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April 2, 2021

[BRINDLEKIN TALES – Book 3: Chapter 16]

Subject: Your Key Phrase
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Anna-Lee Horsington
Date: April 1, 2021 8:57 AM

This particular phrase of yours is key:

“I do not experience the system as all bad.”

Because it just now hit me, that you worked with Medicaid clients in NEW MEXICO, which is one of the handful of states that has NEVER crippled the poor with an astronomical Share of Cost. (Though, as with the two other states I know of that likewise did not, there was STILL an egregious price to pay: NO real dental care.)

Thus, you were virtually SHELTERED from experiencing the draconic fees for Medicaid services that were typical for well over forty of our states, possibly as many as forty-seven. Seeing as I did not do research on this for every state. I only found, thus far, three states that did NOT charge a criminally-exorbitant SOC: New Mexico, Minnesota, and Massachusetts.

My point being, therefore:

You were not so hobbled in your mission to assist the poor, as you would’ve been in most every other state. Therefore, you cannot REALLY give me that inside view of Medicaid workers who had the misfortune of being employed in a high-SOC region. Which also means you cannot speak for the quality (or lack thereof) of Medicaid services across the board, that is: in a national context. It’s almost like you were working in a different country, where the poor were treated better.

– Zeke


Re: Some Sweet Lovin’
From: Zeke’s Mailing List
To: Chuck Kapinski
Date: April 1, 2021 1:13 PM

> Their adorable precious sincerity is unmatchable and priceless.

No truer words have been said! Thanks. But since that video, more sadness and tragedy has ensued. You can read about it in my last two Brindlekin chapters. That would be chapters 14 and 15 of book 3.

> I think I may have this goddamned bug.

VERY sorry to hear that, Charles.

> Two Sundays ago I began becoming insomniac with nightsweats, catching only maybe 3 or 4 hours alternating nights. I’ve been eating light, drinking plenty of fluids and juice, and just laying low.

Horrific, but I’m sure you’ll pull through. I hope those night sweats have abated by the time you get this email.

> I don’t DARE push the pussy panic button because a 67 year old on an SSA check ends up in the roach motel – where you check in, but you don’t check out. Lots of lying down.

America is a death cult, and the poor its greatest victims. So yeah, stay away.

> I still have to drive a couple miles every other day for groceries, dizzy as a zombie.

Drive slow, drive safe please.

> The thing lasts anywhere from two to six weeks depending upon your resistance. Maybe I’m half way through it. Hope so.

Most people survive it quite well…unless they have some serious medical complication already. You do not.

> I only make it out to Staples free wifi a couple times a week.

That’s a drag.

> How do you feel about shots? My jury’s out.

I would definitely get the shots ASAP. Unfortunately, here in San Franshitsco they have a shortage, and I can NOT get an appointment anywhere. The lucky ones with vehicles can simply drive to another county. I wasn’t even ELIGIBLE for the vaccination until a week ago! Despite my age, which is now 70. But what good is being eligible, if you can’t make an appointment? Looks like I won’t even GET my first shot for months from now.

Keep taking as good a care of yourself as is humanly possible…my prayers are with you.

– Zeke


Re: Louisiana took ALL his stimulus money!
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Lisa Harwood
Date: April 1, 2021 6:05 PM

> Zeke: This video is so powerful; it sent chills up my back. . .I really believe your body of video work is going to be incredibly important some day.

Yes, it will be, but it must NOT be at the cost of two doggies’ lives, or that of a homeless person.

> And may even help in drawing attention to this tragic ‘Catch-22’ situation faced by impoverished fathers like Deek.

Definitely…I know EXACTLY what I am doing with my tales, and how they will impact the world.

> This is an intrusion of the State of Louisiana on an intended stimulus to the economy of San Francisco when it comes down to it.

Of course.

> So: start with calling your Supervisor. There may be a large number of homeless indigent fathers who have been similarly impacted.

I find that unlikely, just as I’ve found all my OTHER efforts through political and gov’t channels useless, including locally. Deek’s cooperation would be vital, and he would NEVER go along with it. But that’s not why I say “unlikely,” as it’s the system itself. Unless there were already an active support group to get the ball rolling, there is no point in wasting my time like this. I have even TRIED to get some major issues going by phone and email contacts, online forums, and so on. NOTHING went anywhere, in spite of my dedicated efforts.

> Call the local office of your Congressperson. Make the complaint. Ask them for assistance. They are in the best position to do that. Your own story of one poor person fortunate enough to have shelter trying to assist another who does not is compelling. And the shared pups also makes it a human interest tale.

Those are all nice ideas, but they will NOT mount to a hill of legumes. Believe me, I have tried that route MANY times. And that is PRECISELY why I am writing my Brindlekin Tales…a DIFFERENT route that I know in my heart will get the ball rolling in a MAJOR way. It WILL take off, and this year…I just don’t know the date of Day One.

> There must be a City Department or Non-profit who have the legal hutzpah you need. This is really a Class Action situation.

You can NOT pull off a class action lawsuit without a large number of people already on the bandwagon. I am not in a position, nor do I have the contacts needed, to achieve that goal.

> Deek had a day of feeling it was possible for him to live a “normal” life for awhile, one free if only temporarily of destitution.. . . . When he shows up again, as you know he will. Just let him blather for awhile—importantly: do not address his specific insults—and then use phrases like “Deek, I need your respect in order to help you”. . . “Deek, I can’t continue without your respect.”

Ha-ha, not gonna work…been there, done that. Soon as I suggested my contacting local gov’t officials, but I’d need his cooperation to speak for him, it all blew up in my face. You have NO idea how self-sabotaging he is!

> You have a remarkable mind, Zeke: you act on your intentions, and at least he realizes that about you. 

Thank you…and I am USING my remarkable mind to achieve the desired results through my BOOK, rather than those political channels that ALWAYS lead me to a dead end. I know this through MUCH experience over many decades.

> Offering him something to eat might help stem the stream of insults as you explain what you willing to try on his behalf next. Which you will not pursue in the absence of his respect. 

That’s NOT gonna work (offering him food), but thanks for your well-intentioned proposals. My book IS the answer, and nothing else. I think you need to realize that the creation of these tales is exactly BECAUSE the ideas you’ve suggested are ones I’ve already tried many times over, but got nowhere.

– Zeke

P.S.: The solution is therefore, to promote my tales and videos, because that IS the route I’m taking, after many years of not getting anywhere through gov’t channels. Yet I have NOT heard you say one word about sharing my works with others! Especially those you might know in gov’t, media or other venues of influence.

THE BOOK, THE BOOK, THE BOOK!

And the videos.

Since you are so MOVED by my tales, that’s an EXCELLENT sign that others will be, too. Right? So why try to get me to put my time and elbow grease into a strategy that is doomed for failure, instead of promoting my very MOVING stories and videos? You could easily tell friends/connections by email:

“Wow, this guy’s work is astounding…videos AND tales about very pressing matters, and are compellingly, breathlessly composed!”

Or do you not really believe I’m that good? To promote or not to promote: THAT is the question!


Subject: Little Miss Innocence Walks By
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 1, 2021 8:32 PM

Just a 29 second video. I step out of my hovel to encounter Dieter, and “Little Miss Innocence” Myrtle Haversak walks by. So tempting to strangle her; she has a petite skinny neck. But I’ll leave the Fates to sort things out, as I’m sure they have something especially ghastly in store for her and her punk son. And the building manager as well.


Re: Little Miss Innocence Walks By
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 1, 2021 9:28 PM

> Myrtle’s the skinny blonde wisp who darts by?

Of course. She’s the only person in the video besides Dieter. I can’t imagine what’s going on with those two, since things have been VERY quiet in their apartment lately. And I DON’T say hello to the building manager any more like I used to…I just walk right by him. Not that he’s ever said hello to me first, ever. Sick people.

I never phoned Deek back last night, nor today, nor has he shown up or called me at all. I’m totally disgusted with him. The dogs should not be with him…he’s a dangerous and scary fellow. This is The City of Ghouls. I need to get outta here, but not without the pups. I have no idea how to accomplish this.

Happy April Fool’s Day. There certainly are a lot of fools in San Franshitsco. And now Chuck, my friend from Philly, has come down with Covid-19…like we never saw this coming, eh?

– Zeke K-Holmes


Re: Little Miss Innocence Walks By
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 1, 2021 10:50 PM

> Christ. I agree. You gotta get out. And not without the pups.

Something will come through for me…I just don’t know what, or how. Or maybe Brindlekin Tales will be my legacy, containing clues as to who murdered me. Right up there on WordPress.

> Yeah, I saw that exchange. Scary as hell. Going to the hospital is like going to the morgue.

He’s an idiot. All his macho bragging how he refuses to wear a mask. I kept warning him to not be foolish, this is a serious pandemic. Now THIS happens, SO PREDICTABLE. How many others have come down with it, thanks to him, before he fell ill? His friendship is nothing more than a lingering memory. He’ll probably get dizzy and faint in his car while driving, and I’ll never know what happened.

I think today’s thoughts and scenarios were designed to send a shiver down my readers’ spines, wondering if I’m gonna go on a berserk murder spree. A trail of blood from Myrtle to Adisa to the building manager to Deek, and then to an Uber driver where I whisk the pooches away with me to some unknown destination. Maybe somewhere in Mendocino County, as the latest criminal refugee dodging the law by living out in the deep, dark woods. Maybe I’ll camp for awhile in a tent in your backyard. Erwyn’ll love the brindlekin!

Very pulpy plot. More likely a PARODY on pulpy plots. Let’s see what ensues. I am NOT inventing these tales, I’m LIVING them. This is what is so extraordinary, and is also wherein lies my liberation: a relic, a sliver of Saint Roch’s thigh bone where the hunting dog had licked and healed his bubonic wound. Discovered in the fountain spillage of my creative force. With Flaco & Lucky by my side, who led me there…my 2-headed Cerberus!

Jeez, my readers GOTTA go through all the chapters now, to understand ANYthing that’s going on at this point! I can’t believe I’ve written so many wonderful tales…though I haven’t really, except as one who pens events as they unfold. With my OWN flights of fancy scattershot across the pages. Like this email. Is it time to change your pseudonym again, or do you prefer to remain as Wattson? I rather like that!

– Zeke K-Holmes


Re: Little Miss Innocence Walks By
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 2, 2021 12:51 AM

> I like Wattson! Unless something better comes along!

You can never go wrong with a classic. You’re up late.


