other necessary medical services are all under threat. … California has some of the nation’s strongest non-discrimination protections under the Unruh Civil Rights Act. In the coming days and weeks, we will work with our legal colleagues, the California Legislative LGBT Caucus and our allies in California Legislature to determine whether legislation or litigation is required to combat this new attack on the LGBTQ community.”

I’m sure Mr. Pence had a hand–probably a heavy hand–in creating this new office, which is targeted towards discriminating against sexual minorities (as well as women and other minorities they may choose on a whim or a wild hair up their halo-rimmed asses, such as the homeless, the disabled, immigrants and African Americans). I am therefore incensed over Bill Maher’s ignorance about just the kind of man V.P. Pence really is. Bill should know better, but he doesn’t. No excuse, considering he portrays himself as well informed over liberal issues, including sexual minorities. He either hasn’t looked into Mr. Pence’s bigoted history or, if he has, doesn’t think persecuting homosexuals is that bad, so long as they’re not thrown off a roof. I mean, Mr. Maher is aware of how the Religious Reich has taken over the Federal government, through Donald Trump’s stubby handed machinations…right? Yet he sees no danger of Mike Pence, as a New Testament zealot, being equivalent to Muslim fanatics’ own hatred of queers?

Thank god that Mr. Maher is not the last word on this topic, though he seems to fancy himself as such. Just another clueless hetero claiming to speak for a minority about which he obviously knows little…especially when it comes to who our enemies are, and how they operate. Mike Pence’s dominionist ideology is the Christian equivalent of Sharia Law. And we have a whole Presidential cabinet–and Senate, and House of Congress–filled to the rafters with them, now!

So, no, Mr. Maher, he is not “better” than ISIS.


ADDENDUM

Something I didn’t mention in my article, is the eeriness of the video clip. How smugly Maher presented his point in all its glorious ignorance…ending with conservative sell-out queer Andrew Sullivan grinning broadly, and applauding Mr. Maher’s equally eerie praise of Michael Pence. (FYI: Mr. Sullivan is not just a lifelong conservative; he’s also a devout Roman Catholic…so there you have his “queer Uncle Tom” credentials.) I didn’t plan it that way…just realized the fact with a little hindsight. As if that clip were specifically tailored for me to hammer home my point. I find it bizarre (though in a good way) that things seem to fall into my hands immediately, once I’m ready to expose an aspect of homophobia, or any other injustice. I rarely have to do more than one search, to come up with such helpful resources…whether image, text, or video.


Radio Debut

March 7, 2017

Date: Sat, 4 Mar 2017 09:49
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Eleanor Cooney
Subject:
My brother’s a Republican!

Just found that out during our phone conversation moments ago. (Both our parents were Democrats, BTW.) But he’s not a crazy, fanatic Republican, says both parties are a bunch of BS. It basically came down to this:

If more Republicans were like him, this would be a better world. And if more Democrats were like me, likewise.

It was a very good conversation, glad I called him.

– Zeke


Date: Sat, 4 Mar 2017 11:32
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Eleanor Cooney
Subject:
Re: My brother’s a Republican!

On Sat, Mar 4, 2017 at 9:57 AM, Eleanor Cooney wrote:

{{ Whew. Did he vote for the pussygrabber? }}

I believe he did, I didn’t ask him directly. “Give him a chance, if he doesn’t live up to his promises, then throw the bum out.” He also seems to be caught up with RW conspiracy theories, much like Tom Cahill. He believes that Social Security is in danger, which it is not.

He is hopeful that Trump will bring the jobs home, I said “I don’t think so.” That’s when he said “give him a chance.” So I pretty much kept my mouth shut. I have a feeling that most of the extended family is Republican.

And he never calls me or sends a letter, or emails. I’m always the one who contacts him. For that reason, we haven’t spoken to each other since I last called, eight months ago. So, there’s still that downside. Blech.

But, he has no problem with gays, hippies, etc. He seems to be pretty much open-minded. And, he’s been very nice to me over the phone, as well as handling my share of our parents’ inheritance.

Oh, yeah, he definitely wanted Bernie Sanders for president. So his heart’s in the right place.

– Zeke


Date: Sat, 4 Mar 2017 13:22
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Eleanor Cooney
Subject:
Was that your Mitch on the air last night?