Subject: Here’s a video clip of your old neighbor, Dieter
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Charles Kapinski
Date: April 2, 2021 9:23 AM

I always have my “spyglasses” turned on once I exit my room, due to the horrid accusations against me by neighbors in 208 (mother and son) and the building manager. I call the bitch “Myrtle” in my tales. She and her punk son made a false allegation to the manager that one of the pups bit him and drew blood. That NEVER happened, as I am always with the dogs…and their dubious claim came IMMEDIATELY AFTER they received a copy of my complaint to Ablahblah Realty, that her son’s teenage friends were loitering in the hallway RIGHT OUTSIDE MY DOOR, being a disturbance with their loud pranks and “niggah” tough talk ALONG WITH refusing to wear a mask. It’s even in writing (their phony charge), in a printed letter the building manager mailed me, WITH HIS SIGNATURE. Nothing has come of it, of course, because they have NO proof, and the timing of their accusation is highly suspicious. This will be an EASY case in my favor for any attorney, once I can finally find one that actually responds to my email (a form on their page that you fill out then click “send”). But so far, no lawyer recommended to me by the SF Tenants Union has bothered to get in touch with me, and it’s been several months since I’ve started trying to get the ball rolling.

Furthermore, the ONLY reason they were loitering, is because Adisa’s mother, Myrtle, didn’t want them all to be in a small studio unit because of this highly contagious virus..so her answer was to risk exposure for EVERYONE ELSE in the building, by having them linger in the hallway WITHOUT WEARING MASKS! And, of course, I was more vulnerable to exposure, than ANYONE ELSE in the building!

These loiterers kept this up over several months, on and off, but averaged once a week. And was in ARRANGEMENT with the building manager. Whom I confronted several times about stopping this, but he just shrugged his shoulders: “They’re teenagers, what do you expect?” Right, as if it were perfectly fine to have strangers loitering in your hallway an hour or more, on a regular basis, and your own privacy is compromised, plus they expose everyone in the building to potentially catching the coronavirus…and I’M the most vulnerable, because they are almost RIGHT ON TOP OF ME!

Anyway, this was all covered in great detail in my Brindlekin Tales, particularly in THIS piece (chapter 4, book 2).

You can READ my letter to Ablahblah Realty at the top of that page. Perhaps you’ve already seen that chapter, but I have a hunch you haven’t…thus my explanation above. Who’s to say that the neighbor who recently died (in Maxie’s old room, isn’t that a hoot) did not contract the virus because of these loiterers? As well as one or more OTHER residents having come down with it, too.

Because of this horrific violation and harassment towards me, a longterm resident, I decided to purchase from Amazon, a pair of eyeglasses with a built-in camera. Which, happily, also gave me many excellent videos of the pups and outdoor scenes, particularly of their homeless “owner” who has no idea I’ve been video recording him, and uploading to Youtube.

So as it turned out recently, I stepped out and there was Dieter, slowly ascending the stairs with turtle-like speed. So I thought to share with you this 29-second recording, even though the more important point of this video is to have captured an image of “Myrtle” for future reference, if needed. I already have a recording of her stupid son hanging outside the building with two of his friends…all of them NOT wearing a mask! So here’s Dieter.

I will try to get a more interesting video featuring him, to send you.


Subject: I refuse anything BUT a happy ending!
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 2, 2021 10:12 AM

I have only two chapters to go (working on the next-to-last one now, which includes this email). This is based on my low-level OCD that wants Book 3 to contain 17 chapters, since Book 1 contains 19, and Book 2, 18. Yet it doesn’t look at all like a happy ending is forthcoming any time soon, good physician. If such be the case by the time I’ve completed the 16th chapter, that last chapter will simply contain one sentence:

“Waiting for that happy ending.”

Or perhaps I’ll add a SECOND sentence:

“Why not check out my Gay Bible website while YOU’RE waiting, too?”

IOW, it will be an open-ended conclusion, just as was my previous book, “Free Me From This Bond.” Though, once the fortuitous outcome DOES occur, I will replace that sentence with a full reckoning.

I could, of course, break my self-imposed chapter-limit rule, and continue on, possibly giving birth to yet a FOURTH book. Or continue my Brindlekin Tales outSIDE of the trilogy. We’ll just have to wait and see, as these stories depend entirely on what actually occurs in real life. And who knows?

Maybe a sudden turnaround will occur at the last moment, and chapter 17 will indeed be a happy ending withOUT delay!

No word from Deek, and I’m not gonna bother to phone him. Until, that is, when Sunday comes around, to remind him to pick up his weekly $60 allowance. I’m sure he’ll spit and fume and deny me camaraderie with the pooches. I heard him holler somewhere on Noe Street (in the direction of 7/11), “Flaco! Flaco!” late last night. Voices carry easily in the wee hours, and in the cold. I poked my head out the window a few times, to see if he were heading towards my hovel, but no, that did NOT happen.

Those wonderful, sweet little doggies, may God protect them!


Subject: More on St. Roch
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 2, 2021 10:56 AM

From Wikipedia:

“Saint Roch or Rocco (lived c. 1348 – 15/16 August 1376/79 (traditionally c. 1295 – 16 August 1327) is a Catholic saint, a confessor whose death is commemorated on 16 August and 9 September in Italy; he is especially invoked against the plague…He is a patron saint of dogs, invalids, of falsely accused people, bachelors, and several other things… he would have perished had not a dog belonging to a nobleman named Gothard Palastrelli supplied him with bread and licked his wounds, healing them.”

So, besides the dog issue, I HAVE been falsely accused, and I AM a bachelor. Also the patron St. of plagues (think COVID-19), he certainly is the one for me to pray to for intercession!

– Zeke K-Holmes


Re: More on St. Roch
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 2, 2021 12:13 PM

> Now, there’s a saint even I might pray to!

I know, right! It was never my intent to impose so much Catholic flow to my tales…yet that is where my muses took me. Some day we will understand better why this is so. For now, it is my conjecture that it is not so much an affirmation of Christianity, but an expression of Jungian archetypes most appropriate for a Christianized society. I certainly HOPE that any reader of these books will not hold any expectation of the maudlin trope that I will “discover Jesus” by the end of my tales.

I was awaiting your next missive, that I may add a further revelation to my previous email. So now, here it is:

Of course, after all I’ve been through since late October, and the incredible lessons and insights I’ve gained as a result: it makes PERFECT sense that a joyous outcome will occur right at the last moment, under the wire, a sudden twist in the final plot. But until then:

The box that Flaco loves to shelter in from time to time remains on the floor, and the two little harnesses still hang from the edge of my loft. They shall ALWAYS be a part of my hovel’s decor, so long as the pups remain asunder from my world. ‘Tis a horrible thought to imagine myself growing older with these dear items forever in place, till the day comes when I finally perish. But so it must be, if such a sad fate comes to pass. For I will never stop loving them.

– Zeke K-Holmes

P.S.: Did you see my latest Deek video yet? Less than 7 minutes. Very important to have documented…but a terrible heartbreak, so much so I can’t bring myself to watch it. I just uploaded it to Youtube and was done with it.


Re: More on St. Roch
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 2, 2021 2:37 PM

> Fuck, no.

Discover Jebus? Not on your life! Discover Artemis? I bet my whole Social Security payments and all my creative gifts on that!

> I know how you feel, and I’m not just mouthing platitudes. I really do know.

Much appreciated, Wattson. ‘Cause no one around here gives a flying fuck whether or not I exist…while a handful certainly WISH I were dead. They don’t know WHO they’re messing with, though. I shall still be here, long after THEY’RE dead and gone. It’s happened before, and it will happen again. If I can’t find any way to move the hell outta this evil burg, my own SPIRIT will repel the goons, and THEY’LL be catapulted away! And it has NOTHING to do with some silly plot to cease using underarm deodorant.

The dogs are fine, so is Deek…who is just playing his bodhisattva role to make me into a hero. But I HAVE to go through certain trials ANYway, in order to bring this about. For if I knew TOO WELL or TOO SOON, that little secret, then my mettle would have never been able to be tested! IOW:

I’m good.

> I did watch it. So, so sad to see the doggies looking back over their shoulders at you as he makes them run behind his garbage can.

Their sweet way of letting me know their love is always there for me, no matter what. INCREDIBLY caring creatures! But they also realize they have a duty to be there for Deek, in spite of a less-than-ideal situation. So: BRAVE, too!

– Zeke


Re: Did you see my latest Deek video yet?
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: April 2, 2021 7:49 PM

> I hated hearing him insult you.

He does that a lot, like every third visit. Unless he makes a big change in his attitude, it’s gonna be even worse, now that he thinks I fucked him over by getting him to apply for the stimulus after promising the gov’t won’t garnish it this time around. It was Lisa Harwood who swore to me up and down, that wouldn’t happen any more, so I took her word for it. Though I believe I DID check it out myself, and found a site that said, no, they won’t garnish it this time around.

Now, she’s advising me to contact politicians and the media, get the word out, blah blah blah. It’s all in my last two chapters, and the one I’m working on now. Anything BUT say: “Great, important writing, I’ll share it with others!” Which is what I REALLY need done…and I explained to her going though gov’t channels has NEVER worked for me, only backfired. And is the very REASON I’m creating these Brindlekin Tales…as they WILL have the desired impact, with MUCH quicker results. What is it with some people who say they love my writing, but never bother to let others know? It’s not like I’m composing some silly, romantic fluff novel, or a Reader’s-Digest-style doggy tale. This is POTENT stuff I’m broadcasting! I’ve bcc’d to you, two or three of my replies to Lisa, but I know you’re too busy to get around to EVERYthing I send you.

But whatever. I am totally CONFIDENT of my forthcoming success, so it’s more like I’m offering people like Ms. Harwood a wonderful opportunity to be a PART of nurturing this success. Anyway, back to Deek:

Besides him calling me a pervert for letting Flaco lick me on the face, he also said they stink, and weren’t like that when he dropped them off. Not true, I told him they DID smell a bit when you brought them here, and it’s your body odor from sleeping with them. Of course he denied that, accused me of lying. You saw how he feigned innocence, as if all he said was he didn’t want them licking me…unlike a few nights back when he cussed me out over that.

His hostility boils down to just one thing: jealousy over how much the pups love me. He even gets angry at me now and then, for not having him step inside any more…says everyone else has friends over, he sees them come and go from my building all the time. He doesn’t give a flying fuck if I catch the virus, doesn’t even realize the RISK I already take, by caring for the doggies! When the pandemic restrictions first took off, I told Deek no more visits, no more pups coming over, sorry. I was even afraid to touch them! But love won out: I just didn’t have the HEART to “ex” Flaco & Lucky out of my life for god knows HOW long this plague would last. It would be CRUEL to Deek, as well…who didn’t even believe the novel coronavirus was actually a thing. He now wears a mask slung below his chin, which is so he can enter stores. But he STILL refuses to place it over his nose and mouth otherwise, not even in my presence. As he departed that night, he said OLD people like me come down with it, not younger people. As if it’s perfectly alright for him to spread the virus wherever he pleases. Talk about pressing my buttons!

I can NOT reason with him in any way…he’ll shout me down unless I REALLY holler back to silence him. Which, sadly, then upsets the pooches: they lower their heads in a forlorn  manner. I’m sure he’ll claim I OWE him a full $1,400 for putting him through that.

Did you SEE that huge speaker he’s lugging around on a dolly? Ridiculous. He could’ve spent HALF as much for a decent speaker, so he could put some of that wasted money into the pups.

Okay, I’m done venting. Now for a refresher on my Bohisattva Premise:

That was March 31st, the last day of the month when I got whammied with Deek’s anger over child support’s taking his stimulus payment. The WORST thing that could’ve happened, DID happen. And he’ll milk it for all it’s worth, possibly, haranguing me with his every breath…trying to guilt-trip me as much as possible, to coughing up even MORE moolah. Which will NOT work. It never HAS worked.

Though as I said, signs point to a sudden alteration in my favor, some time in April…hopefully starting on day 1. Based on my prescient epiphany that it will occur before Flaco’s next estrus cycle. And that (remember) Deek is simply an actor, playing an antagonist’s role, that I answer his many horrific challenges to become the hero in these tales. Which are all SCRIPTED.

And since the last day of March, I haven’t been in contact with Deek…nor do I think I need bother. He is free to ring me up, whenever. I will therefore go by the assumption that the BS is over, and April will be that magic month, where Deek and all OTHER bodhisattva players will drop their masks of evil to show me their true aspects as angels. (This includes, then, my building manager and Myrtle and son, among others of less recent vintage.) TRUSTING that the pooches will be perfectly fine no matter what. WORRY is, after all, one of the demons I should NEVER allow to ruin my day. They’re expert at projecting all sorts of monstrous scenarios into one’s mind! Assuming I’m correct in my premise:

April will go down in history as “The Month of Miracles.”

– Zeke

P.S.: Also based on my premise, I believe I may very well be the MOST IMPORTANT PERSON ON THIS PLANET at this time. Everything, everyone else, is trivial by comparison. Do I have a fat ego, or what?


The Next Next Next Next Next Next Next Chapter

March 31, 2021

[BRINDLEKIN TALES – Book 3: Chapter 15]

Re: Deek was a Monster Tonight
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: March 30, 2021 4:06 PM

> Oh, I would, for sure, but the thoughts in the privacy of my head would be far less generous.

Oh, the THOUGHTS…that’s a hearse of a different paint job! Believe me, Wattson, I’ve had MANY wicked visions as to how I can eliminate him, and abscond with the pups. Like getting him OD’d on a bad batch of meth. But this is all too possible ANYway, without my intervention. There is NO way out of this nightmare, but through it. Furthermore: what separates the civilized from the uncivilized is whether or not we choose to carry out our wicked thoughts. The civilized do NOT, as is my own stance, and yours of course.

– Zeke K-Holmes


Re: You are now in my book, as Anna-Lee Horsington
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Anna-Lee Horsington
Date: March 30, 2021 5:18 PM

> If people sign up for government services, they can receive therapy without charge. Many therapists share the insights, wisdom, and path of Jung with their clients, whether poor or affluent.

I don’t find that to be the case at all. Poor patients on Medicaid are forced to take psychotropic drugs right off the bat and receive NO talk therapy, let alone Jungian. And they’re lucky if they get to see a doctor more than once a month. Also: many therapists do NOT share such insights…in fact, they are at the lower end of the psychiatry spectrum. Usually newly graduated and using Medicaid as a stepping stone for finally getting into private practice. There is LITTLE compassion in their work.

I believe the services you’re talking about may be available to a sliver of the population…those who are not dirt poor, but low income. You can’t just go into a Medicaid office or call them and say, “I’m looking for a Jungian therapist.” Not to mention that NOTHING is available in the way of therapy for the homeless, yet those are the MOST in need of compassionate care. But without a roof over their heads first, what’s the point?

> Wonderful that you use Jung’s wisdom to help the homeless, Zeke. Thank you!

I can easily see how archetypal notions shape their struggles, their reality. That gives me a handle in pointing them in a better direction. Everything’s a demon or a threat to them, so I do my best to show them that is NOT what’s going on, but an eruption of unbalanced and chaotic inner forces…which CAN be gotten under some level of effective control. Well, “control” is not a good word for this…more like learning to redirect the flow. Of course I don’t discuss the Jungian aspect of all this, but speak in their own terms, which is usually with Christian symbology. It’s not like I’m sitting them down for a therapy session…I am directly dealing with the archetypes that come through, as an ally, rather than a warrior to vanquish them.

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Re: You are now in my book, as Anna-Lee Horsington
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Anna-Lee Horsington
Date: March 30, 2021 8:52 PM

> There are many mysteries in this here universe. I am a Medicaid provider for 23 years and know other Medicaid providers similar to me. Jung is one of my mentors, so his wisdom enters into my therapeutic relationships.

I’d say both your situation and yourself are exceptional.

> Sometimes it works better to seek a Medicaid health care provider in private practice and not in clinics.

I’ve had several private therapists over the years…they were all okay, but that’s all she wrote. The first one turned me on to Carl Jung, and I took it from there. Overall, the medical provisions for the poor are shoddy at best. The therapists I saw were not much good for anything, but to keep me on SSI, so I wouldn’t wind up homeless. IOW, their “therapy” was pretty much zilch. This was back in the day when we had a much more encompassing safety net, before they even took away dental care for almost 15 years, so now most of my teeth have rotted and fallen out.

I do not believe that therapy will do much for humanity at large. It will NOT trigger a sea change of perception for “Homo sapiens sapiens.” However, many of the ideas taught by Jung CAN create such a remarkable impact, if applied in a most clever, artistic way. He said humanity needs a NEW mythology to breathe life into our aspirations and imagination, in this very different, modern world. When I first heard of that, through Joseph Campbell, it struck me that I am one who IS creating new mythologies, through my tales, especially those dedicated to LGBT equality. I have since progressed from there, and expanded my body of myths to where we now have my trilogy, Brindlekin Tales, almost complete and ready to release to the world.

> It is wonderful how you work with the homeless, Zeke. In NM, we did provide counseling to the homeless in shelters. Continuity of care is helpful; roofs do indeed help in that regard.

The BEST and most important aspect of my “Jungian” approach was to give them back their dignity in one way or another, by respecting where they’re at immediately, showing an interest in their life and person, and giving them newfound hope. It’s not like I have helped dozens and dozens in my years of activism. Very few were receptive to anything, but the rare one that came along, I did MUCH to get them on a better path. Deek is, of course, the person I am focusing all my attention on nowadays, and have for over nine years. Otherwise, my major application of Carl Jung’s profound insights is through my writing.

> Christian symbology is full of powerful metaphors and archetypes.

We are all like Christ, as being conscious IS the crucifixion. A POWERFUL archetype indeed…one of the hero sacrificing his life for the betterment of humanity. So, there ARE ways of using Christian ideas and symbols without being narrow minded or fanatic about it. In the way Carl Jung has used them…who is my OWN personal hero I look up to, ever since I learned of him. It is very important to focus on this religion, because our society is mostly cut from that cloth. It would be far more difficult to get my ideas across if, say, I used Hinduism or Celtic lore (for examples). Though I do that, as well…since I make sure to cover OTHER cultural archetypes in my growing body of work. Especially Greek and Celtic mythology, and a liberal dose of Native American worldviews.

– Zeke


Subject: One thing that bothers me about Jung’s perplexity over a certain patient
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Anna-Lee Horsington
Date: March 31, 2021 7:53 AM

Please note that I can NOT track down the particular web page that described this, though I’ve tried many times over the years.

Carl Jung remarked about a patient to whom so many awful things happened, through no fault of his own. And he felt helpless to do anything about it, as his therapist. What bothers me is that Dr. Jung was well versed with things shamanic. He should therefore have realized that some people are “chosen” to go through especially difficult trials for many years, maybe even for their entire lives. Why is this?

They have a special destiny as shamans, who DO experience many awful things that most people do not. In fact, Jung even delved deeply into a historical/Biblical figure who ALSO suffered terribly, and for a prolonged period of time: Job (as in the Book of Job)…and successfully came up with a sound conclusion, albeit shocking to some: that God Himself was imperfect because also learning and growing. Seeing as Job was a BETTER man than God Himself!

Anyway, obviously I have that shamanic nature, too…and realizing, finally, that all my trials are for an important reason, definitely helped me deal with them. Carl Jung’s description of the hero’s journey was my main inspiration, in fact! For it showed me that these trials, and struggling to overcome each crisis or challenge, eventually culminates in many rewards for my long suffering. Such rewards are not trivial either, they are spiritual gifts, pearls of great price. I have always valued such things over the material and temporary. And so damn glad I did!

At any rate, my point is that, with the wisdom of many cultures under his belt, including the shaman’s nature, Job and the Hero’s Journey, it seems to me that Jung had more than enough skill to effectively guide that client through those dark woods.

– Zeke


Subject: Medi-Cal / Medicaid
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Anna-Lee Horsington
Date: March 31, 2021 10:14 AM

> I have heard the horror stories about Medi-Cal, Zeke. The last 23 yrs I practiced in NM where horror stories existed and many went to bat for people in need.

I don’t know what you mean by “many,” for, in the grander scheme of things, that “many” is reduced to a scant handful. Kudos, though, to the true health advocates among them, including yourself!

> Change definitely takes time.

But the change for the worst, through many egregious cutbacks via both the GOP and the Democrats, came rather swiftly! So I am not inclined to excuse this with a trope.

> The Health Security for All Act in NM has been the object of activism in NM for 25 years. I myself proposed and worked with a NM legislator to get through bills that protected both patient and health care professional. Though there were some years of gross inequities in providing services to those in need, no-cost Medicaid for the poor and all children is possible in NM.

Medicaid was “no cost” all along, until Bill Clinton forced SEVERE cutbacks on health care for the poor…as part of his racist platform that also included expansion of the War on Drugs, and promulgating the “Welfare queen” stereotype. And THAT was when Share of Cost became a thing: 1989. Only a handful of states did NOT impose such an astronomical fee for the “privilege” of receiving Medicaid services. However, with that sane decision, came the exclusion of dental care. Which is HORRIFIC…and we gotta thank the dentists lobbying for that remarkable “achievement.” Which goes all the way back to Lyndon B. Johnson and the founding of Medicare, where lobbyists fought “tooth and nail” (pun intended) to exclude dental services in that program.

Oh, look at this: The Health Security for All Act was originally PROPOSED by Clinton, himself…the very president who UNDERMINED health care for the poor!

https://www.encyclopedia.com/social-sciences/applied-and-social-sciences-magazines/health-security-all-americans

> I am not talking about the Medicaid expansion that was born through Obamacare. I still see via telehealth NM Medicaid clients. Dental care is one area where Medicaid falls short for the poor in NM, although some dental services are covered.