Listening to the podcast right now…quite a grim evaluation of these Trump times, gut-wrenchingly honest. Way too true to be denied. He mentioned his Facebook page, so I visited, found the piece he recited on KNYO:


Somebody hit me in the back of the head with what felt like a dumbbell or some other heavy, unyielding iron thing, as I slept last night. The blow pushed my face into the mattress, and I said, “I’m losing consciousness.” In a millisecond, I changed that to: “I’m dead. Somebody has killed me. I can’t defend myself. I can’t protect Ellie.” I thought about famous bad people who have been here to Mendocino–Charlie Manson & family, Jim Jones & his doomed family, Lake & Ng, the California Sierra-Nevada torturers and murderers who were sexually aroused by the suffering of people when their bodies were carved up and violated, when they were forced to watch their wives, husbands, babies and toddlers under slow torture. They are the people I lock my door against as the world descends into hell, why I own things for self-defense and keep them close. It was no use. I was murdered. But, another millisecond went by: “You’re brain is still working. You’re not dead.”

I woke up, tried to sort things out, and found no injury nor any clue to what had happened. The sense of being brained included no preceding dream. It came from nowhere.

Today the chainsaw I just got back from the repair shop didn’t work. Ditto the lawnmower I just retrieved from the same repair shop. I took the chainsaw in and, for the first time in the 15 years I’ve been buying my Husqvarna tools and gardening supplies there, I made a scene. I’ve spent my life thinking if you are loyal and steadfast with a merchant, they will value your business and take care of your needs. I was furious and said all that and made a scene, which, more than an hour later, still has me vibrating. So I confront the news with an angry mind. I learn that the new President and his new Secretary of Education, Betsy DeVos, visited a Catholic “charter” school in Florida. Charter schools are a lousy idea shoved down our gullets as a great idea, when, in fact, they are the perfect scheme for making education in the United States of America a private, profitable business to favor the wealthy and short-change kids who aren’t rich.

Betsy DeVos is the sister of Erik Prince, who used his family’s enormous wealth to create a civilian army to privatize the military. In Iraq, Blackwater did mass murder, rape, torture and all the things that make war awful, without the accounting–a very loose, readily overridden accounting- that our armies are supposed to honor under international conventions–because they were “Private Enterprise,” the gold standard for American capitalists. So horrendous were Blackwater’s offenses in Iraq and in the flooded, devastated streets of New Orleans after Hurricane Katrina, Erik changed his company’s name to “Xe Services” and then the lofty “Academi.” He has been denounced for his crimes in the small media and given trivial notice in the major media. The Princes and DeVos belong to a harebrained Christian cult beloved by right wing, profit-mad one-percenters, and this is the “base” that Trump and DeVos were championing in their Florida tour. Prince and DeVos, in a reasonable world, would be strung up, but in this insane period, are celebrated, rewarded and given tremendous power.

That I have to point out that these are not good Americans (or even good humans) is past tiresome to me. That I have to keep telling people I love to open their eyes is past exhausting to me. It is a kind of existential hell, speaking obvious truth to people who shouldn’t need to have the obvious pointed out to them. DeVos and Prince and Trump are the sort of malformed creatures that hold sway in the land of the free. They should be in cages at the city gates. They torment my sleep and make me a strident, frustrated old man in my waking. I can’t bear it.

It didn’t occur to me he might be /your/ Mitch, until Marco told him at the end of their talk: “Say hello to Ellie for me.”

In case you didn’t stay up last night, to hear Mitch, you can get the podcast:

tinyurl.com/zekeread

Discussion begins at 1:02:40.

– Zeke


Date: Sat, 4 Mar 2017 13:53
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Eleanor Cooney
Subject:
Re: Was that your Mitch on the air last night?

On Sat, Mar 4, 2017 at 1:26 PM, Eleanor Cooney wrote:

{{ Yep. That was Mitch. If he’d consulted me first, I’d have advised him against sounding quite so drunk and despairing… }}

Ha! I’m glad you didn’t, as many others go through such difficult waters, and his sharing this from deep in his heart, will actually have a cathartic impact. Or not.

Now what /you/ need to do, is prepare for an onslaught of concerned neighbors and more distant members of the Mendo Community bringing food and laughter, to cheer him up…starting with Marcos’s visit come Monday. Maybe they’ll hold a mock funeral in his honor.