Thank you for your honest take on the issue…GREATLY appreciated! I presume “NM” is the state of New Mexico? I value your input on matters Medicaid, because you have the inside perspective, and may be able to answer some questions I’ve had for YEARS now, which answers were never found via the web, including Medicaid’s own site. There seems to be a strong element of secrecy and subterfuge in all this. For example:

In researching Medi-Cal’s history and origin of SOC (share of cost), I discovered their own web site admitted that the SOC is way too high, thus making their services unreachable to most recipients. With that admission straight from the horse’s mouth, I posted my first blog entry about Medicaid’s ripping off the poor with these criminal fees. Yet, less than three months later they removed that bluntly honest appraisal of their OWN services, and replaced it with a page of confusing gobbledygook that made it impossible to figure out the REAL cost for their “supplementary” health care! So I had to scour the web to find SOME page that remained honest. And the only one I discovered was a page for dentist price quotes:

https://www.shareofcost.com/state-assistance/share-of-cost-california.html

–quote:

Share of cost is calculated on a monthly basis by deducting a set amount called a “maintenance need level” from the net income. That is, Share of cost = Net Income – Maintenance Need. A Medi-Cal beneficiary’s share of cost is the difference between her income after allowable deductions and the Maintenance Need Level (MNL), which is a set amount allocated for her living expenses.

The MNL has not changed since 1989 and is $600 for an individual. Thus, anything an individual earns over $600 a month becomes that individual’s share of cost. For example, if an individual earns $1,100 a month, that person must incur $500 in medical costs each month before receiving any coverage from the Medi-Cal program. For consumers with a high share of cost, Medi-Cal provides little more than catastrophic coverage and does not enable them to access health care services.

–end

As for my own dental “care:” even in the best of times (the 1970s and 80s, that is: “pre-SOC”) the services were inferior to those patients who could afford good insurance, or pay entirely out of pocket. Then the cutbacks came, first no more crowns on the back teeth, or root canal work, then no crowns at all, and so on. Which finally led to NO dental care for men, then for ALL adults…only children could benefit. I remember when the “no-male-adults” decision came into effect under Pres. Clinton. I thought of all those unemployed African-American men who were nonetheless expected to get out there and find a job, while their teeth were rotting and falling out! NOT a great selling point for any potential employer, I might note.

My own teeth began to crack and fall apart, over that 30-year period! But I was NOT in a situation where I had to be employed, thank god. When Obama’s “Affordable” Health Care Act was established, Medi-Cal announced their resumption of dental services. Yippee, I thought, I can finally get all my teeth fixed! Only to learn that, along with this “boon,” came an astronomical SOC, which NObody on Medi-Cal could afford! And this occurred in almost every OTHER state, as well. But now that Medi-Cal is, once more, free, I am eligible to receive dental services at no cost to yours truly. However, there is not only the issue of struggling to actually FIND a dentist who accepts Medi-Cal–and the likely LONG list of clients clamoring for their services that will cause ridiculous delays in such care–there is the serious question of:

Do I REALLY want to go through all the prolonged surgery and tooth restoration that will not only take a VERY long time, but probably cause me much suffering in the process? After all, this COULD have been entirely avoided, had California NOT eliminated dental care in the first place…and would’ve cost them FAR less. As well as cost ME far less potential agony in the restoration process! So I have decided to FOREGO seeing any dentist for the rest of my life. At any rate, Medi-Cal will still NOT cover partial plates, only a full plate. Which means that the best they’ll do is remove what irreparable teeth of mine remain, leaving perhaps two or three that are still viable. Which would eliminate MOST of what remains of my ability to chew and crush what food I can still manage with a compromised mouth. So I wonder:

How many aging people really need FULL dentures, when MOST of them will retain at least one or two or three teeth till the day they perish?

In case you don’t know, it is a strict RULE of Medi-Cal dentistry to NEVER remove any tooth that can be “saved.” Thus it is against the law to pull the few teeth that remain, in order for the patient to get FULL plates.

> The HIV debacle is onerous. I am glad for your activism to correct that.

“Onerous” is too kind a word! More like “brutal,” in my estimation. Like so many OTHER aspects of America’s health care for the low income, the poor, and the homeless. My point overall, is that the vulgarity of denial of decent health care for the low income and poor is far more overarching than just lack of dental care and therapy. So long as profit rules the roost, things will not improve very much…rather, it will be a painfully drawn out slog to the finish line, which is so far out there, it’s not even on the horizon!

> I do not experience the system as all bad.

Nor do I, for at least SOME people are helped by it, just not most. Even band-aid measures are better than NO health care at all…but isn’t that a kind of “third-world” way of thinking? For that reason, our health care system is nonetheless VERY bad (a.k.a. “brutal”), and therefore important to document as much as possible, before this dark side of gov’t gets swept under the rug so thoroughly, it can never be recovered for posterity’s sake. And, the egregious lack of medical care STILL rages on! It looks to me like you are one of the rare, fortunate people who has worked within a small group of Medicaid employees that live up to many benevolent ideals, and even get to practice them. That, however, is far from typical.

> Like most of life, whether systems, nature, individuals, inclusion and justice must continuously be sought at the same time as balancing our courage with joy and laughter.

True enough, but let’s not use that as an excuse to turn our faces away from injustice of the most prolonged and horrific kind. For which millions of people have suffered (and still do) prolonged, needless misery, and often an early grave, due to medical neglect and denial. I would say that America is more “medieval” than “modern” because of this.

I HOPE that was not your way of saying you’d rather not discuss this aspect, because I have been struggling a VERY long time to get some questions answered. And, since you shall remain anonymous, there is NO danger of our Medicaid conversation mucking up your world.

> I won’t be on email much today and wish you a peaceful day.

That is fine, no rush. Please don’t EVER feel pressured to reply ASAP, take all the time in the world you want. But I DO have some questions.

– Zeke


Re: [MCN-Announce]- IS YOUR PHONE SCREWY?
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Announce MCN, Discussion MCN
Date: March 31, 2021 11:02 AM

On Mon, 29 Mar 2021 14:36:49 -0700 “Nellie Bean” posted:

> For about a week now, my Land Line phone is totally weird! When it rings, I may be sitting right next to it, & as soon as the first ring happens, I begin hearing a man’s voice reciting numbers.

Our Reptilian Overlords from Sirius Star Cluster Sector 17, are about to announce their conquest of this world…our entire solar system, in fact! This is a good thing, BTW. For they are both entirely benevolent and 100% homosexual (thus no worries about overbreeding causing our OWN species to go extinct…we’re doing a fine job of that ourselves). Their announcement may come as soon as tomorrow, April 1st. But if not then, it will definitely be SOME day next month.

Their project is to right all wrongs on this planet posthaste, including ecological disasters and bad puns. Indeed, they are our creators, who put our genetically altered seed in the wombs of female apes over a million years ago…and have been guiding and watching over us ever since. Though surreptitiously of course, and often in the guise of visions and mythologies that include gods, goddesses, monsters and super-heroes, characters and creatures out of fairy tales, ghosts, ghouls, goblins, witches and magical dogs (for examples).

What this telephone anomaly is all about, is simple: they are testing communication channels across the globe by randomly selecting this or that media tool, in order to make sure all channels are clear and working. Once their Supreme Lizard gets the green light on this, she will make her presence known across all analog and digital modes…including the old-school, land line telephone, of course. They have decided that tomorrow would be the perfect day for this, as we humans call it “April Fool’s Day,” and these Mesosaurian Magistrates DO have a sense of humor! After all, they created US, didn’t they…the biggest fools on the planet!

But Easter is their second-best choice, ’cause it’s all about EGGS.


Subject: Some quick notes…
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Anna-Lee Horsington
Date: March 31, 2021 12:03 PM

…for later email reflection, if you so wish.

Regarding my remark about Carl Jung’s unresolved concern for a particular client: perhaps that was his way of reaching to me from the past to the future, to set up a puzzle that only I, myself, would discover and wonder about. IOW: his way of saying “Hi!” to me through that tunnel of time.

I recognize the shamanic nature of the homeless…at least SOME of them, though I do not balk at the possibility that it may be ALL of them. Which again, was born of Jung’s influence upon my decades of street activism.

Interesting thing about the decaying condition of my teeth: I rarely feel any pain, nor do I suffer infection. So, no decay, just a wearing down and breaking off now and then. This, I guess, is one of the protections granted me by the Fates: that I become further humbled thanks to a frighteningly horrid smile, yet NOT suffer any concomitant agony FROM their bad condition. Ironically, having to wear a mask due to this pandemic, my mouth is now COVERED UP from anyone’s sight, so I have a more level ground upon which to interact! IOW: one less stigma to deal with. My bandanna ALSO conceals my old-man wattle: another plus ’cause it makes me look 20 years younger. :D

Looking at myself objectively: no doubt I am an avatar with an astounding destiny. Though I would NEVER oppose anyone’s accusation that I am NOT that, but merely a deluded individual. How can I expect anyone to conclude otherwise, as they’d have to delve fairly deep into my literature to even take seriously, my claim? So I don’t obsess over this, but just let my spirit continue to blossom, nourished as it is upon the fertile soil of prescience. For me, this is all quite natural at this point…I am already there, I AM the new “me.” Or as Jung would put it: thoroughly “individuated.” And, best of all, April begins tomorrow! How syncrhonistically brilliant that this year April Fool’s Day and the celebration of the Last Supper (Holy Thursday) are in conjunction!

Not that I believe I am not only the next avatar, but Jesus Christ Himself…that would be absurd! As a student of world religions and cultural anthropology, I am aware of the deeper ties with worldviews far older than Christianity. A religion which, like many other religions, lifted the symbols, archetypes and traditions from earlier peoples. Thus, the parallels with Christ that may appear in my own life, did not actually originate with Christianity, but link to much older sources such as those from ancient Greek myths, Hinduism, Native American beliefs, Celtic lore, and so forth. Again, Carl Jung assisted me in figuring this all out.

As for Stanislav Grof: there are videos of him or by him on Youtube, which I WILL get around to watching, very soon. Such as this one:

– Zeke

P.S: I just finished watching the video, and found it to be catering to the upper middle class, with nothing offered to address the misery of the impoverished and suffering masses. Just like what Jungian therapy has been relegated to, but for the sole efforts of yours truly. Furthermore, he’s said nothing different from previous well-heeled soothsayers for the rich. Interesting, entertaining material, but not particularly liberating, IMO.


Re: [MCN-Announce]- Waiting for Scary Vagrant to Move On [my latest youtube video – 10.5 mins.]
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Lisa Harwood
Date: March 31, 2021 6:43 PM

> Really nice episode: loved the touch of neuvo-Jane Addams (your erudite commentary on the intricacies of urban planning on the micro-level outside your own front gate). Neat. . . would have been a touch more perfect with the addition of a bit of commentary about WHY Deek was having a good day before you closed.

It’s in the matching chapter. But I can add it to the description box…though that might just bring confusion to a rather simple video. I don’t want to get too complicated with video bells and whistles.

> I really enjoyed the dynamic in the dialogue you engaged in with My Dear Watson/Anna-Lee Horsington in ‘Next, Next, Next, Next, Next, Next’. Very “My Dinner With Andre.”

Thanks! An important email is coming up very shortly. Stay tuned.

– Zeke


Subject: Louisiana took ALL his stimulus money!
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Lisa Harwood
Date: March 31, 2021 6:54 PM

Here is the main letter (3 parts):

Click here for a larger view.
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This is the cover letter:

Click here for a larger view.