I guess you’ll now have to put up with town folk asking how Mitch is, whenever you shop for groceries and run other errands around and about The Mysterious Masonic Temple..for the next few weeks or longer.

Maybe you should were a garlic necklace until the embarrassing scandal blows over.

– Zeke


Date: Sat, 4 Mar 2017 15:08
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Eleanor Cooney
Subject:
Re: Was that your Mitch on the air last night?

On Sat, Mar 4, 2017 at 2:28 PM, Eleanor Cooney wrote:

{{ You probably noticed how gracious and kind Marco was. That’s Marco for you. He can also be ferocious, slicing and dicing right-wingers and other fools on the local list serve, toying with them, making fools of them with his impish wit…. }}

He’s an Ascended Master of the Order of Mendocino Mages.

{{ This isn’t the first time Mitch has called Marco’s show and gauntly unloaded. It’s okay–I’m used to it, and so is Marco and listeners. It’ll be fun to see him on Monday. }}

You should see what I posted to Mitch on his FB page.

{{ In case you’re wondering what Marco looks like, he could easily make a living as a Jesus impersonator–tall, lanky, long dark hair and beard (with nary a trace of gray though he’s 58), dark, dark eyes set in deep shady caves. }}

I pictured him with a silver-gray crewcut, tall and lanky (got that part right), looking more like a harbor seal than a messiah. This coming Friday should be a hoot!


Date: Sat, 4 Mar 2017 18:53
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Eleanor Cooney
Subject:
OMG, he read Chapter 1 of my novel last night!

Start at 3 hours:47 minutes….he described me as a “young man,” I have to correct him about that. Maybe he read just a part of my chapter, not the whole thing. I just started listening.


Date: Sat, 4 Mar 2017 19:03
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Eleanor Cooney
Subject:
No, he’s reading a part of the chapter.

…you’ll see: the part where I touch the bullet lodged in Randolph’s back. Followed by one of my poems not in the chapter per se, but a link. He’s reading the online version, different from the paper one. I just paused the audio after he read the first verse. Gonna step out, breathe the fresh, rainy air before stepping back in and, with enormous gratitude, listen to the remainder.


Date: Sat, 04 Mar 2017 19:14
From: Eleanor Cooney
To: Zeke Krahlin
Subject:
Re: OMG, he read Chapter 1 of my novel last night!

Wow!

“Young man.” That’s great. Little does he know you’re eight years older than he.


Date: Sat, 4 Mar 2017 20:12
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Eleanor Cooney
Subject:
I know this is a setup, El…

…and you can’t convince me otherwise.

When I stepped out for a few minutes, I walked up Market to Castro Street with my umbrella shielding me from the Goddess’s own joyful tears. I was, and still am of course, in a celebratory mood. Proceeding back to my hovel, I glanced through Beaux’s large window (that’s a gay bar) to see if Larkin were there…and maybe would step out to give me a chance to tell him about my radio adventure. After all, he’s part of it.

Alas, no Larkin. But then as I resumed my walk, there I saw him, just 10 feet ahead: commiserating in his usual, boisterous manner with another gay patron (no doubt possessing an ample bulge in his crotch; his wallet, I mean.) So I stopped about 20 feet away beneath an awning, to enjoy the view. I’m sure he was aware of my presence, but gave no overt sign. As I lingered, I soon realized that my neighbor, Mark Epstein from down the hall, was standing just several feet from me, chatting with a woman friend in a recessed doorway. He looked up, I waved. Maybe he thought I was spying on him.

Though Mark has remained a distant quasi-friend over the 18+ years he’s lived here, he has read my novel, and our lives are mystically joined by his little papillion doggie, who passed away seven years back. Skelly would visit me every evening, such sweet happiness! Trusting me with his dog like that, was Marc’s way of apologizing for a grievous wrong he committed…but no point going into that, now. Just one month ago, he finally adopted another papillion, a rescue dog 10 years old! Don’t know what took him so long, but glad to see his new companion.