And this is a letter informing him that he has yet to activate his Economic Impact Payment Card (EIP):

Click here for a larger view.

He says he never received that card, which was supposed to be sent to the Holy Redeemer Church on Diamond Street. So this is REALLY out of hand now. And, Deek is not the kind of person who EVER wants to deal with paperwork of any kind.

Finally, this is a 6-1/2 minute video of him coming by a short while ago, with the papers, and his acting like a dick to the point where I had to tell him to go away, just give me the papers so I can study them without having to put up with his BS:

He’s calling me a pervert for letting the pooches lick my face! He’s been screwing with my head over this on and off…he ALWAYS comes up with a fake excuse to hate me, and keep the dogs away. He seems to be SCATHINGLY jealous that they like me so much. You’d think he’d be HAPPY to have a friend with a roof over his head, where the dogs love their visits, and I take GREAT care of them. But, no, his bipolarity is self destructive and once more, I’m QUITE worried about Flaco & Lucky’s well-being.

Thanks for your attention on this matter, Lisa! But as you can see, this supposed gov’t “promise” to not garnish the stimulus check over child support is a RUSE. Which backstabbing by gov’t only serves to make my relationship with Deek even MORE difficult than it already is.

– Zeke


Re: Louisiana took ALL his stimulus money!
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: My Dear Wattson
Date: March 31, 2021 7:08 PM

> Oh, crap, what a fucking mess.

Doesn’t that figure though? Like right outta the blue, Deek moving ahead per my suggestion, going to the church to get things arranged, getting ID, then POW! he’s fucked! He even said he’s sorry he listened to me. Well, Wattson, I’m sorry the gov’t even came UP with these stimulus checks because they’ve been nothing but a CURSE in my life.

Yet MORE monstrosity dumped on my shoulders, with two sweet doggies in the middle of all this? This is a VERY cruel situation, and Deek’s sadistic streak is eating it all up.

Did you see that video…he wouldn’t even let Flaco sit beside me, yet expected me to help him with this stimulus debacle? Anyway, I kinda figured the last day in March, something fucked up would happen to me again. The Bodhisattvas gotta twist that knife in my back for one last dig before April is upon us. Maybe something ELSE shitty will happen, too. After all, five and a quarter hours to go! Wish I could hide out in a bunker, but I know full well that won’t stop them from shitting on me again no matter where I am, if they so deem my initiation is not QUITE yet over!

And I STILL gotta call Deek back to tell him it doesn’t look good. So THERE’S the next shitty thing I’ve gotta go through. I’m sure it won’t go well at all. MAYBE, just MAYBE I won’t bother to call him back.

He DID say he got his $600 some time in the past, but I have no idea what he’s talking about. “I” gave him $600, not the gov’t! You never know with Deek…he MAY have gotten that EIP card and just threw it away. He LIES about so much, there is no telling with him. He just LOVES to create absurd drama all the time, and this latest scenario provides him with the GOLDEN OPPORTUNITY to do just that. And guess who’s the brunt of his monstrous nonsense? Me, of course…but, sadly, also the pups in some rather frightening ways.

Now, I gotta see if I can report the EIP missing, and have them send a new one. I’d have to register it first, then see what happens. ALL FOR NAUGHT, probably! As I’ve said before, more than once:

Money doesn’t do anything for him, as he blows it on ridiculous stuff, then loses it (so he says, more likely he SELLS it for meth). Yet, because it’s HIS money that they’ve taken from him, the whole WORLD’S gonna end, and I’ll never see him or the pups again. Oh, then there’s this:

When he called me from the church, about child support taking his stimulus, he moaned how he’s a good guy, always tries to do his best, why is this happening to him. GIMME A BREAK, HE CAN BE A REALLY NASTY PERSON AT TIMES! I have LITTLE empathy for him…it’s all about the dogs, their well-being, AFAIC. Yet what can I do? NOTHING. Except pray.

– Zeke K-Holmes


Subject: This is crazy (re. latest stimulus check is LESS protected from garnishment than the 2nd)
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Lisa Harwood
Date: March 31, 2021 6:43 PM

I swear I found a web site that assured us that this latest stimulus amount would NOT be garnished for child support! I wanted to check out your claim that it wouldn’t. For I’d NEVER have encouraged Deek to go for it, if I did NOT find real evidence. Yet now I found THIS web page:

Your third stimulus check can be seized. Here’s what to know.

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/technology/nobody-can-take-your-stimulus-check-away-from-you-right-not-quite-here-are-the-rules/ar-BB1az0jG

–quote:

Unlike the second stimulus check, the new stimulus bill doesn’t have the same protections against your $1,400 check being seized by debt collectors.

–end

I don’t understand this “less protected” thing because they also garnished his second stimulus check as well!

Now, the damage is done and the doggies’ life is on the line more than ever. Hopefully, I am spot on about this being just another bodhisattva ruse to get me to figure out how to rise above the negative energy coming from not just ONE, but TWO sources: Deek AND the government. Well, I’ll just hunker down, lick my wounds, and trust that this BS will finally be over, once April arrives. Which is less than four hours from now. I don’t think I’ll even call Deek back to give him a report of my finding, which is: YOU’RE BONED! Seeing as he’ll just come down on me, and he HAS been very insulting lately, to the point where even the pups are sad, and he won’t let me hug or pet them because I’m a “pervert.” If I could get away with it, I’d abscond with the pups and never see him again. Alas, that is not at all possible.

– Zeke

P.S: I’m gonna add a note to that “vagrant” video description, say something like:

If you want to know why Deek’s having a good day, visit this link. Though don’t be disappointed, because around evening time when he returned, he was a MONSTER (just search for “monster” if you wanna get right to it).


It’s All Going to the Dogs (the money, that is)!

January 3, 2021

[BRINDLEKIN TALES – Book 1: Chapter 16]

Re: [MCN-Announce]- Doggie GoFundMe account is up and running…and, it’s going to the dogs!
From: Zeke Krahlin MCN
To: Announce MCN
Date: 2020-12-19 10:18 PM

On Fri, 18 Dec 2020 20:41:01 -0800 Roseanne Kaplan posted:

I just looked at your Go FUnd Me and notice that the dogs are both short -hairs. I wonder if they have winter coats to wear? This is an awful time of year for a short hair dog.

Not just the short hair, but they have little bodies. Deek, my homeless friend who owns the pooches, brings them over to stay with me on particularly cold and rainy spells. I’ve also received four lovely doggie coats that donors have kindly sent me, and they fit quite well. However, they do not protect their underbellies which are susceptible to the cold, since they have no fur on that part. (They’re still better than nothing, of course…and are great for the cool, not cold, weather.) So I’m looking into doggie sweaters, to see if that will be a better option. There’s already one hooded sweater on my wish list, as a top priority request.)

But I also give Deek a doggie blanket to help with this. They’re actually kids sleeping bags that are less expensive (around $20 each) and warmer than doggie blankets…I have received two so far, from donors, though I will need a regular supply, since they sometimes get stolen from his cart when he’s not looking or maybe just stepped into a shop to pick up some food…or when he’s sound asleep with the doggies on warmer nights when they don’t need the blanket, so it’s stashed in the cart, thus open to theft. He’s a very sound sleeper, and will not awaken even if the doggies bark. Based on the last year or so, he goes through three or four blankets a month. One of the reasons I can’t afford to pay for all the doggies’ needs on my own. Plus:

Blankets handed out to the homeless these days are those almost-paper-thin, aluminum “space blankets,” which are not suitable for pets. What scant services are out there for homeless pets are very hard to track down, and are by appointment only, which is very difficult for street people to arrange, and remember to show up. There is one charity that walks around and hands out pet food and other things for the dogs, including blankets. But they don’t always have blankets, and are very elusive about where and when to find them. I’ve contacted them via their FB page, and they replied like this:

“You can find us in SOMA and the Bayview this Saturday.”

They don’t say around what time, nor on which street or intersection. What’s up with that? Those are BIG districts. They expect the houseless to have smartphones to reach them! Most of them, of course, do not. Infuriating…which I’ve just discussed on a blog entry I posted just posted yesterday:

https://zekeblog.wordpress.com/2020/12/18/reflections-on-a-black-puddle/

Also, do they have raincoats?

A donor ordered two raincoats about a week ago, but they have yet to arrive, so…no. Deek keeps them dry, though, with a tarp covered cart, wagon or stroller. And/or parks beneath an overhang of some kind. If he cannot bring them to my place instead. It recently occurred to me that one could possible make an emergency doggie raincoat with a kitchen size, plastic garbage bag. The pups are with me now, so I’ll see how that turns out. If only there were special scotch tape that sticks to dogs!

How do we get to your Amazon Doggy Wish List???? I assume I can pay for a specific thing there and they ship it to you to give to the doggies.

Your assumption is correct; see sig below (which I’ve just updated to match my current mission). Thanks SO much for your kind concern, Roseanne! <3 <3 <3


Amazon Doggie Wish List & GoFundMe “Help Me Help 2 Homeless Doggies” links:
https://zekeblog.wordpress.com/2020/12/16/doggy-wish-list/


Re: [MCN-Discussion]- My GoFundMe account is up and running…and it’s going to the dogs!
From: Zeke Krahlin MCN
To: Discussion MCN
Date: 2020-12-21 20:31

On Sun, 20 Dec 2020 12:02:33 -0800 Fred BOOGALOO McMillon squoinked:

We’ll fit you with a striped jacket with a pink triangle on it and you can work along side your fellow mentally ill, tax leaching f*ggot.

Funny you say that, because I recently employed a tailor to create just that costume in duplicate, for my upcoming stand-up routine at several local open mic venues.

About time society got a return on you two tax leaching waste of resources.

But I’m only one person. I guess you mean my doppelganger whom I instructed to travel north, and knock on your door. That’s the one with the carved-out crescent moon on it, right?


My Amazon Doggie Wish List & GoFundMe Project:
https://zekeblog.wordpress.com/2020/12/16/doggy-wish-list/


Re: [MCN-Discussion]- My GoFundMe account is up and running…and it’s going to the dogs! From: Zeke Krahlin To: Discussion MCN Date: 2020-12-20 05:20

On Sat, 19 Dec 2020 10:51:09 -0800 Gerard BOOGALOO Kozlowski squoinked:

I guess we are to consider it an honor that he insults us and that we should PAY him to insult everyone here on the List.

It’s only fair. My ripostes are pretty damn choice these days…and SHOULD come with a price. Some of them will soon be in a book, along with several of your more recent posts…and Terry Sachs’s. It’ll be a great day for the world when that happens! Woo-hoo!


Re: [MCN-Discussion]- My GoFundMe account is up and running…and it’s going to the dogs! From: Zeke Krahlin MCN To: Discussion MCN Date: 2020-12-20 05:14

On Sat, 19 Dec 2020 07:42:43 -0800 Terry BOOGALOO Sachs squoinked:

What about the millions of children who go to be bed hungry each night? I remember the months and years of your gross insults. Go ahead, call me a Nazi, but

Oh look who’s chiming in here: little pipsqueak, bully wannabe, Terry the Sap…kissing Nazi ass because he’s desperate to get into the pants of notorious Hitler worshiper Spike Dewars. Hilarious!

I’m just an ordinary person who will never think of you except with a foul mind and voice.

Ordinary person, eh? As in “ordinary” good German, you mean. News flash, Mr. Sap: you can’t think ANYthing. That foul mind and voice you refer to are your own subconscious banshees, ready to tear you up from the inside out when you least expect it. Maybe they’ll do it next time you’re jacking off in the outhouse to a magazine of naked women with German shepherd heads and dressed only in petite SS military jackets. Woo-hoo!

My Amazon Doggie Wish List & GoFundMe Project:
https://zekeblog.wordpress.com/2020/12/16/doggy-wish-list/


Re: [MCN-Discussion]- My GoFundMe account is up and running…and it’s going to the dogs!
From: Zeke Krahlin MCN
To: Discussion MCN
Date: 2020-12-20 05:01

On Fri, 18 Dec 2020 20:06:31 -0800 Fred BOOGALOO McMillon squoinked:

You really have no pride or self respect at all do you?

Well that’s highly debatable indeed, Mr. Psychobitch!

Refuse to work and live off working peoples taxes because you are “dissenting”

I cannot help the way God made me. Nor can I help the way the world is set up to be so wicked…of which you are the quintessential textbook example.

Yes, dissenting against such miserable stress and abuse in the workplace, it gave me so many nervous breakdowns that I became an easy candidate for disability funding. I even witnessed a coworker get strangled to death with an HP Laserjet printer cord, while everyone else just stood around laughing. I was the only one who called 911, but the deed was finished by the time they showed up. So much for office romance! Between witnessing a homicide, and all the workers but yours truly guffawing their asses off, you bet I had a nervous breakdown…and years of psychotherapy that I could NEVER afford but for government handouts!

Then there was the time I worked as a short order cook for a vegan restaurant called “The Good Karma Cafe.” Which was anything BUT good karma. Rats had infested the basement storage section, and gnawed into all the sacks of organic buckwheat, soy beans, brown rice, millet, black sesame seeds, and garbanzo, kidney and mung beans. Pooping and urinating everywhere! Yet the manager (also the owner) told us all to shut up and go ahead with using the tainted seeds, grain and beans, or he’d kill us all. He was a former Green Beret and highly decorated Vietnam veteran, so we knew he wasn’t joking around. I lasted about a week before having the worst nervous breakdown ever…with the exception of that incident with the laser printer cord murder. Everybody else quit about two months later, with two employees eventually winding up in the loony bin, and the owner committing suicide.

The last straw for me ever working again in the conventional sense, was when I was a mail sorter for a large corporation whose offices were located on the 32nd floor of 101 California Street, back in 1993. Eight people were massacred, and one of them was my manager. You’ve probably read about it, like most everyone else. But just in case you haven’t:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/101_California_Street_shooting

What are you “dissenting” about ? That people called you bad names and hurt your feelings?

If only! Another time I suffered job-related trauma, was when this elderly battleaxe of a woman kidnapped me…and she didn’t even know me, nor did I have ANYthing to do with her life by any stretch of the imagination. I was employed at the time in a clothing warehouse chain store, as a packer. I’d fold up suits and other clothing into their appropriate boxes, and set them on a rolling conveyor belt, where they’d eventually pass through a large rubber flap and be deposited into a bin where delivery trucks were stationed. Next thing I know, this lady appears out of nowhere and kidnaps me at gunpoint. Where I am forced to enter her vehicle, and she drives away to God only knows where. (Well, HE knew, but I didn’t. At that time I did NOT have an inside connection.) There was a long, harrowing chase by the SF police and state troopers…all the way to the outskirts of Sacramento, where the bitch finally surrendered. Turns out her ex had just delivered a surprise package to her door, earlier that day: divorce papers. Why she chose ME for her hapless scapegoat, to this day I have no idea. I think she lived in a fancy high-rise nearby, ran about the streets in aimless directions, and into our store, ending up in the supply room where I was presently alone doing my jobbie schtick, and she simply took out her rage in a random manner, choosing THIS unfortunate soul.

Now we owe you a living ? And we owe these dogs a happy Christmas ?

No one owes me a “living,” as if anyone understands what you mean by that in the first place. Just what IS a “living,” pray tell? Hardly anyone I meet is actually “living”…they’re just slogging through each dreary, desperate day, hoping to keep their job; or if they already lost that, to keep a roof over their head; or if they’ve lost that, too, hoping to get their next shot or snort of crystal, coke or horse ASAP. Maybe even all three.

Now you beg strangers for money they worked for so these dogs can have a happy Christmas ?

How do you know they WORKED for their money? Could be an inheritance, a lottery boon, or they answered all the questions right on “Who Wants to be a Millionaire,” “Jeopardy,” or some other lucrative game show. Who knows, maybe they just robbed a bank because they were so moved by my homeless doggie cause! As for showing a dog a Merry Christmas, it was a metaphor for being kind to man’s best friend. Obviously, I’m not intending to set aside a bit of Christmas time to be good to or dog or two, instead of only humans. Though it’s not a bad idea…but I meant all year round, not just a few minutes on a particular day.

Why not use your “profits” to help these dogs instead of donating them to the Girl Scouts ?

What the heck are you talking about? That was a joke! I don’t see HOW you could conflate my joke about you defecating on all the cookies at a Girl Scout meeting, with donations! Perhaps in YOUR world it IS a donation, in the sense of putting your money where your mouth is.

Profits from WHAT ? The blow jobs you give in alleys in the Castro ?

Sorry, Mr. Psychobitch, but I’m NOT that type of guy…so don’t even THINK about touching me, or you’ll be blasted to kingdom come before you even know what hit you.

And when my mate in Maine

Your “mate,” huh? Where do you think that state is located: Oz?

shot his dog because it wouldn’t stop barking and no one wanted a dog that would never stop barking.
In most cases a dog with a non-stop barking problem is the result of a harsh owner who didn’t take the love and patience to train it properly. The owner probably drove the dog neurotic through constant abuse in one form or another…or, perhaps, through long-term neglect. But one can use a simple muzzle to thwart those barks, or even have a veterinarian perform surgery on the vocal cords. instead of killing it, for god’s sake. It’s obviously too late for that tortured dog, but there are plenty of websites about getting your dog to stop barking so much or inappropriately, such as:

5 Tips to Solve Your Dog’s Barking Problem
http://www.vetstreet.com/our-pet-experts/5-tips-to-solve-your-dogs-barking-problem

I said it was a shame to waste the meat.

No it wouldn’t be a shame, it would’ve been the noble thing to do to give it a proper burial.

So we strung it up in a tree and dressed it like a Deer.

A good friend of mine said recently: “Anyone who shows fear or pain to a dog should be sentenced to death.” I agree. Be that as it may, I know you are making this all up, ’cause you’re the biggest bullshit artist this side of the Rockies.

We did honor to the dog by eating it rather than waste its flesh.

That’s not “honor,” that’s the act of two, stupid, vulgar heehaws.

Now what about a half dozen posts screaming that you’re a victim of all the Nazis here that won’t give you money for dogs to have a happy Christmas.

Hyperbolic much? My project isn’t a Christmas goal, it’s just an idea I came up around the holiday season, by coincidence. As for the Nazis: yes, there are two or three here, and you’re one of them…that is, one of Mike Sewers’ sock puppets. And, as we all know by now, Mr. Sewers, is that YOU are a flaming Nazi. Three or four others join in, thus are Nazis themselves, by egging him on. And I certainly don’t “scream” about it, as that’s impossible to do with text-based communication. Maybe if we had AUDIO instead, you’d make a good point. But alas, that is not the circumstance we are in right now. You’re just an angry, old sop who feels cheated that he wasn’t born as Adolf Hitler. Can’t say as I feel your pain, “mate.” Woo-hoo!

My Amazon Doggie Wish List & GoFundMe Project:
https://zekeblog.wordpress.com/2020/12/16/doggy-wish-list/


Re: [MCN-Announce]- My GoFundMe account is up and running…and it’s going to the dogs!
From: Zeke Krahlin
To: Frances Leyland
Date: 2020-12-20 06:04 PM

Great appeal letter Zeke. I really hope it brings in funds needed to properly care for your friend’s dogs.

My good friend, Tara (not her real name), who is an accomplished author and lives up there in Mendocino has spoken highly of you for your devotion to our animal companions. I am aware of S.O.S. and just checked out the website. Magnificent! I just posted yesterday my piece, “Reflections on a Black Puddle,” which I believe is even more powerful than my GoFundMe appeal. I am now in the process of reaching out further, via setting up social media accounts. This includes Youtube, and because all videos therein are kid friendly, I can easily monetize that playlist. I have just uploaded five videos today, of Wiley & Taco at play:

https://zekeblog.wordpress.com/2020/12/19/doggies-at-play-5-videos/

Notice the two kids’ sleeping bags that I’ve completely unzipped and use for comforters, that the pooches are playing on. They were donated by another announcement list subscriber, through my Amazon Doggie Wish List. A nice touch, I think. I sleep with those comforters myself, and hand one over to Deek whenever he needs a replacement to keep the brindlekins warm at night, when outdoors. That way, my scent and theirs is on it already, for their additional ease.

Thanks for all you are doing for, not only your friends dogs, but for your friend. I know what it is for folks to love their animals full heartedly and for them not having funds to keep them well, safe and fed That’s why I do the work I do. Your friend and his dogs couldn’t hope for a better friend.

I am honored for your VERY kind words of support, Frances! I am amazed how inspired I’ve become, thanks to these doggies, and my houseless friend’s sharing the love of his companions. Inspiration struck me like a lightning bolt just nine days ago, and things are moving fast and falling into place with eerie prescience. The Angels of Inspiration are working overtime on my behalf!

I already have $295 in my GoFundMe kitty, so on Monday I’ll open a separate bank account. This may all fizzle out in the long run, but it’s not for not trying! I’m sure a wallop of goodness will come out of this, no matter. It already is, and this is just the start of better things to come.

Wishing you the best,

I thank you, and Taco & Wiley thank you. They send you many “woofs” of appreciation!

  • Zeke

Fi-Di Sunshine & Transit

April 12, 2018

A happy, free-spirited denizen soaking up the sun in San Franicisco’s gorgeous Financial District, shimmering with glass and metal to the clouds and beyond!

Riding one of San Francisco’s signature streetcars, on my way downtown. Spectacularly drab: an eyesore to tourists, residents and working drones alike! The 3rd world never had it so good.