Larkin eventually entered the bar with his current squeeze (wallet, I mean) for the night, and Mark-and-friend also departed a moment later. I soon followed, once the two had entered 2306, that I may not come off as a busybody. They were standing by the elevator as I swung the gate wide. We both exchanged a brief “hello” and I climbed the stairway. So now I conjecture:

You, Mitch, Marco, my brother, Larkin, Mark, Tom (Cahill), are all in cahoots: the timing, the synchronicity in this string of events in LESS THAN 24 HOURS, are beyond mundane coincidence. (Mitch calling in with an emotive masterpiece, overwhelming in its grief, the same night Marco reads my own heart wrenching tale…what are the odds!)

Now, back to hearing the rest of Marco’s narration from My Literary Labor of Love, My Own Holy Grail! What an extraordinary two days. And thank you /so/ much for being such a kind presence in my world, for so many years now.

– Zeke


Date: Sat, 4 Mar 2017 21:46
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Reptilian Devotees
Subject:
Listen to a reading from my novel on the radio!

Marco McClean, the host of a late-Friday-night radio show in Ft. bragg, CA, surprised me by reading from chapter one of my novel, just last night! I didn’t expect this to happen so soon. Fortunately, he saves each show as a podcast, which you may listen to by clicking on the following link:

tinyurl.com/marcozeke1

You can either left-click on the download link, to immediately start playing, or right-click on the download link, to save it to your hard drive…then play it later, at your convenience.

The reading starts at 3 hours, 47 minutes, and ends at 4 hours, 10 minutes. (There is a musical interlude in the middle; just click through it.)

If you care to leave a comment about the reading, just go to his blog entry, here:

tinyurl.com/marcozeke2

In fact, I urge you to do so, since any favorable post about me will help boost the potential for getting my word out.

Your post won’t show up immediately, as he reviews it first. I know, because I just left a comment there, myself. Here it is:


Marco: What an honor to hear you read from my novel Friday night! Certainly a surprise, as I didn’t expect that to occur so soon. I’m listening to the podcast right now, as I sit in my room and the gracious rain falls from the dark heavens. I chuckled when you introduced me as a “young man,” for I am actually 66. Clarification to my poem, “September’s Passage”: I was still Gene Catalano back then, but changed my name to Zeke Krahlin in 1996. This is mentioned in my book a little further down the line. Googling my name, Ezekiel J Krahlin, works just fine, with the second result pointing to my web site: gay-bible.org. The first result is a link to the ebook version of my novel.

I am amazed at the synchronicity of Eleanor’s partner, Mitch, pouring his heart out in a grievous recitation, on your show that same night as my own poetic lament. What were the odds? I then went to Mitch’s Facebook wall, and discovered he also posted that essay there, so commented:


You guys have all the fun, up there in Mendocino. Tremendous piece of writing, Mitch…who says your impact on the world is diminishing when you can still write like that? But now, someone needs to start kicking you in the butt until you start laughing again. Ellie’s got her work cut out for her!”

Now, back to hearing the rest of your podcast, a most enjoyable and revelatory pastime, especially since we have nothing like that any more, on San Francisco’s airwaves. Thank you so much for including me in your Mendocino County community of oddballs, dear hearts, pioneers and mystical wanderers.

– Zeke


Date: Sat, 4 Mar 2017 23:44
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Marco McClean
Subject:
Re: In case my comment didn’t take…

On 3/4/17, Marco McClean wrote:

{{ I don’t know how to set it so it just posts things when people send them. I don’t spend a lot of time managing the weblog; it’s just a notice-board about my show. }}

Sometimes the comment shows up after posting (w/”awaiting moderation”), sometimes it doesn’t. So that’s a WordPress glitch, which only adds to the confusion. IOW, it /should/ show up right after posting, even though awaiting your moderation.

{{ Next week is a Fort Bragg week for me –I’ll be doing the show from KNYO. The number there is 707 961 3022. }}

The contact page shows 962 for the prefix, as in:

Studio: 707-962-3022

Do they need to update the number?

{{ Call any time after about 9:15 Friday (March 10) night and let it ring awhile in case I’ve put a record on so I can use the toilet, or if I’m out back getting something out of the car, or something. There’s only one phone line; if it’s busy, wait a little bit and try again. }}

No problem. I look forward to our first on-air dialogue.

{{ What makes you sound best is to have some of your work ready to read into the phone, to turn to that at the end of whatever we talk about. }}

Easy peasy. I’ll have a number of short pieces loaded and ready to go. One very funny, one political, and other stuff. I don’t know how much time you’ll allot me, but even reading just one of my pieces would be a pleasure.