Another Democrat Spreads the Medicaid Lie

January 12, 2017

One Alix Rosenthal, who writes a regular column for the SF Examiner, made a claim in today’s article, that Medi-Cal is totally free for the poor, who are disabled or elderly. Here is the article’s URL, which includes my reply. Since it may not be accepted, my reply is also posted below:

http://www.sfexaminer.com/republican-voters-power-save-obamacare/

–begin my reply:

Regarding your statement, “Medi-Cal — the program that pays for 100 percent of your health care costs if you are senior, poor or disabled.” That is a cruel deception. For unless you collect a Social Security amount of $600 or less, you must pay a monthly share of cost (SOC) that takes every dollar above 600. For me, that means my SOC is $518…almost half my income!

This SOC mandate was instituted under Gov. Schwarzenegger’s watch in 1989, and is based on that year’s cost of living. It has never been raised since. Our present governor, Jerry Brown, has not seen fit to rectify this unfair arrangement that rips off the poor. Even though he is a Democrat, unlike Schwarzenegger. Not all states that have accepted expanded Medicaid charge a SOC, including Massachusetts, New Mexico and Minnesota. But I suspect that the majority of the 19 states that have expanded Medicaid, charge an exorbitantly unaffordable SOC.

When Obama announced expanded Medicaid, he said he’d leave it up to each state, how to spend it. Obviously, that includes whether or not they will squeeze the wallets of those who can least afford “affordable care.” As far as I’m concerned, there should be no SOC for those so poor as to be eligible for Medicaid in the first place. Obamacare, therefore, is more like a death sentence for tens of millions of Medicaid recipients, rather than a boon. Medi-Cal’s own site used to include a statement that admitted this SOC is so exorbitant, as to be useless to a large number of their clients. They have since erased it, replacing that remark with a bunch of undecipherable operating costs. I had to go to a dental service site, to find proof of my claim, and you can find it here:

http://www.shareofcost.com/state-assistance/share-of-cost-california.html

From which I quote:

“The MNL has not changed since 1989 and is $600 for an individual. Thus, anything an individual earns over $600 a month becomes that individual’s share of cost. For example, if an individual earns $1,100 a month, that person must incur $500 in medical costs each month before receiving any coverage from the Medi-Cal program. For consumers with a high share of cost, Medi-Cal provides little more than catastrophic coverage and does not enable them to access health care services.”

(MNL stands for “maintenance need level.”)

I was shocked four months after I applied for Medi-Cal (which I dropped over a decade ago, due to so many cutbacks it became useless to me), to receive their SOC notice, declaring that $518 monthly fee! Assuming this was an error, I marched on down to their office, only to be told no, that is the correct amount. I was angered and dismayed, and they gave no explanation as to why such a ridiculous monthly charge. So I had to do my homework by searching the web. The truth is hard to track down, as Medi-Cal has intentionally obfuscated the SOC fee. Other states’ Medicaid pages seem to be hiding the truth, too. Except for those that do not charge any SOC which, in their cases, they tell you up front, there is no monthly expense.

In June of 2015 I emailed a letter of outrage to Congressperson Nancy Pelosi (along with a copy of it to other Democratic leaders and 17 major alternative/progressive online news sites). Ms. Pelosi has never responded, nor have any of the other people and organizations I posted to. You may read that letter here:

https://zekeblog.wordpress.com/2015/06/09/obamacare-defecates-on-the-poor/

Meanwhile, the Democratic Party elitists pat each other on the back over the “miraculous” success of Medicaid. The Democratic Party, with President Obama at the helm, is complicit in this deadly dupe. Though I voted for him twice, I am disgusted at this deception that is the manipulation of both government and mainstream (and even alternative) media. For you, too, Ms. Rosenthal, believe this lie.

My teeth are almost all gone, and I cannot get any annual checkups to prevent or slow down blindness, due to my age, which is now 66. Many other preventative and treatable ailments are way beyond any sort of affordability. And this must be true of many others receiving Medi-Cal. Yet there is no outcry, no support groups, no political movement to bring justice to California’s poorest.


Medicaid = Megadeaths

August 10, 2016

While many folks are aware that 22 states have refused to expand Medicaid, at the cost of more than 4.3 million lives, they are not aware that many low income folks living in the (mostly blue) states, remain grievously shortchanged when it comes to affordable health care.

I live in the blue state of California, as a low income resident in San Francisco. Yet Obamacare’s expansion to Medi-Cal does nothing to make my health care anywhere near “affordable.” That is because California’s version of Medicaid has instituted a monthly share of cost in 1989, based on that year’s cost of living: $600…and it has not been adjusted upwards, ever since! The first question that comes to my mind, is: “How on earth did they get away with this?”

And California has never adjusted this cost of living ever since. Which means that Medi-Cal will not cover any medical fees until I pay $518 any given month…based on my social security income of $1,243. This is almost half my income, therefore I can not afford any sort of health care, including preventative or maintenance. This 1989 cost of living means that any monthly income beyond $600, is automatically stripped by Medi-Cal. Now, how can anyone survive on such an astronomical fee?

Some other states, such as Minnesota, New Mexico and Massachusetts, grant Medicaid recipients a much more reasonable cost. For example, Minnesota charges $0.00 (zero dollars) for anyone collecting $1,340 or less per month. Therefore, I conclude that California’s version of Medicaid (Medi-Cal) is ripping off the poor even to the point where their own lives are at stake. And if not their lives, causing them much misery because they cannot afford any of the care required to ease their suffering.

I can only assume that many other blue states are equally cruel, with little exception (those reasonable states like the three cited above). It is up to other enlightened folks to do the math, for I am barely treading water in struggling for my own freedom. Thus do not have either the time or energy to parse all inequities of this Medicaid debacle.

Perversely enough, this matter of blue state rip off is not even on the political radar, though red state issues around Medicaid are. As if every blue state has all its poor residents totally covered, with no reason whatsoever to complain. Here is a good example of how only the red (conservative) states are being blamed for outrageous out-of-pocket Medicaid fees:

Charging Medicaid Premiums Hurts Patients and State Budgets

In speaking out against this death sentence to the poor, I am usually slammed by my own progressive peers…accused of being a right-wing saboteur. (I am a Democrat, who voted for Obama FYI.) Very few have followed up on my claims, to see if I am correct regarding this matter. They are totally brainwashed.

And our government–along with the progressive media–are implicit in sweeping this horrid truth under the proverbial carpet. Meanwhile, time is ticking for this neglected soul, until the day comes when I suffer a major ailment, injury or emergency, which fees required by Medi-Cal will make me so poor, I can no longer feed myself, or keep a humble roof over my head. This is indeed a death sentence, for which I am greatly angered at our government, and wish it no good any more. For I need annual eye checkups to keep from going blind. Checkups which I can no longer afford. And who knows what other ailments I will suffer that are common to the elderly (for I am now 66 years old)? What about prostate cancer, arthritis, pneumonia, or going deaf? Many other medical issues occur to me, that I cannot afford to take care of, even if they are readily managed by our modern health care system…and for which I become ever more susceptible, due to my advanced age.

AMERIKA, GO FUK YOURSELF!

I am forced by a diabolical system to fight for my own life…as if I were the only one in this nation suffering such egregious abuse. For in my daily life–online as well as offline–I have yet to encounter anyone else with a similar gov’t boot stomping on his neck.

The only solution I can come up with, is to press for a class action lawsuit. Against both the state of California, and the White House! Which may land me in prison, or at best get me cut off from any social security and/or other government aid. For whistle blowers are not regarded kindly these days, in spite of a democratic president. I may likely perish in this fight to preserve my own life!

Thus I have arrived at a new faith in Our Creator: that He shall somehow grant me good health and fortitude through this battle that for whatever reason He has called me to wage. But do not think for a moment, that I have any faith in this nation, or any great love as some sort of hoodwinked patriot. For this Medi-Cal offense is more than an inconvenience: it is a willful threat towards my well being, and even existence, at the hands of Uncle Sam. So once more I say:

AMERIKA, GO FUK YOURSELF!

For proof of my claim about share of cost, see: California Share of Cost. Quote:

“For example, if an individual earns $1,100 a month, that person must incur $500 in medical costs each month before receiving any coverage from the Medi-Cal program. For consumers with a high share of cost, Medi-Cal provides little more than catastrophic coverage and does not enable them to access health care services.”

To my detriment, I do indeed have a “high SOC.” Talk about milking the poor unto their own death bed!


ADDENDUM

I tracked down four Youtube videos about Medicaid scam, that further verify my own assertion. Here we go:

1. What is the share of cost for Medi Cal?

To which I added my own comment:

“As if anyone poor enough to be eligible for Medicaid can even afford an estate planning attorney. Plus, the spouse is left with having to clean out his savings, until it is below Medicaid’s allowable assets, which is less than $3,000. Shoving the spouse into extreme poverty: way to go, Medi-Cal!”

2. The Medicaid bill that doesn’t go away when you die

My comment:

“As if that isn’t bad enough, monthly share of cost for Medi-Cal recipients is the remainder of their income OVER SIX HUNDRED DOLLARS! Example: if you receive $1,100 soc. sec. per month, your share of cost is $500! This is more of a death sentence than anything else. See:

Expanded Medicaid = Sick Joke

3. Medicaid is Ruining My Life

This man’s from Idaho, and his story is heartbreaking. But this video gives solid affirmation that even with expanded Medicaid, many states that have accepted it, are killing off the low-income disabled. He also stated that New Mexico has /no/ share of cost for its Medicaid recipients, and is therefore far more reasonable. In /my/ research, I discovered that Minnesota is likewise decent. BUT NOT CALIFORNIA! My comment:

“Randy: California is just the same as Idaho…very cruel. In my research, I discovered that Minnesota is like New Mexico: no share of cost. I’ve been trying to put the word out there, but I usually get accused of lying, and being a right-wing infiltrator…so it’s been a painful, uphill climb. I am so glad, however, that refinancing has proven a godsend for your situation…though millions of others still suffer, and will likely die before their time, and possibly be homeless first.

“I would really like to get a list of which states that accept expanded Medicaid charge a SOC, and which do not…to get a sense of how extensive the corruption. Many of these same people now suffering under Medicaid’s draconian rules voted for Obama, in faith he would improve their lot. Instead, he’s handed them a death sentence.

“I am now 66 years old; I do /not/ own a home, nor any other considerable asset, so I’m really screwed!

“You are welcome to view my three blog entries on this egregious cross dumped on the shoulders of the poorest, here in California. Do you think pursuing a class action lawsuit is feasible…both against each guilty state, and against the Federal Government? If so, I wonder why the ACLU hasn’t ever bothered to try to rectify this horrendous and deadly abuse by both state and Federal agencies. Here are those three Medi-Cal articles of mine, in chronological order:

Obamacare Defecates on the Poor

Expanded Medicaid = Sick Joke

No PrEP for the Poor

4. Understanding healthcare costs: Medicaid

No comment from this outraged client! They make everything look so generous and accommodating to the low income, I could puke.