I don’t have my own Internet service, so I’ll have to forego listening in real time. I tried, using the free wifi from a coffeehouse across the street (and my extended USB wifi dongle) but it wasn’t robust enough to stay connected…I had to keep clicking reload every two minutes or so. I couldn’t just sit back, close my eyes and get into the show. *sigh*

Just so you know: my diction is a bit slurred due to lack of teeth. Medi-Cal discontinued dental care for adults over a decade ago…thus began the deterioration. But when they resumed it two years back, thanks to Obamacare’s expanded Medicaid, I discovered that I still couldn’t get my teeth repaired because they want to charge me $518 per month share of cost! That’s almost half my total income. Don’t know how they get away with it, and my letter of grievance about this to numerous politicians and progressive, online news services has not gotten anyone’s attention, yet. As if I’m the only person in the country, this is happening to. It also means I can’t afford other vital services. This is being swept under the rug by the Dems, while they pat each other on the back, over the “miraculous” success of Medicaid.

But that’s an issue for another time. I’ve composed several blog entries on this matter so far. Here’s the original, called “Obamacare Defecates on the poor,” which includes my letter to Nancy Pelosi:

tinyurl.com/obamadef

The embarrassment of my wretched teeth has caused me to cease doing open mic readings or gay standup…making things more difficult to promote my talents. I do /not/ want to be the Moms Mabley of queer comedy. Anyways, I think I’ll enunciate with enough clarity that every word be understood, even through the telephone lines. Since another tooth broke in half several months back, I’ve acquired a pronounced lisp. But I’ve adapted where I place my tongue, in order to soften the lisp.

I don’t consider myself a stereotype gay, yet here I am with a pronounced lisp, and thanks to my carpal tunnel syndrome, my wrists have grown limp. What next: a fungal infection on my chest that looks like a pink triangle? Take my domestic partner, please.

Friday I’m yours,

Zeke


Zeke’s War Correspondence, Issue #1

November 12, 2016

Make no doubt about it, we are at war…a new civil war, a most UNcivil war. The genocide of LGBTs is about to begin…or at least, the intent will be made known the moment Donald Trump assumes the presidency. But also make no mistake:

The Democratic Party is complicit in setting up the scenario whereby sexual minorities will be scapegoated as a warning to everyone else that, should they oppose the corporate status quo, they too shall be persecuted. FOR BOTH PARTIES ARE ONE. I foresaw such an outcome on the day President Bill Clinton signed the Defense of Marriage Act. For which I proposed the world’s first gay militia, in the following essay:

http://gay-bible.org/write/4_militia.htm

David Icke is a reptilian conspiracy theorist, whom I never took seriously until recently. Maybe he’s changed since he first started, but I’ve been astonished that, lately, he’s very much right on regarding today’s social crises. See for yourself, and tell me if you think I’m wrong:

I have also recently discovered an excellent Youtube news channel, Redacted Tonight, that uses humor in large part, to get across important messages about world and national issues. Here’s the latest episode, which I hope you’ll take the time to watch, as it is well worth it:

It is clear to me that the GOP is promoting solidarity for LGBT rights, using the threat of Muslim terrorism’s virulent homophobia to scare the gay vote away from Hillary and into their own tent. Which is why I posted the following blog entry in late July:

https://zekeblog.wordpress.com/2016/07/22/the-new-gop-meme/

Since the Republican Party is owned lock, stock and barrel by Christian fundamentalists who adamantly oppose homosexuals as worse than rapists and murderers, the GOP will, of course, move with sudden force to overturn every single law protecting sexual minorities, and openly persecute them. For it is their biblical mandate to wreak terror and death upon LGBTs, or they themselves shall not enter heaven, but burn in everlasting hell.

Now, considering the Buddha’s statement that “we have no enemies, only teachers,” what purpose, then, does Donald Trump serve in the grand scheme of things? Perhaps in breaking the spirit of multitudes, as happened to Europe in WWII, we will finally reach out to each other as brothers and sisters in solidarity, to form a better nation truly living up to the ideals of the Bill of Rights. And if this is true, guess whom we have to thank?

Reporting from the front lines here in the Castro,

Zeke Krahlin, Jehovah’s Queer Witness


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