And for the rest of you, who live the affluent lifestyle:


On PTSD & Larry Kramer

July 5, 2016

Like the air we breathe, intense stress has become part of everyone’s life on this planet. This explains all the explosive violence ’round the world…and why I conclude it will lead to a sort of nervous breakdown for the entire species of man. You may not call it PTSD unless it manifests in the public eye as rage…but it leads to drug/alcohol abuse, bad tempers, ill health and broken friendships. For example, if a person is homeless more than a month or so, I’d say he or she has PTSD by default. Though not diagnosed as such, since medical care is beyond that person’s reach. The suffering and violence across Africa, for another example…well, no way PTSD is going to stand in the wings. I see homeless people, and those too poor to live in anything but derelict housing in bad neighborhoods, suffering from this or that malady, whether physical or mental. They are not classified as PTSD sufferers, solely because they do not belong to at least a reasonably affluent level of society, and thus are not classified by those well paid doctors and psychiatrists as suffering from PTSD. In fact, they are not counted at all. Not everyone may have severe PTSD, but they certainly have either mild or moderate PTSD.

Plug in my sensitivity chip? Ah, yes, I’m such a mean, cold spirited person, I don’t know why you even bother to communicate with me. Sensitivity chip, my ass. Where do you come up with such phrases…you sound like a new age armchair psychologist who watches Dr. Phil reruns all day long. Considering all the sacrifices I’ve made all my life on behalf of my gay brothers and sisters who are homeless or destitute in other ways, taking many risks that threaten my survival (including from affluent gays as well as hetero dipshits), and living hand to mouth for many decades in order to perform my good works than get absorbed by the capitalist Borg, working in a cramped office making another person rich…I really don’t see where you get off saying this. I get numerous threats on my life throughout each year, both online and offline for being such a bold, outspoken whistle blower for our lowest class sexual minorities. So I make a point of patting myself on the back now and then, since it’s so very rare anyone else does.

My latest whistle-blowing achievement is a piece I posted just yesterday, called “No PrEP for the Poor.” It’s about how our low income LGBT’s cannot afford PrEP, which is a drug that prevents, as well as halts and eradicates, AIDS. So while the rich in our community can live a good life w/o the debilitation that comes with untreated AIDS, the low income among us must continue to exist in a virtual 1980’s “gay plague” kind of world. See:

https://zekeblog.wordpress.com/2016/06/30/no-prep-for-the-poor/

Just before that piece, I released a related one, called “Expanded Medicaid = Sick Joke,” ’cause that’s what it really is for the low income. Yet our gov’t wants everyone to think that Obamacare is a godsend for the poorest among us…at least, in the blue states. And I gave /proof/ of my claims by providing links to appropriate resources. You mocked me by posting an “Obama is Satan” pic, which colors me as one of those right-wing nut jobs. Instead of taking a serious look at what I’ve claimed in these posts, you are like so many naive liberals who really don’t see the dirt piling around them, as a result of not just GOP treachery, but the duplicity by the Democratic Party, which is but a gutted out version of its once proud history. Here’s my Medicaid piece:

https://zekeblog.wordpress.com/2016/06/29/expanded-medicaid-sick-joke/

I know your Obama/Satan pic was in response to my original Medicaid rant, which I titled “Obamacare Defecates on the Poor.”

https://zekeblog.wordpress.com/2015/06/09/obamacare-defecates-on-the-poor/

Maybe that language was too much for you…yet that is a very good way of putting it. For it handed a death sentence to 10’s of millions of poor citizens, including myself…while the Democratic Elitists pat themselves on the back for what a “miraculous” success Is Medicaid.

I’m wondering if you’ve read any of my recent pieces about the attack on the poor and LGBT’s by both the RW and the progressive wing. Maybe so many folks like you, who have /some/ level of affluence that keeps the wolves at bay, are so shocked by looming specters of /genuine/ terror enveloping our society in greater proportion each day, that you cannot face the truth, and have become hypnotized into convincing yourselves that things aren’t really as bad as they are. Did you see my piece about Republican lawmakers proposing death to gays? Do you think I’m making this up? Here it is:

https://zekeblog.wordpress.com/2016/05/27/killing-gays-the-republican-agenda/

You and other naive liberals sure make my work an uphill climb that is far steeper than it should be. Bad enough I get ridiculed by the right wing for being an alarmist, and a deluded old fuk…but to have those on /my/ side (progressive and Democratic) do the same thing, is disgusting (to say the least). Let me tell you a secret about PTSD:

One can learn to harness this chaotic force to work in your favor, as a creative tool for righteous outrage. And that is what I have done. So enough of your flippant remarks (and here I’m not just addressing you, but the many others of your ilk whom I call “clueless liberals”): get off the pot pretending the poor and disenfranchised, especially LGBT’s, of our country, don’t really have it all that bad. For we are one step away from full blown holocaust. One may easily make a case that it’s already here, though in the form of a slow genocide. Slow enough, in fact, to make it easy for everyone to look the other way (and mock anyone who speaks out, such as yours truly)…as did the people in Germany as they saw Jews being shipped away by rail, to what they thought were neighboring nations and not (as it really turned out to be) concentration camps.

While I may keep a light heart and sense of humor most of the time, really, Marla, I deal with very serious issues. And some of your responses are grossly insensitive. Like so many on Facebook who prefer this space to be their frivolous getaway from life’s problems, and don’t really appreciate activists like me, who make their presence known. For the truly poor in these disUnited States can /not/ afford to participate in social media. In that way (among other ways), I am an anomaly.

In conclusion: I don’t think you’re that much in touch with the dark side of America, growing darker each day BTW, and seem to behave like things are far better than they really are. News flash: I think your own sensitivity chip needs some fine turning or (better yet) a total replacement. Maybe it’s just the battery, what do I know.

P.S.: I had a similar argument with another “clueless liberal” two months back…a gay, retired person living in Alaska, as it turned out. When I described the inequity of Medicaid, how it’s a death sentence for many poor folks, he told me to “get off the pity pot!” So I just ripped into him like nobody’s business…and called that piece “Baked Alaskan.” Obviously, his sensitivity chip is broken, too.

https://zekeblog.wordpress.com/2016/05/31/baked-alaskan/


The foundations set up by Larry Kramer and his ilk…which are upper middle class gays…do not benefit low income, and homeless within the queer community. Well, maybe just a little. The LGBT family is just as elitist as any other. ACT UP et al merely serve to save the lives of the affluent within their community, not the poor. Larry founded GMHC (Gay Men’s Health Crisis) that now has outposts in all major cities across America. But for the most part, they do little for those who are homeless or low income, even though they claim to include them in their mission.

You can visit their web site, gmhc.org, and see for yourself, that there is nothing they provide for the homeless (or poor), except links to other organizations. And even those organizations offer threadbare assistance, at best. And mostly for “youth,” which they consider to be no older than 25. Once you hit the ripe old age of 26, it’s “fuk you” and you’re back out on the streets again (unless you’re already there). There is nothing provided by the queer community, for homeless LGBT’s who are no longer considered young.

Mr. Kramer /did/ speak out for our poor and disenfranchised LGBT’s, but they/we were dropped from the community as an increasing number of wealthy queers infiltrated these political groups and took over. Here is a 9 minute video of Larry being interviewed by a fluffy drag queen called “Lady Bunny”:

A Conversation With… Larry Kramer _ Lady Bunny

What Kramer had to say is right on, and I appreciate that. But c’mon, someone by name of Lady Bunny adorned with a humongous, puffed up wig turns the entire interview into a mockery of the horror of homophobia and what we are up against. Bad enough that heteros treat us like a joke, but for a queer celebrity to do the same thing, is beyond pathetic. She certainly doesn’t convey the gravity of this ongoing anti-LGBT persecution, to her hetero viewers who are concerned enough to educate themselves.

In the video, she asks where all the vibrant activists and leadership have gone. I’ll tell you where they’ve gone: into their own shells, because those already in power have repressed and marginalized us for decades now. Some, like me, continue to fight the good fight, in spite of rejection from our own community. Thank goddess for the Internet, for it gave me a voice to the world that would otherwise have remained obfuscated by our local, petty politics. I think most, if not all, of our present leaders are in it for the self glory and monetary profit, more than out of any true desire to elevate our position in this world.

I participated for a short while in both ACT UP and Queer Nation. But I soon grew discouraged, due to the numerous self-serving members who spurned most participants that were not white like them, or older than 35, or did not espouse their watered down, pampered middle class version of progressive activism. Very cliquish. It was no longer their strategy to embrace our homeless and low income brothers/sisters, as part of the struggle. What they achieved, therefore, was AIDS prevention and treatment, and other benefits for their own middle and upper class needs. Just like medicinal marijuana.

A perfect example of this is described in my own recent blog entry, how our lowest income queers are denied both AIDS prevention and AIDS recovery, while the reasonably affluent and up have full access, Have you read it yet? I just uploaded it two days ago. It’s short, though important, and I hope you do check it out.

https://zekeblog.wordpress.com/2016/06/30/no-prep-for-the-poor/

I have little to no support or recognition for my dedicated activism, by our SF community. Which is shocking, considering my talent as a reporter and author…that could be quite a groundbreaker for furthering our struggle. The social circle of both Harvey Milk and Larry Kramer pushed me out of their world, and for this reason I wonder how many other good souls they’ve repressed, that could’ve contributed much to our cause. I think what’s going on, is that they want to keep their own positions of power and adulation, more so than actually conquering AIDS and homophobia. For if that ever happened, they fear they’ll fall to the wayside and be replaced by others.

Many times over the last few decades I’ve offered my services to various LGBT newspapers and organizations, as a columnist or investigative reporter, as well as an activist with many novel tactics that could shatter the walls of our enemies. Yet not a single nibble. Though ounce in a while, one of my ideas gets stolen by an already-known activist, who then takes credit for it. Such as my dispute with Queer Nation in 1991:

http://www.gay-bible.org/truetales/6_dispute.htm

So thank you for comparing me with Mr. Kramer, it’s quite flattering. Just thought I’d fill you in with the reality of my situation, and that of disenfranchised queers at large. Though I do hold onto an ultimately optimistic viewpoint, based on the Buddha’s tenet: “We have no enemies, only teachers.”

For perhaps, just perhaps, the LGBT community is so hard on me, is because they have great expectations for my activism, and want me to be very strong. What better way to be strengthened through oppression by the very own people you struggle to save? And in never giving up and forging onward in spite of this undeserved backlash, I grow keener and more powerful, as well as wise. Until the time this community has enabled me (through testing by one obstacle after another) to reach a certain level of perfection…whereby they will finally cease their animosity, and let me through that gate like a charging bull.

I therefore think there is some secret society of LGBT’s that is grooming me and others (who they are, I have no idea) for leadership. Without letting me know, though expecting me to figure it all out in the long run. And that conclusion I reveal in Chapter 9 of my novel, “Free Me From This Bond”:

https://zekeblog.wordpress.com/2012/04/19/dragon-fire-in-the-hole/

How’s /that/ for a response to your chat comment? :D


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